Chapter 177

The round wooden stick is rolling on the cutting board, and one hand turns skillfully, and the dough becomes thin under pulling and squeezing.

Jiang wanted to make a pot of wonton simply.

Just as her face was rolling, she heard the cry coming from the other end of the study. She was stunned and looked out of the window with some worry and hesitation.

In the past, the wood of my family had little to do with women.

That girl Jiang er

Is it not the one rumored to have something to do with him?

At that time, Chiang thought it was a rumor.

The neighbors joked, and she only said that if there was something, with the boy's sullen disposition, she would have been in love with someone and married home sooner or later.

I didn't expect other girls to come to me.

Looking at his depression, he was very concerned about other girls, but his lukewarm attitude made her angry. It was like swallowing Coptis.

I don't know what I said, but it made people cry.

Chiang's view of the girl was pleasing to the eye. He did not think whether the girl was bad to her son. Instead, he thought that her son was smelly and hard, and he was not at all enlightened.

There is water on the stove.

Enough dough.

She calculated the time. She was afraid that the girl would not eat in the morning and would not be able to go in and ask more questions. She simply packed more wontons and quickly squeezed them one by one, waiting for the water to boil and throw them in.

The cry in the study took quite a while to subside.

Jiang Xuening sat on the ground, holding his knees, his eyes fell on the corner of Zhang Zhe's cold sleeve robe, only feeling the fate.

I used to think that rebirth could save everything and start all over again.

But how can we expect that the people she cares about most and doesn't want to hurt most will come back with memory?

When she was crying, Zhang Zhe didn't say a word, just accompany her side, let the sound of crying tear his heart and lung, give him a strong sense of living in the world.

Only pain and suffering are the most profound.

Only in the face of her, the fresh emotions, greed, anger and resentment, which were always deeply suppressed in Lengsu's body, would climb up and let him feel that he could not extricate himself day by day.

It's just that I can't control my own price, but it's too tragic.

Even the recollection seems to be covered with a layer of blood.

That night in the palace, she lowered her eyebrows, lowered her posture, pulled his sleeve, lied to him that she would be a good man from now on, and only begged him to help her.

The palace is in danger.

Xiao Shu is pregnant. She fights with Xiao Shi fiercely and falls into too deep. In that position, she can't get away, and losing means death.

Zhou Yinzhi is her confidant.

Be cruel and cruel, and form a clique for personal gain.

He has no reason to let this person go, whether out of law or reason. We should take advantage of the fact that the other party has formed a clique for personal gain and betrayed officials and officials. Only by doing so can we live up to our rule of law for many years and live a clean life.

But on the day of the joint trial of the third division, he sat high in the hall, looking at the evidence in the file, and raised his pen, but it didn't fall for a long time -

once he was convicted, Zhou Yinzhi could be removed, but Jiang Xuening was deeply bound with him.

Zhou Yin died.

He is not only judging the case, but also judging her life and death!

It was the first time that Zhang Zha had been an official in the imperial court for nearly ten years, and it was also the only time that he had played favoritism

And then it was doomed.

He will never forget that in the prison with the smell of staleness and blood, the prison guards who knew him well, with impatience, quietly handed him the wound medicine and told him the news of his mother's death

Jiang's body is not good when he lives alone. When he heard that he was in prison, he was heartbroken. However, he had to defend his grievances. He beat all the grievances in the Yamen and said to people in tears: I know my son, he can't do such a thing! He is an honest and upright official. He is a good official. He swore to his father's throne

But nobody cares.

In the morning, when she fell down, she didn't look after her.

When I looked at the neighborhood, I found that it was unusual to climb up the ladder. Knock open the gate to enter, people have

Zhang Zhe never dare to think about that scene.

As a minister, he is unfaithful;

as a son, he is unfilial!

Not to mention being filial to his mother, his colleagues in the court risked the world's great injustice to help her with her funeral. However, his son, who was deeply favored by his mother, could not even go out to see her off.

Jiang Xuening sat down and did not move. He was so dejected that he asked him, "Mr. Zhang, do you hate me?"

