Chapter 85

When the past of the two cities was completely destroyed, Zhuang Yan gathered all the members of the crew for a meal.

Most of the actors leave the group ahead of time when they finish their part, so this time it's basically the main group and the actors who stay for the last part.

Rough calculation, we can also be regarded as getting along with each other for more than half a year.

As a newcomer, Luo Zixin is full of emotion. She was watched by Zhuang Yan from school. She made a movie for the first time. Although she was always scolded by Zhuang Yan, her acting skills improved a lot through day after day.

This time made her gain a lot. She couldn't help but get up and give Zhuang Yan a glass of wine. She said sincerely: "it's a great honor for me to shoot" the past of two cities ". What I learned in school before was just a matter of paper. Thanks to director Zhuang's criticism and instruction, I can learn so much."

Zhuang Yan laughed: "such formal words should be reserved for reporters to say, at this time, there is no need to be so formal."

Luo Zixin shakes his head: "these are my heart words."

She is one of the most inexperienced actors in the crew, but she plays an important role. Zhuang Yan never gives people face when shooting. He tries to achieve perfection and beauty. Sometimes he hates iron and steel. When he scolds Luo Zixin in front of all the staff members, she scolds Luo Zixin directly and asks her to make up her makeup and continue shooting.

But Luo Zixin also has a tenacity, so he doesn't hate Zhuang Yan.

She knew in her heart that the harder Zhuang Yan scolded, the more wonderful her performance under the camera would become.

Sheng Shisong and she played the opposite drama for such a long time, and had a good relationship. He joked: "now you can say such scene words. When you are chased by reporters with long guns and short guns, you don't want to say it any more."

Luo Zixin said: "I am a plain person, which has the press conference to chase me to run."

When Sheng Shisong heard the speech, he raised his glass to her: "I'd like to propose a toast to you first. With your performance in the film, I believe you will be red after the show. When you are in full swing in the future, don't forget us."

Luo Zixin's lips curved: "I'll borrow your good words. I wish you a bright future and win the film emperor's crown as soon as possible."

"Why are you so polite?" Zhuang Yan chuckled. "The atmosphere has been made serious by you."

Sheng Shi chuckled and said, "then I'll talk about some small things I heard that director Zhuang is going to get married? "

Zhuang Yan was stunned for a moment and then picked up his eyebrows: "you are well informed."

The crowd burst into laughter.

"Congratulations

"I don't even say anything."

"Remember to invite me to a wedding reception. I'm ready for some money."

Most of the people present know the relationship between Zhuang Yan and Xie Ning, and now many eyes are on Xie Ning.

Xie Ning felt uneasy for a moment. Then he tightened his arms and pulled his body to the side of zhuangyan: "the specific marriage date has not been determined yet. My mother and the elders of the Xie Ning family are expected to discuss for a while, but it should be this year."

All of a sudden, there are people who did not know before whispered: "I said they are a pair."

"Good things come in pairs."

Wang gradually tut a, said: "I did not expect you to even earlier than I take off the single."

Then he turned his head and looked at Xie Ning and said, "Congratulations, don't forget to send me the candy."

Xie Ning was so looked at by the public, his face turned red, but his heart was sweet.

He calmed down and said to his blessing, "thank you."

Although the film is finished, the holiday is only for the actors, and other staff still have to work hard for the post editing.

Fortunately, they didn't have to run around the country like shooting. Xie Ning and Zhuang Yan went back to the North together. After work, they could also make time to prepare for the wedding with Ms. Qiao.

"This is the list of guests that your father and I drew up in the first place." Ms. Qiao put a small book in front of the two people. "Most of them are relatives and friends of the banker's side, as well as your grandmother's side. They have settled abroad more often. After making a date, you should tell them in advance so that they have time to return home."

Zhuang Yan flipped over: "so much?"

"It's not only that. I'll wait for master Xie to look over the list over there. If you want to invite any friends I don't know, remember to add their names." Ms. Qiao stroked her hair. "It's estimated that there is only one wedding ceremony in my life. Naturally, we should do it well."

Ms. Qiao said, turning her head and asking Xie Ning, "what do you think of Ning Ning?"

Xie Ning thought for a moment and said, "it's up to you."

Ms. Qiao hooked the corner of her lip: "it's all a family. How can you be so polite?"

Xie Ning was stunned. He moved his eyes slightly embarrassed and said in a low voice Listen to it all

"Oh, good boy." Ms. Qiao felt comfortable and gently patted Xie Ning's hand and said, "it can be regarded as a change of mouth, and it is not allowed to forget it later."

Xie Ning a little bit shy, red ear tip should.For this wedding, Xie Ning's parents' attitude has always been unclear. Ms. Qiao and his wife let Xie Ning not have to intervene, and they did not know how they communicated. Finally, they agreed to attend the ceremony, and their face was tolerable.

