Chapter 82 - Conflicting Emotions

Jade didn't know what to expect from this weekend or the subsequent ones to come. It seemed the week went by so quickly that it was now saturday. A day to see the guy she least wanted to see.

She really couldn't believe she was doing something like this.This week was damn too fast. When did it start that it had suddenly ended so quickly, reminding her she still had an unwanted job some where, if she could actually call it that. She really doubts if it could be called a job. The week should have gone a little slower than usual. That would have been great, at least she'd have a enough time to prepare herself both mentally and emotionally. But from the look of things, no amount of preparation would be enough to prepare her.

She laid under the quilt, staring at the ceiling with a myriad of thoughts running through her head.

She had dreamt about that unpleasant night at the club, when she had sold herself to a stranger. A stranger who she must now spend eight hours of her weekends with.

Why did she suddenly dream about that awful night? How did things turn out to be like this? She hasn't really thought much about how awkward this arrangement was. But now, she was being drowned by how outrageous this stupid business deal was.

Her mind flashed back to how Jake's eyes had caressed her skin on that night and the way he kept looking at her like a meal he'd love to gobble up in that conference room. And what was that he said about having a medical condition with his eyes again?

How the hell was she going to spend fours with him when she still hasn't gotten over that regrettable night she had spent with him?

Was she expected to laugh when he does or say something funny? Or respond to ever question he asks? How was she expected to react?

For Pete's sake that....that man has seen her naked, slept with her, done alot of things to her and he had taken her virginity...or rather she had given it to him at a price. She was sure going to be uncomfortable throughout this godforsaken arrangement with him. That was a fact.

She had thrown herself at that man and she had taken his money like she was some prostitute. Could it be that he actually saw her as one?- a prostitute- and could that be why he had made such a ridiculous deal with her, just so he could have his way with her again?

Could there really be a motive behind this so called deal?

No Jade, I don't think he's that bad. He is a business tycoon who controls hundreds of companies. He wouldn't be that bad right? He can always get any girl he wants at the snap of his finger. So he wouldn't go this far just to sleep with you again. A voice in head tried to convincing her.

Wait! What if he brings up what happened at that night, even though he has promised not to. She won't be able to do anything to stop him if he tries embarrassing her with that. After all, he is an influential person who has ba well known promiscuous life, this she has known, special thanks to google.

She rolls under her bed in frustration with her eyes closed. How did I make such a mistake? Am I being punished for betraying my family in my previous life??

'God please help me' She muttered under her quilt with her hand in a pleading position. This was all she could ask for. For God to be merciful to her and make that man act properly all throughout their four hours of gaming session.

She remembered how she had sat through that meeting with great difficulty. Her bravado performance had come in handy but not without expending so much energy. It had taken alot out of her to sit in front of that man and act like nothing had happened.

This was too much. Jade it's nothing but a business deal. You have to stop feeling embarrassed about it. Alot of people do this sort of things. Just get a grip over yourself everything will be fine, I hope.

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Jake on the other hand was having a conflict with his emotions. Weird emotions that were slowly drowning him.

He has never anticipated for the week to end for he found himself doing just that all week long. Unfortunately this week has been a slow burn one. It actually crawled like a snail. At a point he had thought maybe the hours has been elongated by a few hours.

But now that the his most anticipated weekend has arrived he didn't know what to do anymore.

A plethora of questions had been swarming and clogging his mind.

Why did he make such a deal with her in the first place? In all honesty, he has been completely sold out to her performance at the meeting. He was certain the girl was incredibly smart. She knew her way with words, but there was something about her that made him want to keep her beside him and shield her from whatever could trouble her.

His first impression of her was naive and bold. When he met her at the club, everything about her screamed how naive she was. From the way her eyes danced through the club, to the way she pushed through the crowd, offering an apologetic look to every body that bumped into her, to the way she gulped down those shots, he knew she wasn't used to that sort of life. He was sure that was her first time coming to a place like that.

He liked the way she locked her eyes on his like she was daring him to say no to her, even though he knew she was way too nervous, but she was being smart not to sure it.

How he loathed naive girls. He hated the idea of innocent girls trying to be what they were not. He wasn't the type to coax a woman into having sex with him. He was never patient to do such.

But Jade's naivity had had a different effect on him. It was like he didn't want to let go. All he wanted to do was sooth her raking nerves and coax her till she finally gives in.

Even when she flinched at his every touch, he should have asked her to leave. but no, he couldn't hold himself back and neither could he bear to ask her to leave.

A kiss on her lips was all that pulled him and he just wanted more. Her sea blue eyes held alot of emotions dying to seep out.

The memories of her crying under the rain had etched a room for itself in his brain. He could vividly remember how broken she was when he bumped into her at the hospital. How she had ran under the rain, scrouched under it screaming her lungs out. He felt his heart ache and for the first time he regreted his decision of sleeping with her.

There was something about Jade that keeps drawing him to her. A glance at her steers up conflicting and weirds emotions inside of him. He's completely at a loss on what he wants from her.

It's almost as if a certain lust has engulfed his body since that night and it seems only Jade could quench this lustful thirst in him.

Could it be that was all he wants or could there be something else. Something he doesn't know?

But one thing that made him happy despite all this unsettling and frustrating emotions brooding inside him, was the fact that he now has the chance to see her and hear her voice whenever he wants....though, not whenever, but at least every week.

For now, that was enough for him. Till he knows what he wants and how to get it.

His ringing phone jolted him back to reality. He frowned as he reached out his hand for his bedside table. Funny how he still sprawled on his bed thinking about a girl, who someone who probably has wrong timing was suddenly disrupting his thoughts.

Jake's eyes nearly fell out of their sockets when he realized who the caller was.

He wasn't seeing things right. She was calling first? Was she that eager to see him? A smile splitbhis face at that thought but it was short lived when he thought about...

What if she wants to opt out of the deal?

Jake stared at his nervously, he didn't understand why was being nervous. Just pick the damn call already!

He slowly slide the answer button just at the nick of time.

"Hello" He heard her say from the other side. That was all he needed to calm his nervous self.. If she has the intention of breaking their deal, he wouldn't let her.