Volume 1 - CH 12

V1 Chapter 12 | Farewell

Hazuki, I wonder what you’re thinking right now? A while ago I would have thought I knew whatever you were thinking…

Why are you looking so frightened right now?

Why do you look like such a victim?

Why have you been deceiving me all this time?

I don’t know anything about you anymore.

———

How much time has passed?

The air in the room was so heavy that it paralyzed my sense of time. Then Hazuki’s mouth opened and gradually began to spin words.

“I think the first time I had relations with Kouki-kun was shortly before our junior high school graduation ceremony.”

It was a bombshell.

I never thought that Hazuki and Kouki had a special relationship even before that. I’m not sure if she doesn’t notice my astonishment or not, but Hazuki goes on with her story.

“I think Yuuri was told that Kouki-kun was transferring to another school on the day of the graduation ceremony, but I was told about two or three weeks before that. He told me then that he liked me and that he wanted me to make memories with him just once before he transferred to another school. At first, I refused, but I could tell that he was serious about it, so I said yes.”

Hazuki was wandering in the air with empty eyes.

“In junior high school, that was really the first and last time I saw him. I knew I would never see Kouki-kun again, and since we had been such good friends up until then, I got lonely and said, “If it’s just once, I’ll come back here.” I never thought that Kouki-kun would come back here. I had already become a high school student and he was already a person from the past, and the time we had sex had been relegated to the corner of my memory.”

When I looked at Kouki, he was grinning as if he was enjoying this situation. 

“It was around July of my junior year in high school, a little after Kouki-kun came back, that we began to have the kind of relationship we have now. I think it was the same day that Yuuri and Kanade suddenly had to go to a club activity. It was still too early to go home, so I continued talking with Kouki-kun at the park. At first, we were just having a casual conversation, but when we started talking about our junior high school days, I found myself remembering that time. And the next thing I knew, I was kissing Kouki-kun.”

There was certainly a time like that. That time a member of our club was injured and we had to go to the hospital in a hurry. Well, Hazuki betrayed me in earnest at that time.

“I was kind of extremely nervous. Even when I had sex with Kouki-kun for the first time in junior high school, I was more excited than having sex with Yuuri, and I was the one who was feeling good. I couldn’t seem to forget that sex for a long time. The first sex after Kouki-kun came back was also great. I thought, “Oh, this is the kind of sex I’ve always wanted to have”.”

I wonder if Hazuki realizes That he is calling out Kouki’s name. That she is no longer keeping up appearances.

“I don’t know if you can believe me, but I wasn’t dissatisfied at all with the sex I had with Yuuri. But with Kouki-kun, he enveloped me with a pleasure that I couldn’t get with Yuuri. At that time, I thought, “Oh, my God, I’m going to have sex with him”. I thought, “Oh, I love having sex with this person”.”

At that moment, I heard a rattling sound at the door. I looked toward the sound and saw Kanade standing up with an angry expression on her face and about to turn toward Hazuki. I stopped her with my hand and urged Hazuki to continue.

“Sex with Yuuri makes my heart flutter and I feel very happy. But when I have sex with Kouki, I feel as if my head is being turned upside down, and the sludgy lust inside me is being drained out of me. Having sex with Kouki-kun allowed me to expose the real me. I probably did a lot of things that Yuuri couldn’t even imagine. That was exciting for me, and I looked forward to having sex with Kouki a lot.”

Hazuki looks ecstatic. You, you have such a look on your face too. I didn’t think I’d be able to see your expression for the first time at a time like this.

“In the past few months, when I said Yuuri wanted to have sex with me, you refused, didn’t you? I told him that I was tired, that I was a little sick, but the truth is that I was refusing because I couldn’t be satisfied unless it was Kouki’s sex. fufu, I’m the worst.”

———

Deciding that the conversation is over, I confront them with my second request.

“Very well. Here’s my second request. You and I are strangers now. We’re not girlfriends or childhood friends or anything. I want to erase even the past you from my memory. It may be impossible for me not to see you because of school, but I want you to expect that we won’t exchange a word except for what is necessary.

Then Hazuki suddenly opened her eyes and clung to my feet.

“No. That’s the only thing I don’t want to do. I’m sorry. Yuuri, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I betrayed you. So please don’t pretend that our relationship never happened. I beg you. I’ll do anything, just don’t abandon me.”

“I can’t do that, Hazuki. You betrayed me so thoroughly. The time to forgive or not forgive has long passed. If it were true, I would have broken up with you in junior high school. I never thought I would be deceived and betrayed by Hazuki for such a long time.”

“No… I don’t want to. Forgive me… Yuuri, please forgive me.”

I guess Hazuki thought I’d forgive her for whatever reason. She was rarely selfish, but I never once refused Hazuki’s wishes. Ignoring Hazuki’s clinging to my leg, I turned my face to Kouki.

“Kouki, this goes for you too. Until now, I thought you were my best friend, the one I could trust the most. But I’ve learned the hard way that I was just being selfish. Take Hazuki and get out of this room right now.

