Chapter 47

I'd rather destroy what I can't get

Koizumi said that the reason why I was sent out in the male prison was that I fainted at that time. The group of male prison were afraid of causing human life and did not dare to delay any longer, so they called the prison guards.

I guess that I was sick and weak at that time, and their threat also brought me to the verge of collapse, so I fainted.

But in the female prison, I also fainted, but I was thrown on the ground. No one cared about me, no one paid attention to me, and no one called the prison guard.

Xiang Jie is a prisoner with a 20-year sentence, which means she may stay later than everyone here, even the prison guards. She didn't plan to go out at all.

She was not afraid of boiling water and beat me fiercely. At the same time, she told others not to call the C.O.

Early the next morning, I woke up on the dirty ground of the detention house. The first ray of sunlight in the morning just hit my eyes, and I opened my eyes,

Show a bitter smile.

Someone came up to me and kicked me, "new comer, go and pour the urinal!"

In fact, the body has been exhausted to the extreme, but I all when the body is not their own, and strive to get up from the ground, staggering to the corner of the prison.

Just a few steps, almost everyone has to kick me or push me.

With the signal released by Xiangjie yesterday, all the people bullied me unscrupulously. They knew that if Xiangjie was provoked, there would be no way to live in this cell.

At this time, to suppress me is the best loyalty to sister Xiang.

But I don't care. I don't have the slightest expectation of this place. Now I understand that if I want to survive here, the only way is to treat myself as a walking corpse.

Besides physical injury, Xiangjie's beating changed my situation in the cell.

Yesterday, only Xiangjie and Hongjie put their garlic

In my bag, today, all the female prisoners took out their garlic and put part of it in my bag.

I looked at all this indifferently, just like a garlic peeling machine, just staring at the garlic in my hand, without any protest.

I peel in silence, recalling the first half of my life, what did I do wrong, so that I have to be punished like this. I don't understand, so I think over and over again.

I didn't finish peeling the garlic. As yesterday, I was punished for not having lunch.

I don't care, or say, except for the news of going out, there's nothing to stir up the ripples in my heart now.

A white steamed bread was presented to me.

I looked up, followed a slender hand to see a face, the right side was covered with a birthmark. And yesterday's care is different, that face now with a sense of hate.

I looked into her eyes and didn't speak. I have nothing to say about this person who has given me warmth but is actually worse than others.

She handed the steamed bread to me and said with a smile, "you eat it!"

I meekly took the steamed bread from her hand, but she flew up and kicked it to the ground. It rained last night. The ground was muddy. The white steamed bread rolled several times on the ground, covered with mud, and finally stopped at the edge of a small puddle.

My wrist is very painful, but I don't want to make a painful expression, just look up at her.

With a sneer, she squatted down and looked me in the eye and said, "aren't you hungry, Huanyan? Go and eat

I stand up, her eyes become very alert, seems to be afraid that I will start, but she really think too much, now I have no intention to make enemies with anyone.

I walked to the white steamed bread. Bend down and pick it up.

"I'd rather destroy what I can't get." Her voice sounded behind me. I stopped and waited for her.

"Lin Huanyan, I'll give you one last chance." Her tone seemed to have a slight appeal.

I didn't speak, so I peeled the dirty steamed bread and put it in my mouth. The steamed bread was hard and dry, with dirty rain, which made my throat ache and tears almost fell. But I clenched my lips and held back.

Maybe my attitude angered her, she said coldly, "OK, Lin Huanyan, don't regret it."

I didn't go back to my seat until I heard someone leave and swallowed the last mouthful of steamed bread. I continued to peel garlic.

I really hate such a total loss of dignity of their own, but I have no way, I have to live, live, there is hope.

The sky and the rain, hit me in the face and body.

I know clearly in my heart that I should not get wet when I am still sick, but I don't want to move.

Today's garlic is too much. I didn't finish my ideological education class in the afternoon. Naturally, the prison guards would be very sarcastic and critical

In the end, he angrily dropped the sentence "lazy donkey grinds" and let me go to class.

Cold plus beating, my body is very tired, originally good performance of ideological education class also because of this physical condition frequent mistakes, let me impression good instructor is also very dissatisfied. But I have no choice.

Small animals in the face of a powerful opponent, there will be a premonition of danger instinct. As soon as I returned to the cell after the ideological education class, I was acutely aware that the atmosphere in the room seemed very wrong.

There was always someone bullying me in the original cell, but at that time, they looked at me like a little cat and dog, but they were just a poor creature without resistance.

But today, they look at me as if they are looking at something incredible. I can't feel my head, I just feel the danger instinctively.

I don't know why, I feel like I'm in a trap.

I went to the cupboard with my toiletries. As soon as I took them down to wash, someone came and bumped into me, and the toiletries fell all over the floor.

It's Koizumi. She gave me a provocative look.

I didn't speak. I squatted down to pick up my things.

"Hello, new comer!" Sister Xiang stopped me.

I looked up at her with a dead silence in my eyes“ I'm going to wash my feet, "she said, half lying on the bed with slippers on her feet, shaking her legs." just use your washbasin. "

I followed her fingers and saw my basin on the floor. It was the basin I used to wash my face.

But I didn't argue. I picked up the basin and went out to get the water.