Chapter 380 - 380: Madam Jiang, I Love You, But This May Be The Furthest I Can Go

Chapter 380 - 380: Madam Jiang, I Love You, But This May Be The Furthest I Can Go

Translator: Henyee Translations Editor: Henyee Translations

Qianqian:

It’s 3 a.m. in Paris. Just now, I glanced at the lights outside the window. Everyone said that Paris is the capital of romance. I didn’t think so.

Perhaps it was because I didn’t have you, but my eyes are gray and lifeless.

In the past, when I couldn’t sleep, I would work. My existence seemed to be for this reason, but now, when I couldn’t sleep, my mind was filled with you.

Was this the so-called “missing”?

I don’t know. If it is, it feels a little bitter, but it doesn’t seem that bitter either.

Qianqian, I want to hug you and hear you call me “Ah Yan”, even if I know that the name you’re calling isn’t me.

But if lying to yourself can make people happier, I want this happiness.

Lin Qingqian’s fingers that were holding the postcard couldn’t help but tremble. Her gaze landed on the date. It was written by him when he went to Paris for a business trip previously.

Putting down this Paris scenery, she picked up another postcard.

Qianqian:

It’s four in the morning. You’re sleeping very soundly with a smile on your lips. You might be having a sweet dream, but I don’t know if I’ve been in your dream before.

Recently, I didn’t dare to fall asleep because I realized that as long as I fell asleep, my consciousness would become very heavy. Even my memories would become intermittent and incomplete.

Actually, it’s good that I can’t sleep. At least, I could hug you and look at you quietly. I want to look at you like this forever.

This sentence was very short and the handwriting was messy. It was probably written in a hurry.

Lin Qingqian changed to another postcard with a sea view.

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I almost lost you. It was so close. I love you so much, but he wants to hurt you...

Why am I Jiang Yan and not Jiang Yanshen? What should I use to protect you?

Qianqian, I just want you to be safe and happy. No matter the price, I’m willing to pay it.

The date was the night she fell into the sea in Sanya. His handwriting was wild and powerful. Just by looking at the handwriting, Lin Qingqian seemed to be able to sense the anger and helplessness he felt when he wrote this sentence.

Perhaps because she had been squatting on the ground for a long time, her legs were a little numb. She sat on the ground and casually picked up the postcard beside the ladder.

Qianqian:

Shen Zhiwei said that I’m but a split personality, so I was born without love. I don’t know much about love, but Shen Zhiwei said that it’s what every woman wants in their life. It’s the reason why you left me.

If love can bring you back to me, I’m willing to learn. Can you teach me?

Don’t give up on me so quickly. Don’t be so cold to me. It’s not that I hate you. I’m just worried...

When you discover one day that I’m not Jiang Yanshen, you’ll reveal a look of disgust. You’ll be like those people, hoping that I’ll disappear...

Qianqian:

Until you appeared... Seeing you bleeding from head to toe, I suddenly thought of myself and my heart softened. I hope that you will learn how to survive in this chaotic world.

Perhaps I’m just too lonely, and every time you look at me with admiration and joy, it ignites a trace of warmth in my cold heart.

“Did you fall?”

Lin Qingqian bit her arm and did not speak, her tears falling like rain.

Seeing that there were no wounds on her body, Jiang Yunshen saw the postcards on the ground. He picked one up and was instantly stunned when he saw the words at the back.

A moment later, he realized that this was written by his Big Brother for his Sister-in-law. He did not continue reading and immediately placed them back in the box.

“Sister-in-law, don’t cry. Big Brother’s heart will ache to death if he sees this.” He was not very comforting, and his comforting words were stuttering without any confidence.

Lin Qingqian acted as if she did not hear anything and was only immersed in regret and grief, like a puppet.

Jiang Yunshen was worried that she would bite herself again and clumsily moved her arm from her mouth. Seeing that the teeth marks on her arm were already bleeding, he frowned very tightly.

“No matter how sad you are, you can’t hurt yourself.”

Lin Qingqian’s curled eyelashes trembled with tears and she was speechless.

Jiang Yunshen took a deep breath and quickly picked up the postcards on the ground and placed it in the box. Then, he stuffed the box into her arms.

He bent down and picked her up horizontally. He turned around and walked out of the study, quickly walking to the bedroom.

The auntie was worried and came up to take a look. When she saw him carrying Lin Qingqian back to the bedroom, she was immediately shocked. “What’s wrong with Madam?”

Jiang Yunshen didn’t explain and instructed, “Bring the medicine box over.”

“Alright, alright, alright. I’ll go now.” The auntie hurriedly went downstairs.

Jiang Yunshen kicked open the bedroom door and walked to the big bed. He carefully placed her on the bed and pulled open the blanket to cover her.

He didn’t know how long she had been sitting on the floor, but her body was as cold as ice.

The auntie sent the medicine box in and said worriedly, “Where is she hurt?”

“Her arm.” Jiang Yunshen took the medicine box and instructed very steadily, “Go and pour a cup of hot water.”

“Alright.” The auntie went out again.

Jiang Yunshen opened the medicine box and sat down by the bed. He pulled her arm and couldn’t help but sigh. “Do you women like to torture yourselves? Just smash things when you’re sad. Why hurt your body?”

As he spoke, he gently wiped the wound with disinfectant cotton. Afraid that she would be in pain, he even blew on it.

From the corner of his eye, he saw her numb expression and knew that he was worried for nothing. Even if he stabbed her now, she probably wouldn’t be able to cry out in pain.

“I know you love Big Brother very much, but Big Brother is no longer around.

No matter how sad you are, he won’t be able to come back.”

Jiang Yunshen comforted her earnestly as he treated her wound. ‘You usually look quite calm. Why did you suddenly become so fragile? This isn’t like you at all.

The tears at the corners of Lin Qingqian’s eyes rolled down silently. Her right hand hugged the box in her arms tightly, as if she was hugging the last straw of her life.

Jiang Yunshen felt that he was playing the lute to a cow. She couldn’t listen to anything now and he couldn’t be bothered to waste his breath.

The auntie came in with a cup of hot water, and he asked the auntie to put it by the bed and go out.

After treating the wound, he reached out to touch the cup that was not so hot anymore. He picked it up and handed it to Lin Qingqian. “Drink the water and rest early. Don’t let your imagination run wild.”

Lin Qingqian sat still like a puppet.

Jiang Yunshen stuffed the cup into her hand and said in a fierce tone, “Lin Qingqian, it wasn’t easy for me to change my opinion of you.. Can you not make me hate you again?”