CH ss - 28

[Noelia: Passing by Affection]

“I do not think he has a fever, and it does not seem like he is having a heatstroke either.”

“Hee, his complexion looks terrible though. Is it another illness?”

After removing his cloak in the shade of a tree, I checked the condition of Frick-sama sleeping in light clothes, but I found no sign of him being particularly ill.

I also tried healing magic, but it does not seem to have any effect.

And there is no particular problem in terms of his physical condition.

In that case, I wonder if the problem is in his psychological.

“I am not an expert either, so I don’t know the details, but it may be a psychological problem.”

“Psychological?”

“I have heard that some people lose consciousness because of strong stress——hm!?”

As soon as I said so myself, an idea passes through my mind.

Do not tell me, because I was excited and enjoyed shopping with Frick-sama, it became a burden for him.

To burden him by enjoying myself without thinking about Frick-sama…

I-I forgot my own position and did such a stupid thing.

The thoughts that crossed my mind caused a feeling of self-loathing in me.

Recently, because I was able to talk casually to him, I had forgotten it, but getting too close to him was shameless of me considering what I did.

“Maybe it is my fault… W-what should I do, Cinzia-sama?”

Thinking that the current state of Frick-sama is my fault, my body suddenly trembles, and the view before me began to blur.

“Well, I don’t really understand. Why is it Noelia’s fault? Look, when you shortened your skirt last time, Frick didn’t seem to be dissatisfied, right?”

“You are wrong. You got it wrong. I just took advantage of Frick-sama’s kindness.”

“Is that so? But Frick doesn’t seem to hate Noelia; if he hates you, he wouldn’t come shopping with you today, right? Men and women move and follow a simpler principle than Noelia thinks.”

Cinzia who shows up her face from the robe gives me gentle words as if to comfort me who is having a tearful face.

However, I am sure that Frick-sama and I do not follow such a simple principle.

Frick-sama has been holding himself back all this time.

When we were shopping a while ago, he denied it when that uncle said I was his fiancée after all, as I thought, it must be unpleasant for him.

When I thought so, I become very sad, and the tears I have been holding back spills on Frick-sama’s face in drops.

“Hm… Hmm!? Noelia…? Noelia, huh. Eh, why was I sleeping… Why… are you crying?”

“F-Frick-sama!?”

Frick-sama who has regained consciousness opens his eyes and looks at my face.

I am seen crying!

I make him to worry needlessly again.

I-I have to fool him!?

I immediately wipe my tears and try to figure out an excuse to deceive him, but I could not think of a good idea and end up being flustered.

Perhaps unable to just watch such me, Cinzia-sama opens her mouth,

“Frick is deaad – or so Noelia cried, she was making a fuss you know. You too, if you’re going to collapse, say it in advaaance—.”

“Eh? I collapsed? I don’t remember that at all. If I remember correctly, I should be trying to eat fruits in the market together with Noelia——”

Frick-sama who gets up seems to have a vague memory of when he collapsed.

He may be having a short-term memory lost due to psychological burden.

“I must be inconveniencing you. To collapse suddenly – I showed you an embarrassing sight. It is a blunder as an escort. I’ll be careful from now on.”

Frick-sama has a shy face while scratching his head.

Frick-sama is not at fault…

Because the cause is probably me…

I want to say that, but I am afraid that even this relationship will break.

When I think about the time when even our current relationship is broken, I feel my heart tightened so much that I think it will be crushed.

“N-no. I was having a little too much fun without thinking about you. I will be careful in the future.”

It takes me my best to let out those words.

Even I myself can only say that line is quite selfish.

Afterward, while being exposed to such self-loathing, I continued shopping with Frick-sama, who had recovered from his physical condition, and decided to return to the garrison.

However, because I was thinking that I was the cause of him collapsing on the way home, I felt that my gait was heavier than when we were going out.

Ugh too much self-loathing and self-blame here, where is the sugar?

Oh, and here’s our MC’s sketch.