Chapter 202 Regret

It was not like Jiang Yuyan didn't trust Lu Qiang. She trusted him more than anyone, she could ever trust, apart from her brother. The reason she hurt him was when she saw Zhi Ruo and heard the word about her marriage with Lu Qiang, she felt bad. She was upset and jealous too. When she saw, Lu Qiang came with her to city S, she again felt bad but she gave a thought about it.

Jiang Yuyan was thinking about so many things since she was in Jiang residence for few days, but when she saw Lu Qiang and Zhi Ruo together again and the way Lu Qiang ignored her, she came to a conclusion. She was not jealous or upset. Instead, she was trying to be rational. She found Zhi Ruo worthy of Lu Qiang and thought he could be happy with her.

Jiang Yuyan thought about lacking things in herself and came to the conclusion that she should distance herself from Lu Qiang, so he can go on another way. She realized, she might not be able to give him all the happiness in the life that any man would desire for. All this time he was being patient with her but it was enough for her at the moment as she tried her best till now. she didn't want him to wait for her more as he already waited for her long enough.

She thought he deserves to be happy as he always worked hard for others and never had anything for himself or expect anything in return. She decided to be harsh with him and distance herself from him which might lead his way to Zhi Ruo, but what she did was useless when she heard Zhi Ruo.

Since breakfast, Jiang Yuyan didn't see him and as the time passed by she felt restless. She decided to go and see if Lu Qiang was fine. She stepped out of her room and she was about to step towards Lu Qiang's room, Lu sisters and Wang Shu came out of their rooms and they saw Jiang Yuyan. They called her and took her with them as Wang Shu needed help with her dress. Jiang Yuyan couldn't say no as they requested her a lot and went with them.

When Jiang Yuyan came out from Wang Shu's room, she again decided to go to Lu Qiang's room. When she knocked on the door, there was no response. The man in the hotel staff was passing by from there. When he saw her, he told her that Lu Qiang left the room just a while ago and went somewhere. She cursed herself for going with the girls instead of going to Lu Qiang. She was feeling even more anxious and couldn't understand what to do.

She tried to call him but the call was not connecting. She finally went to her brother's room. Jiang Yang opened the door and saw her standing in front of his room, with a long face. He let her in and asked, "You are not ready yet? The ring ceremony will start soon. Get ready fast."

She didn't respond to this and asked, "Do you know where is Lu Qiang?"

"Why? Where did he go? Is he not in his room?" Jiang Yang replied casually as it was not a big deal for him. Jiang Yang understood why his sister came to him when he saw her in front of his room's door but he didn't want to answer her anything related to Lu Qiang. He wanted her to suffer for a while, with a pain of not being able to see him.

"No, he is not in his room and since last night I haven't seen him." Jiang Yuyan said with a worried expression on her face.

"Haaa, sis! Don't worry. He must be somewhere in the hotel. He is not a kid to look after him." Jiang Yang replied without giving attention to her worry about Lu Qiang and signaled her to sit in the chair while he was going through his bag to take out the clothes which he was going to wear for the function.

Jiang Yuyan sat in the chair and said, "I know brother but I am still worried about him as I hurt him last night"

"It's not the first time you guys fought so relax. He will be back to you soon", Jiang Yang said while putting his suit on the bed and sat on its edge to talk to her.

"I think, I did a mistake", Jiang Yuyan said while feeling guilty about what she did with Lu Qiang.

"What mistake?" Jiang Yang asked curiously even though he knew what it was but he wanted to hear it from her.

"I..I thought, he would be more happy with Zhi Ruo so I said, I don't love him and said to go to her," she replied hesitantly.

"Hmm! But why did you do that and why did you think, he won't be happy with you? Jiang Yang asked calmly while being ready to hear her explanation.

"You know better, what's the problem with me, brother. How long can I keep him waiting, so I thought it would be better for him to move ahead in his life. Moreover, I am not confident about myself. I don't know, if I would be able to give him that thing, ever. Also, Zhi Ruo seems nice girl so I thought she suits him." Jiang Yuyan said everything in one breath, whatever she felt right at the moment when she hurt Lu Qiang.

Jiang Yang gave out a deep sigh and said calmly, "If he wanted only that one thing in his life, he wouldn't have been waiting for you like crazy, when he had so many women offering themselves to him. Also, see the change in yourself since when he came into your life. That day is not far when you will come out of your fears. To bring these changes in you, he did a lot and now you can't let go of his efforts in vain."

"Hmm! You are right", Jiang Yuyan nodded and said while processing the words of her brother in her mind.

"Answer me one thing honestly," Jiang Yang asked with a serious expression on his face.

"What?", Jiang Yuyan asked curiously to see her brother's serious expressions.

"Do you really want him to leave you and go to someone else? Can you really bear to see him with another woman?", Jiang Yang asked while staring in her eyes.

When she heard him saying this, curious expressions on her face changed to a sad one and she said, "I...I can't. I can't live without him" and tears rolled down from her eyes as to think about Lu Qiang leaving her.

"Then, what was the point of doing all that useless talk with him last night?" Jiang Yang was serious and he talked a bit harshly with her to make her understand how wrong she was.

"I..I thought, as...long as... it can make him happy. I would be fine" she replied while wiping the tears from her face.

Jiang Yang stood up from his place and went to her. He patted her head and said, "Both of your happiness is in being together, not in being apart from each other. Understood?" and passed her tissue paper to wipe her tears.

Jiang Yuyan nodded and asked, "What should I do now? Where is he? I want to see him."

"First get ready. He will come to attend the ring ceremony so you can see him there, even if he is not in his room at the moment." Jiang Yang said as he went back to the bed and picked up his suit from the bed.

"Hmm! Okay!" She stepped towards the door but suddenly stopped and came back to her brother and hugged him.

"What happened now?" he asked as being startled by her sudden hug.

"I am worried. I want everything like before between me and him. Is it possible?", her eyes were moist and she looked like on the verge of crying more.

Jiang Yang patted her head and said, "Nothing has changed between both of you. It's just a small turn which will pass by soon. So don't worry."

Jiang Yuyan lifted her head to look at him and asked to assure herself again, "Really?" She looked like a lost puppy who was seeking shelter and her brother was the one for her.

Jiang Yang smiled too look at her and said, "Hmm! Trust me." His words were comforting for her. She smiled too, said thank you, brother, and left to her room.

As Jiang Yuyan went to her room, Jiang Yang got ready and went to Lu Feng's room. Lu Feng was not ready and was in a messy condition. Upon seeing him like this, Jiang Yang asked, "Are you planning to send me there alone to get bored?"

Lu Feng lied down lazily on the couch and said, "You know, I don't like to attend these functions. I will come when it is about to end."

"Just as you did on the day of your grandparent's wedding anniversary. By the way, how many packets of cigarettes are you going to empty out while waiting for this function to end?"

Lu Feng looked at him in surprise and asked, "How…."

"You are my darling and I know everything about you." Jiang Yang answered before Lu Feng could complete his question.

"You and your 'I know you' habit," Lu Feng said and got up from the couch to get ready as he knew, Jiang Yang won't let him be in the room like this.