Mr. Xie is looking forward to the wedding, but when he is old, Ms. Qiao is in charge of the wedding preparation.

At the beginning, Xie Ning was still a little uneasy. She was afraid of too much trouble for Ms. Qiao. She thought that she should help her when she was free.

Zhuang Yan comforted him: "don't worry about it. She is one of them. When I was an adult, she began to think about my future wedding. Now she has satisfied her wish."

Ms. Qiao really enjoyed it. After two days, when they had a rare spare time and were ready to go through the world of two, they found the door again.

This time, because of the arrival of their dresses, Ms. Qiao specially sent them for them to try on. If there is anything that is not close to the body, there is time to change it.

Xie Ning took the clothes and went upstairs to the bedroom to change them. As soon as he took off his clothes, Zhuang Yan followed him in.

He empty handed, did not take his set of gifts, Xie Ning slightly a Leng, lift eyes to see to him.

"I'll change it for you." He said.

Xie Ning lip corner moved: "I don't know how to wear clothes."

Zhuang Yan had already taken the clothes to his hand. He raised his eyebrows and laughed: "but I just want to help you wear them."

Thanks for opening his arms and changing his dress.

Zhuang Yan also wanted to help him change his pants. Xie Ning held on to the belt tightly and insisted on refusing. Finally, Zhuang Yan made him blush. He did not let go. Zhuang Yan had to sigh regretfully.

After Xie Ning changed his full dress, Zhuang Yan reached out to help him smooth out the wrinkles one by one.

The hot palms stroked from the back to the shoulder, and then fell on the chest. Even the clothes were not let go, and finally gently put them on his waist and abdomen.

For a moment, Xie Ning doubted whether he came to help or just wanted to take the opportunity to eat tofu.

After a while, he no longer doubted, because zhuangyan directly reached out and held him to the edge of the bed. Half of his body was pressed down, forcing him to lean back and put his hands on the edge of the bed.

"For what?" Xie Ning couldn't help pushing him with his hand.

Zhuang Yan didn't answer. He let him go and stepped back. His deep eyes fell on him, and he looked him carefully from beginning to end.

Finally, the eyes stop at Xie Ning's neck. The dress has a matching bow tie, but the dress is not a high collar. There is a little white skin on the neck.

Zhuang Yan's eyes are dim.

"What's the matter? What's wrong with this suit? " Xie Ning saw that he didn't speak for a long time. He lowered his head and didn't find anything wrong. He thought of taking a look in front of the mirror.

Unexpectedly, before the man got up, Zhuang Yan had already stepped forward, pressed the man into the soft quilt and kissed him thoroughly.

The hot kiss lasted for half a day. The warm lips seemed reluctant to let go. They moved down slowly, from the chin to the neck, and nibbled at Xie Ning's throat.

Xie Ning panted to push him. Zhuang Yan's head was buried in his neck. He reached out and felt only a soft hair.

After a while, Zhuang Yan raised his head and said, "I'm a little hesitant to let you wear this suit at the wedding."

Xie Ning can't help but ask nervously: "isn't it beautiful?"

Zhuang Yan gave a low smile: "it's very nice."

At any time, I'm afraid you'll look better than me I can't control it. "

"What can't I control?" Xie Ning asked in a low voice

Zhuang Yan looked at him, put his face to his ear, and his voice was low: "I can't help but want to kiss you."

The hot hand clasped Xie Ning's waist, the finger slightly tightens.

"I can't help but hold you in bed and do more than that."

Xie Ning:

He blushed for a long time, then reached out his hand to push the man away from him, and said to his side, "don't make trouble Your clothes are all crumpled by you

Before going downstairs, Xie Ning looked in the mirror for a long time to make sure that her dress was in a proper place without any wrinkles.

Even so, aware of the meaningful eyes when Ms. Qiao looked over, Xie Ning's red suddenly.

They stayed in the bedroom for too long, and Xie Ning was not as cheeky as Zhuang Yan. The look on his face made people daydream.

"If you're all dressed up, on the day of the wedding, people must envy death zhuangyan. Where can you find such a beautiful partner?" Ms. Qiao glanced at Zhuang Yan with her head sideways. She didn't say anything. She just praised Xie Ning for her good looks.

After all, the son is born from his own belly, what temperament she can not know?

Zhuang Yan nodded: "I feel the same way."

Ms. Qiao glared at him angrily: "don't talk nonsense there. You should try on the clothes as soon as possible."

Zhuang Yan picked his eyebrows carelessly and ran leisurely to change his clothes.The dresses all fit well, and there is nothing to change. Ms. Qiao looks at the two people side by side in a trance.

