Chapter 91

I killed a man

"What's the matter with all this?" I asked anxiously, "you're not that careless."

Mu Yifan breathed a long breath, "no matter how cautious? I still don't know what's going on. "

His voice was quiet, but his face was full of pain.

"That day, the director said there was an operation for me, so I should do it. Before the operation, I said to tell the patient's family members that the patient's condition is not optimistic, and there is also the possibility of failure of the operation. I asked the patient's family members to sign a consent form for the operation.

A nurse with a mask went out with the consent of the operation and came back later to give it to me.

Because of the time constraint, the operation is about to start. I saw the signature of the patient's family members, but I didn't go to them for verification. I didn't expect, I really didn't expect... "

He held his head in his hands and winced in pain, like a child who was at a loss after an unacceptable storm outside.

I didn't know what to do, just reached out and gently patted him on the back.

Perhaps for him now, any comfort is thin and powerless.

His voice was stuffy, "you know what? I've wanted to be a doctor since high school. For this, I applied to the medical school of M University, and I worked hard. "

At this point, he sneered, "you all say that I am a gifted doctor, and that my future is limitless.

But how many times, when you go shopping, I spend a whole day in the laboratory for a little bit of data; How many times, you go out all night to play games, I read the latest medical journals all night, just to better understand the most cutting-edge technology of medicine.

Everyone saw my boundless scenery and said that I was a genius, but the efforts behind me were ignored. "

I know. He's not talking to me.

He said, "but I didn't regret it. However, no matter how hard the life of medical students is, I have no regrets. Because I like this one

I really want to be a doctor

"I know, Yifan," I said softly, "you've always been a good doctor."

Mu Yifan shook his head, no fighting spirit, "no, I'm not, I killed a man..."

He was stimulated by the words and sudden attacks on the Internet and began to doubt himself. He even felt that it was his own fault

I grasped his shoulder with both hands, looked at his dark and gentle eyes, and said firmly, "no, Mu Yifan, in my heart, you have always been a good doctor."

He dropped his eyes, gave a mocking smile and wanted to say something.

I interrupted. "I know what you're trying to say. But I just want to say those cliches on the Internet, but mu Yifan, who knows you? Who has been involved in your life? If a group of strangers are led by the so-called truth to speak out, if you believe it and begin to doubt yourself, you will be a real fool. "

"Huanyan, you don't understand..."

"How do you know I don't understand?" I looked at him steadily, "when my son was just ill, my ex husband cheated and didn't want to see a doctor for his child. I didn't want to spend money, so I went to the night dance to earn money. But unexpectedly, in order to force me to divorce as soon as possible, they secretly took pictures of me dancing at night and sent them to the Internet. " He looked at me with wide eyes and said, "how can they do this?"

I smile quietly, time has passed so long, I can say these more insipid, "they are like this.

At that time, Qin Muyan and I met again. Qin Muyan was so angry that he brought down my ex husband's small company for me.

My ex husband wrote at the bottom of that post that when he was about to go bankrupt, I cheated on him. I was with a rich man and hit him hard. "

Mu Yifan looked at me, his dark eyes full of heartache.

I shrugged, "it's conceivable that a large number of keyboard men came to scold me, saying that I'm a bitch. I have no conscience and deserve to die. Yifan, do you think I am such a person? "

He shook his head and understood what I was going to say. "Of course not."

I bowed my head, "most of the time, the truth in the eyes of most people is not necessarily the truth. It's ridiculous that they still insist on their so-called justice. I dare say that few of the so-called righteous keymen on the Internet are more honest and kind than me in real life. "

Mu Yifan was amused by my big words and showed his first smile today.

"So, Yifan, about whether you are a good doctor, those people's words don't need to consider at all." I smile and take the opportunity to make a summary.

He looked at my smile, the expression became soft, "happy face, you are still as tough and optimistic as before. I didn't expect that as a big man, I would like you to comfort me with a little girl. "

He lowered his head in embarrassment.

"First of all, you are too macho; Second, I'm not a little girl. " I corrected him seriously.

"In my heart, you have always been a little girl." He has a gentle tone

It's full of love.

I dodged his words and said, "what's next? What are your plans? "

Mu Yifan pushed gold glasses and sighed, "I haven't thought about it yet. I'm so infamous now that I can't go anywhere. I think that's the end of my medical future in China. "

Although he was not so depressed, he still had a sense of despair.

After all, once the dream that we have insisted on for many years is destroyed, no matter who experiences such a thing, it will not be sad.

I comforted him, "although it's no good at home, it's better to go abroad. No one over there knows about it, and there are more opportunities for development. "

Mu Yifan was about to answer when his mobile phone suddenly rang.

He took it up and looked at it. His face was not good and he hung up directly.

I asked anxiously, "are these gossip reporters?"

Mu Yifan shook his head in a complicated tone, "no, it's the president of the hospital."

Think of before in the hospital heard that the doctor said Mu Yifan and the Dean quarrel, think it is the dean to see this is a bit big, called him to the office criticized his carelessness.

As soon as the voice dropped, the phone rang again. Mu Yifan hesitated for a moment, or picked up, "hello."

The Dean over there didn't know what to say. I saw Mu Yifan's face become complicated. At last, he gradually hesitated and finally said, "OK, I'll think about it again."

After I hung up, I asked, "what's the matter?"

Mu Yifan put his mobile phone in his pocket and pinched his eyebrow bone with his slender and beautiful fingers. He looked very tired and sighed deeply, "the dean said that the situation has been found out."