Chapter 65 - You Won't Understand (Volume 1 Finale)

"You have weird friends," Yul commented once she was out of sight. Zeng shrugged. "Don't make me start on Subin," he said, glaring at Yul in a chalenge. A moment later, they both burst out laughing.

"They are good people though," Zeng said, and Yul agreed, "Our lives won't be the same without them." Zeng nodded, picking up another pair of glasses and handing one to Yul. He swayed as he walked back to him. It looked like he was a bit tipsy. That explained his earlier crying in public, or else Zeng wouldn't let his emotions free in a place swarming with people.

"Life is already short, Yul. I may not say it when I am sober but I love you a lot and I want to spend this short life of mine with you," Zeng said, raising a toast between them, "Here's to our love." Yul did the same, clicking their glasses together, "To our love."

Yul could only take one sip when Zeng pulled him closer, throwing his arms around him and giggled mischievously. Yul raised an eyebrow in question.

"I am impressed with what you said to Zaria." He whispered.

"Are you?"

Zeng nodded thrice. "Yes, I feel proud." He smiled the sweetest, "Finally, someone who is not ashamed of me." He said, replacing the old memories with new ones, formed right here.

He pressed his forehead against Zeng's, thumb brushing against the pink dust on his skin as he stroked Zeng's cheek with his free hand, "I will never be ashamed of you." He looked into his eyes, promising.

A kiss would have happened but didn't because of a microphone being tapped. The hall went silent as a spotlight focused on the host of the party. Zaria waved at the crowd that hooted and whistled for her.

She spoke into the mic, "We are here to have a blast before I go off to another continent. I will be going to Switzerland for two years and I will miss a lot of things here. But the most I am going to miss here in HongKong is my Lu jie. Jie, I will miss you soooooooo much."

The spotlight was now on Xuan Lu. She was only looking at Zaria who looked only at her and resumed, "You are the most beautiful, most wonderful and most amazing person I have met and I love you so, so sooo much. Parting with you for two whole years is going to be such a difficult thing to do but just know that no matter the distance, I'll keep loving you. Please wait for me. I'll come back to you within a blink of an eye." She winked, smiling at the end.

Xuan Lu agreed with a nod and pressed her lips to her fingers before directing them at Zaria, smiling as she mumbled an I love you. Zaria placed a hand on her heart, tilting her head repeating the same words. Before they got any more emotional, she cleared her throat and pulled herself together with the snap of her fingers.

Zaria fanned herself, "No people, today's a day of celebration, not of crying. Lu jie and I completed our crying quota yesterday and I really don't want to ruin my makeup, okay!"

That earned a few warm smiles and laughs from the audience.

"Let's have fun while the night is young! Music please."

The DJ did her magic and an upbeat song blared out of the speaker and the dance floor started swirling around with bodies, pulling their partners.

Every couple danced their way and the single ones went wild on the floor.

A few songs later, 'Rollercoaster' by Bleachers began playing.

Zeng stepped out along with many other non-dancers, clearing the floor for the passionate ones. Yul loosened his tie with a smirk on his face, intending to show his dancing skills which Zeng was looking forward to seeing.

Xuan Lu backed away to stand beside Zeng, Zaria chasing her and failing to get her back on stage. Turning around, in search for a partner, she saw Yul moonwalking his way to her.

Sharing a quick look, Zaria grinned at him as Yul offered her a hand. The duo entered the dance floor and began flexing their dance moves starting off with a salsa, followed by random energetic moves.

Zeng hooted and whistled. The remaining audience cheered on and clapped. He couldn't remember the last time he had so much fun. This side of Yul was amusing to watch.

It was a miracle how Zaria had managed to dance in those high heels so effortlessly. Yul balanced her in the duet whenever required. As the dance progressed, the dancers went wild with the moves, unleashing their hidden selves and dancing like nobody was watching.

When the slow verse began playing they couldn't help but look at their respective partners. Yul parted away from Zaria as Xuan Lu walked up to them, giving the ladies couple the centre stage.

Turning back and extending a hand at Zeng, Yul smiled. Shying, Zeng placed his hand in Yul's. He was immediately pulled to Yul's chest and had to wrap one arm around his neck. The sound from the speakers became softer and their feet shifted in a slow dance.

♪Come a little closer♪

Their hands rounded each other's bodies pulling closer than before. Yul was nearly dazed as he looked at Zeng like he was the most precious thing in the world, his eyes about to start tearing up.

Zeng read him like a book and unlike himself, he knew what the other was thinking, something emotional to go along with the perfect moment, living in it.

♪Something I gotta tell ya♪

A lot to say but not finding any words to justify their emotions. The same idiot as him. His idiot.

He was no different.

At that time, Zeng viewed him as his world. A beautiful world, so full of life, hopes, dreams and everything he had failed to see for himself. He would cherish this for life. Wang Yul was a blessing of rain to his barren land. Somebody who was willing to be there, to wait, to stay. Somebody who wasn't ashamed of him. When did he become so important? Even Zeng didn't know but whatever… he got Yul, the purpose of his life.

♪You are such a roller coaster, some killer queen you are♪

Zeng bonked Yul's forehead, connecting them and chuckled as the song picked up pace.

"What?" Yul tilted his head in question.

Without a word, Zeng pressed his lips on the other soft pair, moving with the slow receding rhythm of the song, pulling away only to look into Yul's warm eyes who had a smile curved on his lips.

It was Zeng's first kiss outside the safe space of the four walls of their home. His first time expressing his love publically. His first time being himself. How was he supposed to answer Yul's question when he himself didn't know the answer? However, he knew the feeling, he could feel the happiness of being with the one he loved, of conquering his fears, of being himself.

Zeng gave a bright smile as he shook his head, holding Yul's loving gaze with an equally loving one while they slowly moved to the gentle beats. He did not have an answer to Yul's question. He couldn't describe in words how he felt for Yul, how Yul made him feel and hence, he settled on not doing so, "You won't understand."

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~END OF VOLUME ONE~