It seems that from the moment Zhuang Yan was born, she has been looking forward to today's scene - the child she has raised so hard, holding another person's hand, accepting her blessing, saying that he has finally found someone to share his life with.

He grew up and left her.

He has his own life and road, also has his own love and happiness.

……

The wedding is well prepared. The final guest list is drawn up by Xie Ning and Zhuang Yan. The wedding address is selected by Ms. Qiao, a five-star hotel belonging to zhuangyan industry.

Ms. Qiao also asked someone to specially design the invitation, which was very beautiful. Unfortunately, the invitation has not been sent out so far - the wedding time has not been determined.

Originally, Ms. Qiao thought that the wedding could be set on Zhuang Yan's birthday, which was quite commemorative, but Zhuang Yan did not approve of it.

"I can only have one birthday and wedding anniversary, thanks to that."

It's meaningless to ask Xie Ning for his opinions. Most of the time, he said, "I think it's OK. You can decide."

Finally, the wedding date was set a week after Zhuang Yan's birthday.

Before the completion of the "two cities" in the later period.

When watching films with Zhuang Yan, Xie Ning had a strange feeling in his heart, which he had never seen before.

There are many scenes and pictures that he is familiar with. Some of them are designed and painted by him all night long. When they are presented on the big screen, they give him different senses.

This familiar and strange feeling made him want to say a thousand words at a time, but he didn't know how to express it.

"How about it?" Zhuang Yan asked him, "this is the work we have finished together."

Shening was described by him as a trance, whispered: "just like our children."

Zhuangyan stopped, then turned around, buckled Schering's waist, and slowly approached him, saying, "then we will have many children in the future."

In the dim light of the big screen, Zhuang Yan gave him a gentle kiss.

Zhuang Yan has high hopes for the film "the past of two cities".

Xie Ning also felt that it was a masterpiece comparable to a classic film, and he was worried that he had a good filter for watching his own children.

Zhuang Yan, by contrast, is much more confident - he has decided to send him to the Venice International Film Festival before the film is released.

"Of the three major international film festivals, Venice is the one that values Chinese films most." "In fact, I'm not optimistic about the box office of the two cities, but the awards can be won," Zhuang said

Xie Ning smell speech smile: "do you have no confidence in its box office?"

"It's not lack of confidence, it's too much confidence." Zhuang Yan raised his eyebrows and looked at him. "Have you ever heard such a saying: film is the art of directors. For literary and artistic films, box office is not its pursuit and purpose. "

"Is that the pursuit of awards?" Xie Ning asked

Zhuang Yan shook his head and said: "not all of them. It's just a proof. It's more about the director's self artistic expression. Many director's films have his own style, even if they use different types of lens and adopt a variety of shooting techniques, this style can not be erased. A lot of audiences think that a movie should have a complete plot and a good story to tell. But for me, when I make a movie, I don't pursue storytelling and logic, but convey an emotion. "

"Art itself is a kind of self-expression." Xie Ning thought for a moment and said, "my thinking, my philosophy, my ideal, my feelings So it's very personal. "

Zhuang Yan responded: "the audience of literary and artistic films is also very small. Among the 100 audiences who enter the cinema, only one person may watch literary and artistic films. Among the ten audiences who watch literary and artistic films, only one can resonate with me and understand my emotions. Even what this person finally interprets, what I want to express may not be exactly the same."

"So I will send" the past of two cities "to the film festival, but I will not spend too much energy on publicity. It does not need excessive publicity, nor is it suitable to be popularized to the public like commercial films. Literary and artistic films do not need to be tested by the public. "

Xie Ning turns to look at him, pupil bright and clear.

He said, "I think I can."

"What?" Zhuang Yan asked

"I can understand the emotion you want to express," she replied

Zhuang Yan is slightly stunned, and then the corners of his lips bloom with a smile.

"I know that's the resonance of our souls."

The lights on the big screen gradually dimmed, and a shadow fell before Xie Ning's eyes.

A moment later, a warm touch covered his lips.

……

Before the wedding, Xie Ning asked Ji Wenbin again.

This time, they didn't go to the hospital. They made an appointment in a coffee shop.Ji Wenbin said: "will it make you feel more relaxed here? The hospital more or less will give a little psychological hint, always run to the hospital, no disease will feel sick

Xie Ning nodded, with a little smile on the corner of his lips: "what doctor Ji said is."

Ji Wenbin added a piece of sugar in his coffee and mixed it with a spoon: "I think you look good. It doesn't look like you have any trouble."

Xie Ning took out an invitation card and handed it to him: "mainly to deliver this."