Zhang Zha said, "I hated it."

Jiang Xuening said, "it should be so."

Then he said, "how can I cover you slowly? I am unfaithful and I am unfilial; I love you and I hurt you. In the end, I have to hate myself. Niang Niang, where is Zhang Zhe so good? He lost his mind for you, betrayed the principle, ignored the law, and became a mediocre ordinary man in the ignorant world. Don't think about him any more. He's just a coward who doesn't dare to love any more. He's not worth itJiang Xuening held her knee, shook her head and choked: "no, I'm not worth it..."

She's too bad.

Being in the abyss, she admires his height and is envious of his integrity. She reaches out her hand and drags him down from the top of the mountain. She sinks into the bottomless hell and destroys everything. Even if she wants to make ends meet, how can she repay him?

They are separated from each other by good and bad, disobedience and loyalty and filial piety, as well as the disaster of prison, severe punishment, and even living human lives

Even if they are reborn, what can they do?

The past is too painful and tragic, even when she dreams back in the middle of the night, she will be upset. What suffering will Zhang Zhe occasionally think of?

The gods and the wives quarrel.

Even though she and Zhang cover are together, how can we know that they will not expose each other's scars because of some unhappiness in the future, or hurt each other unintentionally in a moment?

Two people remember the past, too fragile.

Jiang Xuening said: "you don't want me to know, you are born again. You don't want me to feel guilty. May I be free. But I love you. How can I not chase you and find you? I feel at ease and think that everything can be done over again, so I want to break the casserole and ask to the end. I didn't expect that your efforts were in vain. You know me so well, Zhang Zhe... "

Zhang Zhe was silent.

Jiang Xuening has never felt so sad: "you are not a coward, I am."

If two people want to be together, how can Zhang Zha keep such a secret from her?

How can she bear it?

But if I had told her earlier

How could she love him, miss him and chase him without shame?

How she treated Xie Wei in her previous life, she will treat Zhang Zhe in this life.

But when she was in danger, she didn't know what she was. So she hated Xie Wei. If he had not been demoted out of Beijing because of his high position, or because he might have found a reason, he would not have thought of the past that he did not want to look back.

In this life, she wants to be a good person again, but Zhang Zhe, who was born again, has seen all her bad and unbearable. She clearly loved this man, but he was put in prison, his widowed mother died, and his reputation was destroyed. When I see him, I feel bad. When I think about him, I feel ashamed. How can I bear to see him all the time?

He is disgusted with Xie Wei and ashamed of Zhang Zhe.

But there was no difference in essence. She was not willing to face the unbearable self in the past, and did not dare to approach Zhang Zha even one step further.

Jiang Xuening raised his head and looked at him, only to find that this cold face and this pair of quiet eyes are indeed no different from the previous life.

And his handwriting is the same as later.

There are so many clues, but she didn't find them at all.

But

A kind of fear suddenly floated in my heart. Jiang Xuening's eyes were soaked with tears. Her voice trembled and asked him, "no, No. On that day, they forced the palace, and all the Qingliu in the court wrote to me that I should be buried and give up the imperial seal. I promised. Xie Wei also promised me that he would not kill you. How could you be like me... "

How could she be reborn like her?

At this moment, her heart hate suddenly out, the body taut tightly, immediately to get up: "he broke his promise, Xie Juan, he broke my promise!"

However, a broad and powerful hand gently held her.

Zhang Zhe raised his eyes in silence.

I just think of the words that the grand master, who had overthrown the government and swept away Liuhe, said when he came to his cell where no one cared about him

He stares at Jiang Xuening.

Her hand was still in her hand.

After a long time, slowly said: "No."

Xie Juan did not break his promise.

Jiang Xuening was stunned and looked at Zhang Zha from a height.

That pair of clear eyes, reflecting her figure.

But her mind was in a mess.

Until an idea crossed, her throat was blocked with sand, stuck knife general, tears rolling down her cheek, difficult way: "you..."

