Chapter 10 - Accidental Bump

Jade felt like she had been running because she was short of breath, but she had only walked out of the hospital.

Her spirit felt crushed and shattered in a million pieces....She took in deep breaths, trying to control her emotions and compose herself, but she was failing miserably at it.

She was desperate to be alone. She wanted to go somewhere, anywhere other than here. She continued sprinting out of the lobby of the hospital when she accidentally bumped against someone.

His built was solid...rock like, she staggered back a few steps when his hands suddenly held her steady. His savoury fragrant smell seeped through her nose to her olfactory nerve and her brain decoded that familiar smell. But she was too distressed to be bothered by it.

"I'm sorry" She said with her head lowered before dashing out of the hospital.

She hailed down a taxi and plopped down on the sit, before realizing she had nowhere to go. She didn't know what to do, or where to go at the moment. She couldn't go home now, and her mother was still very much vexed at her. The last thing she needed was the 'i told you so' sermon for her mother. Jade gasped for air for a while and she tried hard to control her tears, but she caved in.

The taxi driver had asked for her destination a couple of times but got no reply. He had only started driving when Jade asked him to stop, making him frown. He noticed her miserable countenance and he felt sympathetic towards her.

She felt she had ran out of air as she hurriedly jumped out of the cab. She couldn't breath, her lungs felt deflated. Her chest greatly tightened, making her hit on it. She had never experienced an heart attack but whatever she was feeling now, felt like it. She tried to restrain the tears prickling her eyes but they flowed out freely.

She wanted to be alone, to hide from the eyes of people who will pity her. She needed to find a place where she could unburden her tears from her prying eyes.

Her heart squeezed her tightly, making her pound on it forcefully.

What sort of betrayal was this? Never did she think that she'd suffer betrayal and heart break most especially from the man she had loved with her all.

She stood dazed on the walkway when it suddenly started raining. How pitiful was she now, that even the heavens had began to weep for her? Could this day be any worse?

She raised her face to the sky as the rain trickled down on her face. Jade was torn inside out. She felt like she was been trampled on, because every part of her body was shaking. She didn't notice neither did she mind the attention she was drawing to herself at the moment, must especially from the piercing eyes of the man she bumped into.

'In what way did her love lack?' Has she not given her all? Where had she gone wrong? How could she let her self be fooled for so long?' a Plethora of such depressing questions seeped through her mind.

She felt like walking but found herself running as it rained heavily. She ran till her legs felt sore. She was drenched in the rain and no matter how cold it was, she felt her body was ablaze. She crouched down down and screamed her lungs out. She screamed till her throat became sore and her voice lost.

What was the meaning of her sacrifice? She had given up herself, broke her mother's heart, disregarded her brother's plea to love Cale cautiously. But she had been so foolish thinking her world revolved around him. She had loved him with no reserve.

Jade had met Cale in high school where she had crushed on him for the longest of time. He was the high school popular Jock, who was popular with the girls and was amazingly good looking. They had only started dating in their second year in college. She had given her all in this undeserving relationship. She worked part time all through school just to assist Cale. She had tried pleasing him by doing chores for him daily. He had gotten his current Job all thanks to her.

What had she not done? Helping him study, helped him with his assignments, written his fucking thesis, prepared every presentation PowerPoint and reviews for him. She had loved his friends and family unreservably and continuously put in her best into the relationship.

Many times she had fantasied about getting married to him, their wedding night and also about popping mini Cale's and Jade's for him. But why was this the result of her love?

How did she go wrong? In what way was she not deserving of his love?