Chapter 158 I Am Doing It For Myself

"I was wondering why he was doing that? Did I do something to dirty his clothes? I immediately apologised, 'I..I am.. sorry, if I ruined your clothes. I will ask my brother to buy you new one.' He laughed again and said, 'I don't know about clothes but you are ruining my mood, so shut your mouth.' I still didn't understand what he was saying. I didn't know what wrong I did but I just wanted to keep apologising to him for no reason so that he could let me go. He removed his clothes and I didn't feel good to see him. I forgot about all that pain and I was struggling to free my hands and my legs with all my strength, after seeing him naked. I looked at those two boys and asked them to let me go but they laughed and said, 'We have yet to taste you. How can we let you go?' All started to laugh at me. Then, that golden hair boy stepped towards me and asked other boy to let go of my legs. As he freed my legs, that golden hair boy pulled me with my legs towards him and stood between them. I could understand, being without clothes was not good thing and it felt disgusting that I felt like to vomit at the very moment."

Jiang Yuyan suddenly stopped with the that disgusting memory from her past. Her voice choked in her throat. Lu Qiang couldn't take it anymore and he turned towards her to say 'Stop'. As he was about to stop her, Jiang Yuyan shook her head and said, "Let me finish it." Lu Qiang wiped her tears and said, "You don't need to." Jiang Yuyan looked in his eyes with her teary ones while holding his hands in hers and said, "I am doing it for myself. I never talked about it to anyone. Today I want to take it out from my heart and my mind. I don't want to suffer with it anymore by keeping it buried in my heart and never say a word about it. I still remember each and everything clearly. Let me say it."

Lu Qiang nodded and said, "Okay!" Jiang Yuyan continued while lowering her face as she couldn't say it while looking into his eyes.

"He had devilish smile on his face. He was determined to do something bad but before he could do it, suddenly the door of room opened with bang as someone broke it. I lifted my head little by gathering last bit of energy in me to look at the door. My brother was standing in the door with angry face with two security guards from there behind him. As I saw him, I felt glad but before I could even call my brother, I passed out. After that what happened, I didn't know."

Jiang Yuyan finished it and stood there, lowering her head down in front of Lu Qiang with tears rolling down from her eyes, continuously.

"Those scars you saw around my chest was the result that incident, as I had few broken ribs." she said while looking at him with painful smile on her face.

Lu Qiang remembered those scars on her chest and hugged her again. He stood there just like that without saying a single word to her. He didn't know how to Console her as it was something that couldn't be healed by just words. Jiang Yuyan was crying her heart out as she felt relieved to let out everything which was buried in her heart for long, the sad memories from her past, while Lu Qiang was just patting her head lightly.

Once Jiang YuYan stopped crying, Lu Qiang asked, "Are you feeling better now?" Jiang Yuyan lifted her head up and said while looking into his eyes, "Never like before." Lu Qiang smiled a little and said, "I am glad."

Jiang Yuyan was fine after sometime and both were looking at the sky, enjoying the silence around. Jiang Yuyan spoke again, "I wish, I never went there and was with you all these years."

Lu Qiang replied, "Me too but it's okay. We can't bring back the past but we can make our present and future better and can fill it with all good and happy memories. Also, I will make sure to make up for those missing years too."

Jiang Yuyan nodded and said, "Hmm! We should do that."

"Really?" Lu Qiang suddenly pulled her towards him with little tug and said, "Then, we should start it from this moment."

Jiang Yuyan looked at him with surprised expressions. Before she could ask anything, Lu Qiang lifted her in his arms and took her inside the room. He straight took her to bathroom and put her down in front of wash basin. He asked her to bent little towards the basin as he opened the tap. He washed her face and even cleaned her blocked nose.

Jiang Yuyan stopped him as he touched her nose as saying, "Eww! How can you? It's yukk."

Lu Qiang didn't stop and said, "Be like a good girl and let me do it. Your snot and I are familiar with each other since our childhood" Jiang Yuyan had to listen to him even though she didn't want to.

Lu Qiang took her to bed and tucked her in it to sleep. "U must be tired, u need good rest."

Jiang Yuyan shook her head while lying in a bed and said, "I don't want to."

Lu Qiang sat on the edge of the bed and asked, "Then what do you want to do?"

Jiang Yuyan replied, "I want to hug you n be with you here in bed."

Lu Qiang smiled and nodded saying, Okay."

Lu Qiang too slept beside her, hugged her. Jiang Yuyan was tired because of continuous crying and fell asleep soon.

Lu Qiang lifted her head little to pull back his arm from below her head. He sat up and covered her in a quilt. Lu Qiang had no expressions on his face but there was darkness in his pitch black eyes which made him look scary.