If Xie Juan didn't break her promise, there is only one possibility -

Zhang Zha said quietly: "the law of the state, the rules of the home. The prince's crime is the same as the common people's. Zhang Zhe is a sinner, and the verdict has been written down. The crime is decided by the law and the punishment by the law. Love can't be changed. I've made enough mistakes. I should be punished. How can I get away with it? "

No one has the heart to write a verdict for him.

So he wrote it himself.

Both the charges and the laws should be complete, and they should be executed after autumn. Push on the scaffold, the world is vast, once the guillotine falls, the body is different, the blood splashes three feet.

Jiang Xuening finally stood unsteadily, sat down again and looked out of the window.

Yeah.

That's a cover.

She coerced her old kindness and wanted to thank Zhang Zha for letting him go. But Zhang Zha ruled all her life. How could she be ashamed of others? Now that he has written his own verdict, he will admit his guilt. Even if life and death are in front of him, he will choose the latter.That's why she likes him.

Jiang Xuening suddenly felt very tired, blinked, and then asked: "Xie Wei can be regarded as fulfilling his wish, ascended the throne and became emperor?"

It's not so much a question as a feeling.

After all, he had such a strong ability as Xie Juan. He killed the Xiao family and killed the royal family. Half of the capital was stained with blood. Finally, he got the imperial seal. How easy was it to ascend the throne?

But unexpectedly, Zhang Zha was silent for a long time and said, "No."

Jiang Xuening suspects that he heard wrong.

She looks at Zhang Zha.

Zhang Zhe thought of what he had heard in his last life from prison to autumn death, but said: "it's all over. Lady, those answers are no longer important. "

Jiang Xuening is in a trance like a dream.

Having cooked the wonton, Jiang hesitated again and again, but went to knock at the door from a distance.

Jiang Xuening gets up in a hurry and feels embarrassed.

She had no face to face the woman who had been implicated in her death for the last life. She didn't dare to stay more. She wiped her tears and left. But Zhang Zha held her and said to her, "stay here and have breakfast together. My mother should cook one more person."

A bowl of ordinary wonton is thin, but it doesn't use any precious ingredients. It's just chopped meat, mixed with pepper, and ordered ginger. After cooking, Sheng into a bowl, sprinkle with scallions, a little bit of dried shrimp, rice vinegar.

The bowl is just an ordinary porcelain bowl.

Bring it to the table and it's hot and white.

Jiang Xuening, like a doll, sat down at the table with Zhang Zhe and Jiang Shi and picked up chopsticks, but he had a feeling of not knowing where he was.

Chiang looked at them from time to time, but worried that the well-dressed girl was not used to eating such coarse food. She was a little stiff: "I didn't know someone had come. I bought some fish, but it took too much time to do it. I'm so confused that I wrapped up a bowl of wonton. It's really not very good on the table.... "

Jiang Xuening's heart is sour.

She opened her hazy tears in the fog and said, "no, my aunt's food is delicious."

Zhang Zha sat beside her, silent.

Ordinary people, ordinary people, fireworks curl.

But everywhere is full of warmth.

A mouthful of hot soup to drink, then ironing to heart, Jiang Xuening vaguely understand why he left himself to eat this meal, is to let her go. One by one, I eat wonton in my mouth. The more I eat it, the more tears I shed.

Zhang Zha knew that she was used to eating less and eating more. In the palace, she liked to toss those cooks, and she never ate much.

But she hasn't stopped eating most of the bowl.

He felt a kind of anger in his heart. He couldn't see that she was so embarrassed to be humble. He reached out and took her chopsticks and put them aside. When he opened his mouth, he was so soft hearted that he just whispered: "enough, don't eat any more."

But Jiang Xuening pressed her heart tightly, but she found it hard to face it.

Seeing the clue, Jiang quickly put down his bowl and chopsticks and said, "yes, there are not so many rules in our small family. I was worried that the girl would come early and be hungry, so I added more. It's not impolite to put it away when you can't finish it. "

It's OK that she doesn't speak.

As soon as he spoke, Jiang Xuening could not cry.

