CH 319

Adopting and Raising the Male Lead and the Villain 319

“It was to not care. Not care about anything I’d normally care about. Oh, that sounds a bit contradictory. Basically, if I liked a sort of dish, then I had to try my best to suppress myself, to control myself, to not indulge in anything I liked. If I liked someone, then I also had to control myself. Food was fine, but it was hard to do that to the people in my life. The more I seemed to miss out on, the more I didn’t want to give up on my family, and the more unwilling I was to die. During the later stages of my disease, I would be hysterical, crazy, and torture myself over the things I was about to lose, and even torture the people around me. I started having many unrealistic thoughts in hopes of staying alive…”

“If you don’t want to experience the pain of losing something, then you can’t open your heart to it in the first place. It took me ten years to learn and adapt to this.”

Zhong Yuhuan hoarsely said, “After I died, I regained consciousness and became the Zhong Yuhuan in this world. I didn’t feel any sadness or pity, only happiness. I had family members who loved me, doted on me, and left only good memories. I felt satisfaction, not unwillingness.”

Zhong Yuhuan blinked. “But I forgot that the present me is already healthy. However, I still used my previous standards on myself, always afraid of loss and thinking once something comes my way then I shouldn’t have gotten it in the first place.”

“I should’ve realized your thoughts from the beginning, but I deliberately overlooked them…” Zhong Yuhuan continued hoarsely, “I’m sorry.”

Huo Chengming grabbed her waist and turned her over.

He used his hand to wipe the corners of her eyes.

Her eyes were a bit red. She had a sad expression on her face and a tear hung in the corner of an eye, not falling.

It was only a drop, but it fell heavily on Huo Chengming’s heart.

“Why do you need to apologize? It’s not Huanhuan’s fault.” Huo Chengming tightly held her in his embrace. “Don’t cry, Huanhuan, don’t cry…”

Li Jinyuan was unhappy. “… Huo Chengming, let go.”

“…” Whoever lets go is a wimp.

Zhong Yuhuan lifted her hand and pushed at Huo Chengming with difficulty, finally making Huo Chengming release her. “You’re pressing on me. It’s uncomfortable.”

Huo Chengming released her. “Okay okay, I was wrong. I won’t hug you so tightly next time.”

Li Jinyuan sneered. “There’s a next time? Heh.”

Zhong Yuhuan exhaled. “You guys believe me?”

“Yes, of course, we do!”

At that moment, the emotions that Zhong Yuhuan showed were not fake.

Instead, it seemed to have been engraved on her soul for a long time, being revealed for the first time today.

Zhong Yuhuan blinked. “Okay, then I’ll tell you guys about my previous life.”

“Okay.” The two instantly started to listen obediently.

They wanted to understand her more, not just the present her but also the past her that she spoke of. As long as it was related to her, they did not want to miss a single thing.

Zhong Yuhuan used three hours to tell them all about her previous life.

After telling them, Zhong Yuhuan felt her whole body relax.

She lazily sprawled across the sofa, not a hint of sadness or loss on her face anymore.

She tilted her head and asked, “Are you scared of me? Do you think that I’m like a demon or a witch? Someone who came back to life.”

“Of course not.” Huo Chengming said. You’ve only rebirthed, but me, I’m much worse. I’m afraid of you finding out the kind of person I am.

Li Jinyuan helplessly smiled. “Speaking of demons, I’m more like one.”

“Hm?”

He continued, “The night before the concert, many things suddenly appeared in my mind.”

Zhong Yuhuan looked at him with shock.

“It was a story.”

“The most surprising thing was that the male lead in the story had the same name and background as me and also was in the entertainment circle. The story didn’t have just me but Huanhuan and Huo Chengming as well. Huo Chengming was the big villain type and was beaten to death by me in the end.” At this, Li Jinyuan chuckled a bit.

Huo Chengming laughed disdainfully.

“It was really strange, the female lead was Ling Lan or something. And Ling Lan even deliberately came to find me a few days ago, calling herself my loyal fan…”

Zhong Yuhuan went from suprise to amazement, then frowned.

If Li Jinyuan knew the contents of the story, then what about Ling Lan?

Was this the power of the original story, seeing that the plot was going off-track, it resorted to such a rough method to try to force the story back on schedule?

Li Jinyuan was still smiling gently at Zhong Yuhuan. “So, if I’m demonic, the type that would be dissected for studies, will Huanhuan dislike me?”

Zhong Yuhuan shook her head without thinking.

She wouldn’t - of course not.

He knew the original story, knew of the halo above his head, knew everything… But he didn’t act according to the original work, not chasing Ling Lan under its influence.

Wasn’t that enough to prove his heart?

Zhong Yuhuan exhaled.

She had been overthinking.

She kept on thinking that they would start following the original story once they met the original female lead.

That Li Jinyuan would be together with Ling Lan.

But the reality was that their will was much stronger than she had originally thought.