Chapter 49 - CONTROL

The truth about her thoughts, view, and feelings regarding the three of them, they are revealed. Alyx's not the type of person who would force himself to be liked by someone. Even with Alyana, he was waiting patiently in the shadows, and would only do necessary actions if he needed to. But with Yanarym, he always had to take action and be fierce, because if he would be idle something would always come forth to happen that he could not foresee. She's unpredictable- and he detest things he couldn't control.

Alyx's been living a life without pleasing anybody, they would be the ones who are pleasing him. Aside from his parents and younger brother because he thought that it would be too troublesome and a waste of energy to rebel. But yet, he didn't beg for love and attention from his parents, he accepted that he was not the favorite son and let it pass, living his life with no concern for them.

He's a proud person and when it comes to pride, he's one of those people with mountain pride. He was very confident if it's about himself, and the way that Yanarym sees him, was nothing like the man he used to be, at least if it's her, he's not his usual self.

For the first time in his whole life, he wanted a person for himself. He likes someone enough for him to contrast Alvan, which he never once did. He likes her too much, where he would even force her to be his. Even if she doesn't feel the same way. Letting her be, or feigning that he doesn't care, wasn't the option. He wanted her. If he couldn't have her heart, then he would have her body and soul. If Yarisa would be the only way to be with her, he wouldn't mind going to the shacks of hay just to please Yanarym.

"I don't know how to face you so I left. I also missed Yasa, that's why I came here to see her." As she speaks her twin's name, Alyx saw how her eyes dazzled along with her affectionate smile.

"You really like your sister, huh?"

"Hmm, I love her a lot..."

"Did you hear what I said earlier?" He asked, pertaining to him talking to her in her sleep. He smiled as he realized that he tended to talk to her whenever she was sleeping. She was always asleep if they weren't fighting in bed. Only now that they have a sensible conversation.

"Um. Don't you like Alvan?" He hates the way she's speaking other men's names.

"I don't hate him, I don't like him either." He uttered with a slight tone of irritation.

"Your parents are forcing you to take care of him?" Yanarym didn't pay attention to the sudden creasing of his brows, he wasn't even hiding the fact that he doesn't like the topic. She felt his big hand play nudging with her fingers.

Yanarym found this gesture to be sweet and cute.

Guide-sama: "..."

"When he was born and while growing up, but now I'm just used to doing it. If I want to, I can abandon our relationship but it's too troublesome to do so." Alyx was enthralled at their hands, hers was too small but it fits perfectly at his. He intertwined their fingers and she closed her hand to grasp him, which made him delighted.

"Yasa and I… we're similar. You are Yasa, I am Alvan." He listened to her but kept his attention on their hands.

"When my mom and dad were still alive, even though Yasa and I have the same face, they loved and took care of me more than they paid attention to Yasa. I was a total klutz and useless, I can't do anything right. I was dependent on them, and they would pamper me with no question."

"Yasa, she's good at everything. She could dance and sing and cook and socialize with people. She can do a lot of things, and she dreamt to become an actress. When I found out she auditioned for a movie, I felt betrayed, I got angry."

"I don't want her to be famous, I don't want others to appreciate her. I'm afraid she'll leave me to forget. I didn't come along to her audition because we fought. I didn't know that was the last time we would talk. Because that day, they had an accident, my parents died. Yasa survived, from then on, I did my best to keep her breathing. "

"I thought of fulfilling her dream so that when he wakes up she will have connections to continue what she didn't want to do."

"It's just that I don't earn enough, I don't have any other source of income to pay for the hospital bills. Before I knew it, I was already forgotten and became a nameless actress. I always thought that if Yasa was there, she could be at the top, shining and admired by everyone."

"If I hadn't just fought her that day, if I hadn't cursed her, she wouldn't have had an accident. If I could, I would switch places with her..."

"Why do you keep on crying?" Alyx gazed at her, and she's crying again.

He couldn't help but frown because he couldn't understand why now his chest seemed to be constricting with her tears. How come whenever she cries, he could feel a different emotion tingling in his heart? One that's delightful, one that is disgruntling, and this one that makes him depressed.

"It's not your fault, it's an accident. And you're not like Alvan, he will never sacrifice his life for me. I'm not like your sister." He said, "How about we make a deal?"

"Deal?" He wipes her tears.

"When your sister wakes up with my help, you have to marry me.." He uttered in an ardent tone, he thought Yanarym would consider it first but bobbed her head without hesitation. Alyx loses his smile, "You will?"