CH 94

Chapter 94: But, This World (Trigger Warning: mild sex scene)

“You decided?”

“…Uh…”

“Why are you still hesitating?”

“I…”

“You can initiate the break up.”

“That…”

“You agree then?”

“Okay.” Someone dejectedly replied, “Let’s give it a try.”

“Of course.”

In fact, Qin Kaiyi couldn’t understand how things developed so strangely.

He knew that Shen Feixiao was good to him, but he never imagined that he was so good to him that Qin Kaiyi’s life would turn into a mess after he was gone.

No one cooked for him, no one washed his clothes for him, no one woke him up in the morning, and no one said goodnight to him. In fact, air was just like this. You usually treat it as unimportant, but once it was gone, you would find that the one that suffocated was you.

Qin Kaiyi whose life was interrupted decided to make a stand.

But when he really tried to do these trivial chores, he found… that housework wasn’t as simple as he had thought.

He couldn’t wash off the oil stains on his clothes no matter what he did, wiping the floors was so tiring, the food he made was really unpalatable, and he couldn’t wash his bedsheets clean even after a long time.

One night, with tears in his eyes as he nibbled on a piece of hard bread, Qin Kaiyi took out his phone and dialed someone’s number. After struggling for a long time, he finally began speaking with Shen Feixiao.

Alright, the truth was that he just wanted to know when Shen Feixiao would be back. As a result, he was unwittingly trapped by Shen Feixiao.

Shen Feixiao smiled contentedly after hanging up.

“Oh, looks like you succeeded?” Shen Feixiao’s older sister Shen Yan was sitting beside him, raising an eyebrow as she looked at his devious expression.

“Half.” Shen Feixiao wiped his mouth with a napkin, “I’ll be going first.”

“Why such a hurry?” Shen Yan found it quite funny, “Aish, I didn’t expect my beloved younger brother to have such a day.”

Shen Feixiao didn’t answer and expressionlessly stared at Shen Yan, both of them understanding what he meant.

“Okay, okay.” Shen Yan casually waved her hand, “I won’t make any trouble. I still want to meet my in-law.”

(TN: Specifically, brother’s wife.)

Then, Shen Feixiao left.

It took two hours for him to drive home. When he opened the door, he saw the mess inside and saw Qin Kaiyi shrunken into the sofa playing on his phone listlessly.

“Have you eaten yet?” Shen Feixiao loosened his tie, not acting like he left for a period of time at all.

“No.” Qin Kaiyi muttered, carefully lifting his head and looking at Shen Feixiao.

Shen Feixiao pretended to not see Qin Kaiyi’s strange expression.

“That, Shen Feixiao…” Qin Kaiyi watched with wide eyes as Shen Feixiao entered the kitchen to make dinner.

“What’s up?” Shen Feixiao pulled up his sleeves and looked back at Qin Kaiyi.

“You… what do you like about me?” Qin Kaiyi somewhat embarrassedly rubbed his nose.

“…” Shen Feixiao’s actions stopped. He turned and looked at Qin Kaiyi who was blushing, then walked towards him.

“If I really knew what I liked about you,” Shen Feixiao smiled wryly, “then I wouldn’t need to do these things.”

“…” Qin Kaiyi didn’t know what to say. He felt that Shen Feixiao’s smile made him very sad.

“Mn, I also thought about it. If you didn’t write that novel, then we would’ve never interacted like this.” He held Qin Kaiyi’s face and gazed earnestly into Qin Kaiyi’s eyes, “But Qin Kaiyi, there are no ifs in this world. The fact now is that I like you. Qin Kaiyi, ask yourself honestly, do you really have no affection for me?” 

Shen Feixiao’s question stumped Qin Kaiyi. Of course he knew himself, but his feelings for Shen Feixiao were too complicated. 

He hated Shen Feixiao. After all, he did so many excessive things to him. He also had a good impression of Shen Feixiao since he did take care of him continuously for over two years and knew his feelings for him. However, he also felt sad whenever he felt that he was unable to reciprocate these feelings.

Until now, Qin Kaiyi still didn’t know what he felt more of for Shen Feixiao.

“Qin Kaiyi.” Shen Feixiao’s voice was low, containing countless emotions. He lowered his head and pressed a gentle kiss on his lips, “Do you hate this?”

“I-It’s okay…” Qin Kaiyi stammered a little.

“Then what about this?” He gently kissed down Qin Kaiyi’s neck, pressing him against the wall, stretching his hand in through his t-shirt.

“Shen Feixiao…” Qin Kaiyi was a little flustered, but he hesitated when he recalled that he said he would give dating a try.

“You have a reaction.” Shen Feixiao smiled gently, “Are you comfortable?”

“You… mm.” Qin Kaiyi wanted to speak, but Shen Feixiao blocked his lips.

This kiss was different from the gentleness like before and was filled with a possessory taste. Shen Feixiao’s tongue stretched in along Qin Kaiyi’s mouth, occupying his mouth without hesitation.

“Wu… wu…” Qin Kaiyi was kissed dizzy by Shen Feixiao and felt his legs go soft.

“Be good.” He picked up Qin Kaiyi horizontally and walked into the bedroom.

“Shen Feixiao…” Qin Kaiyi’s face turned red.

“I’ll make you comfortable.” Shen Feixiao’s movements were gentle, so gentle that Qin Kaiyi couldn’t refuse. He looked at Shen Feixiao’s concentrated expression and felt moved for some reason.

Shen Feixiao was very good-looking. When he was serious, he became even better looking.

“Be serious.” Shen Feixiao easily took off Qin Kaiyi’s pants and bit his shoulder.

“Wu…” Qin Kaiyi’s whole body was in a daze, and this state last until he was entered, clearing up a little.

When pain came from a certain place, Qin Kaiyi finally saw what kind of posture he was in. He actually opened his legs wide, clamping Shen Feixiao’s waist, and even put his arms around Shen Feixiao’s neck.

“…This, Shen Feixiao, softer, it hurts…” Qin Kaiyi’s voice had a nasally sound to it. In fact, his memories of the several times they had sex wasn’t very pleasant, and this was the first time his body was experiencing this in this world.

“En.” Drops of sweat dripped down from Shen Feixiao’s forehead. He looked at Qin Kaiyi who was under him, eyes full of deep affection. He lowered his head and whispered into his ear, “Shixiong, you are mine. You can’t… go anywhere.”

At this moment, Qin Kaiyi finally completely woke up. Whether it was this world’s Shen Feixiao or that world’s Shen Feixiao, he would never be able to escape his five finger mountain.

(TN: Figuratively meaning the palm of his hand. The saying comes from Journey to the West when Buddha imprisons the Monkey King. Link in translator note below.)

It was like the determination Shen Feixiao had when he gave him the Feng Shen—if they couldn’t live together, then they would die together.

“Shen Feixiao,” Qin Kaiyi bit Shen Feixiao’s neck, muttering: “if you dare let me down, I’ll kill you with my own hands.”

Shen Feixiao laughed when he heard this, his movements also growing rougher.

Very good, really good. The things he couldn’t get in the other world was finally in the palm of his hand.

Shen Feixiao, you should be… satisfied now, right?

(TN: Dying without any remaining grievances, the opposite of dying with your eyes open.)

Even if you aren’t satisfied, there’s nothing I can do—Shixiong, is mine alone.

…

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