Jiang was in a hurry: "Oh, don't cry, don't cry! I knew that my father had been away early, lonely and unsavory. Despite his studies, I had no one to teach him how to please girls! Girl, please don't cry. Tell me what you've been wronged. I won't look back to repair him! "

Zhang Xuening laughed and cried

Zhang Zha looked at her quietly, his heart like a knife.

How could Chiang know the grudge between them? He immediately took a glance and said, "you tell your aunt, don't keep it in your heart. What's the trouble in this day? I want him to apologize to you. "

Jiang Xuening looked at Zhang Zhe and said in a dreamy way: "Mr. Zhang is so bad. You are so good..."

Jiang was stunned.

Jiang Xuening knew that she had been here long enough. She stood up and bowed to Chiang. Her eyes were very clear after being washed by tears. She said, "thank you for your hospitality. I didn't tell my family when I came out. It's time to leave."

Chiang did not know why.

Zhang Zha said, "I'll send you."

He walked ahead, pulled the bolt and opened the gate.

Jiang Xuening went out with him.

The noise of the world suddenly came.

After standing for a long time, she suddenly turned back and hugged Zhang Zhe. She closed her eyes tightly in his chest and said, "just hold for a while."

Zhang Zha didn't move after all.

Jiang Xuening said: "Mr. Zhang, you are so good. How can I forget you in the future?"

Zhang Zhe replied, "meet better."

Jiang Xuening wronged: "you cheat me, there is no better than you."

Zhang Zha was silent and said after a while, "then I will meet a more suitable one."Jiang Xuening is greedy for this temperature.

Even in the previous life, they were not so close, because she was the queen and he was the minister. This life was the closest, but also the farthest, because they had no courage to love each other as if nothing had happened.

She laughs: "what I like is suitable. If I don't like, what's suitable?"

What about "more appropriate"?

Zhang Zha was silent for a long time.

Jiang Xuening raised his head, but said: "you bow, I'll tell you a secret."

Zhang Zhe looked at her for a long time and lowered his head according to his words.

She would stand on tiptoe, with infinite attachment to gently peck his eyebrows.

This time, it was she who arrogated him.

Then he took three steps back and quietly laughed: "no matter what you think, I want to possess you when I meet you from the summer resort and see that you are ignorant and want to avoid suspicion. I would rather go out in the rain. Why can't I use such a court official who doesn't understand the customs? It's just a pity that I moved my heart and you didn't win. So I like you, not because you save me, protect me, not because of shame, but love at first sight. "

She thought Zhang Zhe would be stunned.

But unexpectedly, he looked at her with a smile and said slowly, "I know."

At that time, a thousand worries and feelings came to the bottom of my heart and flowed endlessly, but finally it was brilliant.

She looked up and didn't want to cry.

Pretending not to care, he snorted: "it looks good when you smile, but you are very mean to me in the past years. You don't even give me a good face. I'm going

"Good," Zhang said

Jiang Xuening added: "although there are few girls who are better than our palace at the end of the day, our palace allows you to find one who is not so good. Don't treat yourself badly. Just look at Kexin and get married."

Zhang Zha also said, "good."

But I didn't tell her: there are more girls in the world than you, but I don't love them and I don't want to marry them.

Jiang Xuening said, just added: "I really left."

Zhang Zhe still said, "good."

Jiang Xuening scolded him: "I don't understand the customs. It's smelly and hard. It's rotten wood! Anyone who likes you is unlucky, lost and blind! "

Zhang didn't reply.

Jiang Xuening stomped off.

But Zhang Zha stood behind and saw that she was stretching herself to go out for more than ten steps. When she fell into the lane, she didn't stretch her shoulders. She raised her hands, raised her sleeves and wiped her face.

People passing by looked at her in surprise.

All the way out of the hutongkou, she was pale in the sky, which was gradually drowned by human shadow and voice.

Zhang Zha's heart seems to have been gouged out.

Jiang came out from the inside, looked at Zhang Zhe standing there for a long time, and said tentatively, "I think this girl is very good."

Zhang Zha said quietly, "it's very good."

But it's not his.

Chiang followed the direction he was looking at, but he was at a loss.