Chapter 255

As soon as he said this, Lan Xi was stunned, and then thought carefully about whether he really didn't want to see anyone. Recalling the moment when I did it myself, I was really determined to die. It was also true that no one thought about it at that time, but I really didn't want to live.

She can still remember what she thought at that time, but she is desperate for the world. Her parents have long been gone, and her brother has made an agreement with others to never see him again. The most important thing is that Lin Shengkun died and her parents avenged her. She has no goal in her life, which makes her feel at a loss.

She knew that Lan Yang was in Chi Mohan. The latter would take good care of her brother. She was very relieved.

And now there is only Xiao Yunyi, the man he loves. But now it should only be described as "loved". How can a woman have much love for this man after she has been severely hurt by this man.

For Lan Xi, Xiao Yunyi's words can only say the fuse, not the reason. The reason is still in herself. Lanxi felt the changes in his heart, especially since this period of time. She often feels irritable and empty. She even wanted to die. She felt that she had no nostalgia for the world.

Lanxi knew that his psychology was abnormal. That's what she thought before. She didn't dare to see any doctor. Even now she still has this idea. She still didn't dare to see a doctor.

She was afraid that if the answer was really what she thought in her heart, she would be locked up by Xiao Yunyi for treatment. She doesn't want to be regarded as a patient, let alone a psychopath. Moreover, Xiao Yunyi has been strict enough with her. If he knows that he is ill, he really can't get a little breathing.

Jolin looked at Lan Xi in a daze, and her heart calmed down slowly from her anxiety at the beginning. In the past, when she was in the villa, the other party often had this state. She didn't talk while chatting, but she was just immersed in her own thoughts. Jolin could see the change of her attitude towards Xiao Yunyi during her departure, but she still had a faint worry in her heart.

"No."

Lanxi suddenly said something, but the listener was stunned for a few seconds.

"Why?" Jolin was puzzled. "You don't know how worried he was when you were lying in the hospital bed. And even if you don't think about the boss, Lan Yang? Don't you want it? Don't you love this brother very much?"

With a sigh, Lan Xi's tone was full of weakness, "if you had committed suicide like me once, you wouldn't have asked such a question. I had figured out the end of me and these people at the moment I decided to die. Naturally, I wouldn't think of them when I woke up."

"What were you thinking when you woke up?" Jolin couldn't help asking.

"Thinking about why I survived."

Lanxi's voice was faint, but somehow Jolin heard a chill from inside.

This chill comes from Lan Xi's indifference to his life, and also from how sad Xiao Yunyi would be if he knew what Lan Xi thought, or what he would do to Lan Xi?

It can only be said that Xiao Yunyi's actions over this period of time have left a deep impression in the hearts of everyone.

Even his most trusted housekeeper felt that when he woke up, after he had recovered, Xiao Yunyi would be more strict in giving him freedom than he hoped.

"But it's not easy for him these days. Every day he's wondering if you can wake up and get better. This kind of entanglement corrodes his heart all the time, and he regrets that he did that to you that day."

Although she doesn't agree with Xiao Yunyi's practice, Qiao Lin still can't help explaining to Lan Xi that Xiao Yunyi is worried about Lan Xi. Even if she knew what she said might not be useful to the people in front of her.

"So what?"

Lan Xi's answer did not exceed Jolin's expectation. These four words are enough to explain her attitude, which is indifferent and indifferent.

Seeing that Jolin had nothing to say, Lan Xi couldn't help talking, "It's the third time I've been in the operating room since I came to Xiao Yunyi's side. Every time I wake up, you will say to me how difficult, anxious and careful Xiao Yunyi took care of me during my coma. But so what? It's always me, not him, who suffers."

There was a silence, and Lan Xi continued, "The second time, I asked for hardship. I went to Lin Shengkun for revenge beyond my ability. But the first time was related to this time, and every time was related to him. Maybe this time was my suicide. I shouldn't say it had something to do with him, but to be honest, I still had some resentment against him. In fact, I've wanted to commit suicide for a long time, but I was stimulated by him one day I just have courage. If he didn't do that that day, we wouldn't be like today, or maybe... "

"You don't know where I die."

In the latter sentence, Lan Xi's voice was very light, but Jolin heard it clearly. She couldn't even imagine what it would be like if Xiao Yunyi heard Lan Xi's confession. But what the two people in the room didn't know was that there was an ear at the door listening to their conversation.

Xiao Yunyi knew that she would not be the same in Lanxi's heart, but she didn't expect that she had begun to resent herself in her heart. What made him more afraid was that Lan Xi had the idea of suicide long ago, but they never found it. Thinking that Lan Xi said that she might die quietly in the other party he didn't know, Xiao Yunyi was trembling in his heart. He couldn't accept it.

Pressing down the idea of breaking in, Xiao Yunyi forced herself not to make a sound and continued to bend over at the door to listen to the conversation inside.

Lan Xi's words left a trace of fear in Xiao Yunyi's heart after all. He couldn't help grasping the door handle. His strength was about to crack it.

Jolin was shocked by Lan Xi's words and didn't know what to say. She looked more worried in her eyes,. In particular, she was afraid that she was saying some inappropriate words, which would stimulate Lan Xi and make her feel suicidal again.

At that time, Xiao Yunyi will not let go of herself. Even she can't forgive herself.

Being looked at anxiously by Jolin, Lan Xi didn't care, "I won't see a doctor and I won't commit suicide. Don't worry."