"I was foreigner for those kids too, like I was from different world as I looked different from them. There was one kid of my age, who used to bully me. I tried to avoid him so many times as I promised brother Yang that I will always control my anger but every time he used to come with different ideas to annoy me."
"Hmmm!"
"One day, I couldn't take it and beat him. He was hurt. Later I said sorry but he was angry and other kids too blamed me even after knowing the truth. I was disappointed and heartbroken. I went to home, told my brother and parents and they promised to solved it."
"Hmmm!"
"Next day, It was my birthday. I was happy to receive gifts from my brother and my parents. Brother Yang promised to take me to amusement park after the camp and I was excited to go there. I forgot about the incidence from previous day and went to that camp with full of cheerful mood with lots of chocolates and cake for the kids in the camp."
"Hmmm!"
"Everyone wished me and everything was normal. I cut the cake and gave them chocolates. The boy, whom I beat badly the other day, came to me with smile and wished me too. He apologized and asked me to be his friend. I agreed and we both were together for whole time and were enjoying. I thought, I got new friend over there. I was happy and trusted him."
"Hmmm!"
"After a camp, he asked me to come with him as he wanted to show me newborn kittens which were around that place. Brother Yang was about to come to receive me to go to the amusement park so I said no to him but he insisted saying, 'we are friends so I should listen to him'. Also, I liked kittens a lot and couldn't hold back myself from going with him."
When Lu Qiang heard it, he was worried about what was going to come next as he had slight idea about what might have happened with her, based on her behavior during there intimate moments, but he wanted to hear it from her, what exactly had happened. He didn't react and just said while looking at the sky, "Hmmm!"
"He took me towards the area behind our class rooms. That was deserted place, so I asked him 'Why we are going to such scary place' so he said, 'Kittens are scared of us so they hide in places like this. We should check if they are okay.' I simply nodded and followed him. He took me to one room which looked like a storage room. I felt scared to see it but he said, "Kittens are inside" and I followed him without a second thought and that was my biggest mistake"
With this, there was a change in Jiang Yuyan's voice. She paused for a moment, struggling to find words. Lu Qiang looked at her and he wanted to say stop and hug her. He knew, it was something that she didn't want to remember but just to tell him all of it, she was going through it again. Just then, Jiang Yuyan started to speak again.
"That Boy asked me to go inside first. I went inside and started to search for kittens and I heard the sound of closing the door. I turned to look at the door and I saw, that boy my friend was not there, instead three boys elder than us were in that room and they closed the door."
Lu Qiang clutched his hands on railing. He was ready to hear worst part of her past. He again replied with, "Hmmm!"
As door closed, that room looked even more scary as it was blocking the sunlight and room was half dark. Those three elder boys too looked scary to me. They were laughing to look at me. I asked why they closed the door and where is my friend? So they laughed and one of them with golden hair replied, 'There is no friend and we closed this door to punish you for hurting my little brother'. I couldn't understand what they mean but I felt scared and asked them to open that door to let me go."
"Hmmm!" As Jiang Yuyan was moving ahead with her past, Lu Qiang was feeling his chest was feeling heavy and he had trouble to breath. He couldn't help but inhale then exhale deeply through his mouth.
"They laughed even more and stepped towards me. I still can hear their laughing voices whenever i remember it and close my eyes." Suddenly tears rolled down from Jiang Yuyan's eyes and her voice choked.
Lu Qiang turned towards her and hugged her. "If you can't, then we can stop here."
Jiang Yuyan shook her head while burying it in crook of his neck. She then looked at him and said, "If I can't do it today then I won't be able to do it ever and I want you to know this before we start new phase of our lives."
Lu Qiang wiped tears in her eyes and nodded as giving her permission to continue. He too was feeling choked in his throat to see her crying. He could Imagine what was next. Lu Qiang passed her water again to make her feel relax. Jiang Yuyan drank it and moved back to her place.
She knew, she can't say it while looking into Lu Qiang's eyes because instead of talking, she might start to cry more. She was also afraid to see his reaction after knowing the truth. Lu Qiang too stood beside her again but this time he put his palm on the back of her palm which was resting on railing. He wanted to comfort her and tell her that he is with her.
"The boy with golden hair who was talking to me before, stepped towards me and I stepped back in a fear. I Couldn't move further away, as just behind me it was end of that room. That boy signaled other two to catch me. I tried to run but there was no way out."
"Hmmm!"