Chapter 342

"Yu Ping, do you hear me now? Do you think that I am just a ridiculous existence, that I can't extricate myself from living in self accusation because of people like you, and that I still live in self accusation all the time. I always think that it is my own fault. But originally, it's not so. It's not my own fault at all, but I think that it's because I'm responsible for something All my mistakes are because of myself. " Luo Xi looks at Yu Ping's eyes, which are too complicated.

"Do you know how much I hate you every time I think about these things? I've never known you before. Do you know how I feel? I've never known this person before. How do you feel? I've never known you before. Listen to this sentence clearly. I feel the same way now If I had never known you, how nice, if I had never known you, then my life would be so happy, so happy, but it is because I know you, so my life, all my things have become so chaotic, so unbearable, and still live in such a self reproach, and all the things are because of you Existence, if not for your existence, do you think my life might be like this? My life would never have been like this.

As for that mess, at least I don't know what my life is like now? I just have a bad life. It's all aunt yuan. Do you understand? "

Luoxi thought of all this, no matter how much he wanted to suppress his anger, but looking at his eyes? Yu Ping can't do it at all. He doesn't know how to suppress his anger. He can't do it. He has no way to do it. She only knows how to say and do it to vent all her dissatisfaction.

"But even if I don't know you, why did God let me know you and have such a good relationship with you. Not only that, why let you hurt my son from those unforgivable things? Why? Why? Why does everything happen to me? There are a lot of dissatisfaction, is there no dissatisfaction in my heart? My dissatisfaction in my heart is not less than you, maybe more than you, do you understand? In the heart is not only dissatisfaction with you, there are many, there are many, do you understand? But even if I don't know you so much, why did God let me know you and have such a good relationship with you. Not only that, why let you hurt my son from those unforgivable things? Why? Why? Why does everything happen to me? There are a lot of dissatisfaction, is there no dissatisfaction in my heart? My dissatisfaction in my heart is not less than you, maybe more than you, do you understand? I'm not only dissatisfied with you, there are many, many, do you understand? "

Luo Xi thinks of all those things. For Yu Ping, Luo Xi's dissatisfaction is not only a little bit, but also a lot. It's hard to say, OK?

All the things will only make Luoxi resent Ping more. Those things have been suppressed in Luoxi's heart for a long time, and Luoxi can't remember it for a long time.

"Luoxi, no matter how much you say, it's still the same result. But I want to know, it's just about the past, and then you can solve the problems between us. Is that wrong? Do you just want to let me know the past, you can't do it, or you never want to let me know about the past, what is hidden or hidden in the past, so that you are one or two. Don't want to let me know what secret is hidden in those things, let so many of you one by one, two of you don't want to let me know that those things are really so important? Don't I know what's important? Those things are my things and my memories. Don't I have the right to know? " Yu Ping's eyes at Luoxi are so sad.

Luoxi looks at Yu Ping's eyes, slightly moved, but soon, Luoxi takes back his eyes, as the eyes do not exist.

"Bustling, I used to beg him to tell me about the past. But he has been for me, he just kept silent, or has been unwilling to tell me, no matter how I ask, how to force me, he for my answer, for my results will always remember that one has never changed, as if his answer can only be born that, as if he will never change his own answer, but I am very happy Curiosity is what kind of answer, what kind of memory let you so to hide, he so hard to go. Hide him, even if I ask you again and again, but you still laugh and hide. Is this memory hiding my secret or your secret? I'm curious. I really want to know. But you don't let me know. Do you want me to remember? Or it's a way for you to force me to remember.

But if so, then I choose to let you tell me directly about the uprising in the past. I don't need you to let me restore my memory in this way. There are many ways I want to restore my memory, but I just don't want you to do this. I just want to restore my past memory, so that I can have a complete self, not a blank feeling about my past. I don't know this feeling I know. Do you understand? Maybe only people with amnesia can understand? "Yu Ping laughs at herself, but she doesn't know that Luoxi has lost her memory.

"1 amnesia? Do you think you're the only one who's used to it? I tell you that not only you, but also I have lost my memory. But even so, I feel confused about some enterprises in the past and eager to know about the chickens. But at that time, no matter how hard I tried and how I wanted to eat, the people around me were not willing to be higher than those in the past. Even if I told me about the engineering, it was all right Fake. Never tried. It's really like this. I haven't been as crazy as you. I also know that it's best to say that I really recovered my memory recently. For the past memory, I think now I really think I would rather not have those obsessions, because those memories of the past are too painful, so sometimes I would rather not have these memories. I'm willing to be blank again My memory is better than this... "

Luo Xi suddenly became silent.

Although the past is very attractive, I am also painful. If he had known that the past memory was so painful, he would rather not think about it all his life. At this time, he also understood why the night demon merchant didn't want to go to Beijing and chose to hide his memory. But now even if he knew, what could he do? He knows, knows all his memories about the past, also knows all the pain of the past, who is suffering in the past, it's really too painful. Sometimes he also wants to forget him, but he is afraid of forgetting himself, and wants to find himself back. In such a cycle, it's better to just do it.

"Yu Ping, if you insist on getting back your anger, I will not stop you, but I want to tell you one thing, the memories you get back may not be what you want. Those memories may be the part you want to lose most. At that time, the pain may only be yourself, not others. So there are some things I think you need to do well by yourself Think it over and decide. Some things are what you want now, but it doesn't mean you want the past. You also want the past. You may be very urgent and hope that you can throw away all those things, but now you want her back most. "

Luoxi thought of his past, isn't it like this?

"So, Yu Ping, I don't think it's necessary for me to tell you about the past. You need to think about it now and find it yourself. What I'm telling you is not what you found, so maybe you won't cherish it or take it seriously. It's when you really think of it, it's different. Maybe it's what you want most at that time, so you'd better think about it carefully. Think about it. Is that what you want

"Luoxi, you..." Yu Ping looks at Luoxi as if she has suddenly changed into a person.

"I don't mean to say this to you, but I suddenly think of the things I thought about before. I feel the same attitude towards you. I won't have any feelings for you, and I won't change my attitude towards you. I've always had such a situation that I won't change the slightest. After all, it's useless to say too much about the things before, and it's not enough I'll wait for you to think about it. I'll wait for you to remember us. Let's have a good talk. Let's have a good talk about how those things should be solved. At that time, we may really want to Break up

Luo Xi sighed and left here. Yu Ping stood in the same place and watched Luo Xi leave. What Luo Xi had just said echoed in her mind.