Chapter 276 - More Than Perfect

Blake's heart was over the moon, when Amy kept hugging him like that. He didn't know why his heart was reacting that way, and yearning for him to desperately wanted to hug her back but.....

Amy sighed warily when Blake remained that way and didn't even hug her back. She felt a pang on her chest and she must admit that it hurt badly.

A while ago they had shared a moment at the server room, and her stupid heart has been ministering some things to her. Telling her Blake might have actually started to like her. But him not responding to her, even though by hugging her back, she couldn't help but feel like she has been deceiving herself all over again. How could she let herself be swayed by just that moment which lasted for less than a minute.

Realizing how she had embarrassed herself by hugging him, Amy slowly let go of her hold on him, and took a step back.

"I'm sorry" She apologized with a hurt tone, which she was trying so much to hide. Blake looked at her when he heard how low she sounded.

Feeling hurt and embarassed, Amy decided to walk away, but Blake unexpectedly held her back. His hand firmly holding her wrist.

She was surprised when he held her hand and pulled her back. Her eyes looked at his hand holding hers and she slowly raised her eyes to look at him.

His eyes were looking at her face intently like they were searching for something.

"Why are you sad?" Blake asked her, his eyes were seriously searching hers which were lacking the glow they had minutes ago.

Was she sad? of course she was sad and he was the reason for it.

"I'm not sad" She replied, but Blake didn't believe her. He removed his hand from her hand and cupped her face. His actions made Amy looked at him with surprised eyes. He was doing it again wasn't he? Acting all lovey with her when he still wasn't interested in her.

"You know you just lied. I know you well Amy and you know that" He told her, his eyes not leaving her for one second, and his hand still holding her cheeks.

Amy looked at him in the eye as he said those words. He knew her? If he did why didn't he know she still liked him? And why didn't he know she wanted him to love her back just as much as she loved him. That she still hasn't stopped having feelings for him. Or was that too hard for him to see?

"Blake what are doing?" She snapped as she angrily brushed his hand off her face. Blake was surprised when Amy snapped at him.

"What am I doing?" He asked confusedly, his eyes blinking rapidly. What has he done now? He felt uneasy when he noticed how sternly she was looking at him.

"This Blake, you're doing this" She pointed her hand at the both of them.

Okay, Blake was even more confused. What was he doing now that was making her this mad. He didn't know, and he wanted to know so he would stop doing it. He wasn't liking the fact that she was being angry at him.

"Amy please tell me what you're talking about, I don't understand" He pleaded with her. He didn't know why he was being anxious right now, but he really didn't like the thought of her being angry at him. It was breaking his heart.

Amy gave him a knowing look, "Of course, you won't know" She hissed as she turned to leave again, and again he grabbed her back and this time he didn't hold her hand, he pulled her into his arms and hugged her tightly.

"Amy don't be angry at me, just tell me what it is, I'll apologise" He desperately pleaded. All his resolution about keeping his distance from her has been thrown into the wind. He didn't care about that, he Just didn't want her to be angry with him, like she was right now.

Is he this dense?

"Are you dense or you're trying to be dense?" Amy snapped again and forcefully pushed him away, making Blake to look at her with widened eyes.

'Dense?'

"Can't you see what you're doing? Can't you see I'm still in love with you? Why are you giving me all this mixed feelings? I know you've rejected my feelings once and I'm so stupid to still have those feelings for you, but can't you just love me back? Can't you just have a little feeling for me? And you keep making things difficult for me with all these things you keep doing. I don't even know why I still care about you, I don't know what's so special about you that I can't let go of. I...I" Amy had tears in her eyes and she wasn't fast enough to withhold them from falling down because the very next second a fat tear rolled down her cheek.

Blake was stunned when she started lashing out like that, he was transfixed to the ground.

But when he saw her crying, he didn't know when and how he pulled her into a hug. It felt like the best thing to do.

"Please don't cry" He whispered comfortingly into her ear, while Amy wrapped her arm around him.

"Why don't you like me? Am I not good enough?" She asked against his chest. She didn't know why she was crying now, and to be honest she despised herself for it. She didn't want to cry in front of the man she loved but she couldn't help it.

What could she do? She had selflessly being in love with him for a long time with no reserve. She had to admit that she was pained by his rejection towards her. What was so hard in loving her back? Maybe if he agreed to date her and things doesn't work out for the both of them, then she'd know that at least they tried and it might be easier to let go of him and forget about him altogether.

Blake pulled her face up to look at him, his hand holding her fluffy chhejs while he wipef her tears with his thumb.

He didn't think she wasn't good enough. To him she was the most perfect girl to date if ever he wanted to date any girl. She was smart, bold, loving, daring, and most importantly she had a beautiful soul. She was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen and there was this weird reaction his body gets whenever he was close with her.

Looking into her eyes, he said, "You're more than perfect" his voice and the way he was looking at her at the moment showed the sincerity in his words.

"Then why don't you want me?" She asked in a small and sad voice. Her eyes were searching his eyes, just as much as his eyes were looking deep into her eyes.

"Maybe it's because I'm stupid" He replied. His voice was slow, calm and gentle, and it wad pricking on the walls of her heart. Amy didn't understand what he meant by that. She didn't want that kind of answer.

She pulled away from him, wiped the remnant of tears from her eyes and intensed her gaze on him.

Looking him straight in the eyes, she asked, "Blake, do you like me?" 

Blake was shocked when he heard that. Okay, like for real he wasn't expecting that. He sighed deeply when he saw the intense and serious look she had on her face. He could tell she needed and answer and she needed it now.

He lowered his head and replied, "I don't know"

To be honest, he really didn't know. He didn't know if he liked her, just as much as she liked him, or if he liked her enough to date her...or if he wanted to start dating at all. But all he knew was, he has been thinking alot about her lately, and most especially that day when she had confessed her feelings to him. He had been a sense of regret towards it, he has been wishing if he should have handled things differently.... like maybe not turn her down? He has been finding himself missing her when she was not around. And when she was around him, he'd want her to stay more. And he remembered how he felt when she admitted dating that guy. He felt like ripping the guy's neck off. He didn't know if all these feelings qualified as him liking her. So in all honesty, he truly didn't know.

"Then I guess it's time you find out" She told him fiercely. Blake looked at her in stupefaction. How was he supposed to do so?

"What about that Ethan guy?" Blake couldn't help but ask. Weren't they dating?

Amy looked at him with angry eyes. 'Is he really that stupid? No, tell her why she was foolishly in love with a guy as dense and stupid as this?'

Author and readers answer: Because you're both stupid and you both should just kiss already. We're getting impatient.

"Just so you know, we're not together" She curtly replied.

"Really?" Blake incredulously asked, making Amy roll her eyes at him, but she chose to ignore his silly question and say what was on her mind.

"Blake I'm getting really impatient with you. So you better find out how you really feel about me, and tell me or I'm really going to date someone else for real" She declared making Blake's to look at her with surprised eyes. Was she going to threaten him now?

Amy narrowed her gaze at him, and sternly said, "And you have two weeks to figure it out" She said before storming out of the room.