“I understand, I understand. I’ll leave right now. Come on, Hazuki, don’t cling to Yuuri, get up. You’re lucky, you’re going to be with me for a long time. You said so yourself. You love having sex with me, don’t you? I’ll do it anytime, let’s go.”

In a tone of voice that shows no signs of guilt, Kouki holds Hazuki in his arms and is about to leave the house. Hazuki, held in his arms, still said, “Yuuri……  no…… don’t abandon…… me. I won’t give up. I won’t leave you,” she shouted at me, but I didn’t care anymore.

“Ah! Yuuri! You should delete that video! I’ll be in big trouble if you expose me to libepo.”

“I can’t do that. Hazuki and I are close as a family. As an insurance policy against Hazuki telling you what to do and what not to do, I’m going to carry it with me. Of course, I won’t do any libepo, so please don’t worry about that.

“Tch…………. Well, never mind. Don’t take this libepo nonsense seriously! See you later, best friend.”

*****

[Kanade’s Point of View]

What in the world is this person talking about?

Is it really Hazuki who is hurting Yuu-kun in front of my eyes?

Was the real Hazuki such an ugly woman?

I couldn’t stand it. I have to shut up this woman who is hurting Yuu-kun in front of my eyes. Yuu-kun will get hurt again. I have to protect Yuu-kun.

I wanted to get up and stop Hazuki, but Yuu-kun stopped me.

Why, Yuu-kun? You shouldn’t listen to this woman.

Tears were falling from my eyes.

And when Hazuki’s story ended and Kouki-kun opened his mouth, the content was so terrible that I forgot to even get angry.

What had I and Yuu-kun been spending the same time together until now? Looking at these two people, it is hard to believe that they are the same people as us. We trusted such people and laughed together in the same space. I was scared to think so.

I let go for a while, but the moment I heard the door of the house slam shut, I came back to myself.

(Yuu-kun ！！！！)

When I looked at Yuu-kun, he was sitting on the bed and drooping.

“Yuu-kun, are you okay? Hey, look at me.”

Yo-kun’s face was pale and his eyes were vacant and he looked like he was in danger. Impatient, I hugged him and said, “Don’t worry. I’m here, I’m here, it’s going to be okay.”

———

About 30 minutes after those two had left the house, Yuu-kun began to talk with vacant eyes.

“After I saw the video, I was going to break up with those two, so this is what I expected to happen. However, it was more painful than I thought it would be to hear that the person I thought was my beloved girlfriend and my best friend had betrayed me. I never thought that Hazuki and Kouki had been in a relationship since junior high school. I thought I knew everything about Hazuki, but I didn’t understand the important part at all.”

The words came out of Yuu-kun’s mouth without hesitation, but they were monotone, and I could not feel any emotion at all.

“What was the relationship between me and Hazuki? What kind of a person was I to him? I’m already afraid to trust people. I’m already afraid of being betrayed.”

Yuu-kun’s shoulders were shaking. He should be very sad, but not a single tear came out. But I understand. Right now, Yuu-kun is crying. Deep in his heart, he is crying until his tears dry up.

So I hugged Yuu-kun more strongly than before so that my feelings would be conveyed to him.

“Yuu-kun. I will never betray you. I will never do anything to make you sad, and I will never leave your side. When you are in pain, I want to heal you, and when you are happy, I want to be happy with you. So please share your sorrow with me. It’s okay. You don’t have to force yourself. You don’t have to be strong.”

When I said that, Yuu-kun shook his shoulders and cried like a child.

I had seen Yuu-kun cry like this once when I was in elementary school. That was when Hazuki-chan’s father passed away.

At that time, Hazuki and Yuu-kun cried while hugging each other. As I watched the scene from a distance, I thought, inappropriately, that I envied Hazuki. It’s not often you get to share so much sorrow together, is it?

“Why? Why is Kanade being so kind to me? It’s always been like that. Why is she so supportive of me?”

Yuu-kun, who has calmed down a bit, looks me in the eye and asks me a question. That’s right. Yuu-kun, it’s because… I love you.

“That’s not a surprise. Because we’ve been childhood friends, right? We’ve been together since we were kids, and I can’t abandon you like that.”

“Just because we’re childhood friends, is that the only reason Kanade is so supportive of me…?”

“That’s right. And if I were in a situation like Yuu-kun’s, Yuu-kun would probably support me with all his might as I did. Because the Yuu-kun I know is that kind of person.”

When I said that, Yuu-kun’s face got all messed up and he turned his head down.

“Therefore, Yoo-kun, you don’t have to worry about it, okay? In the past, now, and in the future, I will always be by your side, and I will always be on your side.”

“Kanade… thank you… thank you so much… for always being by my side. Thank you… for always watching over me.”

Yoo-kun and I hugged each other and cried together.

Just like Hazuki-chan and Yuu-kun back then.

TLN: Lipebo is revenge p*rn. “Harassment exposes sexual photos and videos of a former partner or ex-spouse to an unspecified number of people on the Internet.” –sauce