Ji Wenbin was surprised: "are you going to get married? Yes, you told me last time

Xie Ning slightly droops the eye: "this period of time also receives the season doctor quite many to take care of."

"Wedding next week?" Ji Wenbin glanced at the time and said with a smile, "I should be able to spare time. Congratulations."

Xie Ning smiles: "thank you."

They were sitting by the window. The sky was bright and the sunlight was shining through the glass. It was like a piece of gold on Xie Ning's side face.

Ji Wenbin looked at him for a few seconds and called out, "Xie Ning."

"Well?" Xie Ning hears the speech and looks up.

"You're in a very stable mood now." Ji Wenbin said, "how are you feeling recently?"

"Sometimes I feel a little anxious, maybe because I'm going to get married," she recalled for a moment

"Anxiety?" Ji Wenbin asked, "when does it usually appear? What is the level of anxiety? "

"Mostly when you're alone." Xie Ning thought for a moment, "the degree is very light, and it will not affect anything. Wait for Zhuang Yan Oh, my fiance. When he comes home, his mood will return to normal. "

Ji Wenbin laughed: "are you showing love in front of me?"

Xie Ning followed with a smile: "sorry In fact, I also want to ask, Dr. Ji, have I recovered from my illness? "

Ji Wenbin sipped his coffee, put the cup down, looked up at Xie Ning and said, "I remember I said that last time about this matter."

"You're not sick now, shenin."

Xie Ning's eyelashes trembled twice, like a dragonfly flapping its wings. After a long time, he whispered, "thank you, Dr. Ji."

When the coffee in the cup was almost at the bottom, Xie Ning's mobile phone suddenly rang. He looked sideways and saw that it was zhuangyan.

"Here I am." Zhuang Yan said, "have you had a good chat?"

"Well." Xie Ning answered, "where are you?"

Zhuangyan said, "which table are you at when you just entered the gate of the cafe?"

Xie Ning looked down at the number plate on the table and reported the position in the past.

"Sit still. I'll be there in a minute."

After hanging up the phone, Xie Ning looked up and Ji Wenbin was just staring at him: "is someone coming?"

"Well, it's my fiance. He's coming to pick me up," he said

As soon as the voice fell, Zhuang Yan's figure appeared in his sight.

"Doctor Ji, long time no see." He nodded to Ji Wenbin and said hello in a friendly way.

"Long time no see, Mr. Zhuang."

Xie Ning opened his eyes, looked at Ji Wenbin, and then turned to look at Zhuang Yan, as if puzzled how they knew each other.

But that little confusion was soon forgotten by him. He stood up and said to Ji Wenbin, "doctor Ji, let's go first."

Zhuang Yan's car was parked in the underground garage. Soon after they got into the elevator, a group of people came in. Zhuang Yan took Xie Ning's hand and protected him in his arms.

They leaned against each other until they reached the front of the car. Zhuang Yan released him and opened the door for him with gentlemanly demeanor.

When starting the car, Xie Ning asked, "are you going home?"

Zhuang Yan didn't say a word, and Xie Ning didn't speak again for fear of disturbing his driving.

When the bus stopped at the destination, Zhuang Yan asked with a little grievance: "have you forgotten what day it is today?"

Xie Ning suddenly laughed.

"Not forgotten." Xie Ning turned his head. He touched Zhuang Yan's face, then turned over slightly embarrassed and kissed Zhuang Yan on the cheek. "Today is your birthday."

"Happy birthday."

"Is that all?" Zhuang Yanyou is not satisfied, "no birthday present?"

Xie Ning's eyes flickered slightly: "yes But I'll give it to you when I get home in the evening

This words makes people can't help thinking, Zhuang Yan subconsciously raised eyebrows to see him: "at night?"

Xie Ning's face suddenly turned red and thorough You don't want to be crooked! "

Zhuang Yan smiles innocently: "I didn't think about anything."

Xie Ning couldn't help but stare at him.

I believe it!

The wedding will be held a week later. Zhuang Yan didn't have any more parties on his birthday this year because he wanted to live with Xie Ning. Ms. Qiao and his wife just sent gifts.

This may be Zhuang Yan's most simple birthday, but it is also his most contented.In the evening, Zhuang Yanhao lies on the bed all the time, and allows Xie Ning to sit on him, shivering all over.

Zhuang Yan looked at him with deep and dim eyes: "Ning Ning, the curtain is not pulled, there is moonlight on your shoulder Do you know? "

Xie Ning's voice trembled Well, no, I don't know. "

Zhuang Yan raised his body slightly and kissed him on the shoulder: "you are so It's beautiful. "

Xie Ning pupil shrinks abruptly two times, and then completely lies down.

"I, I have no strength."

"Well." Zhuang Yan buckled his waist and said, "I'll give it to me next."

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"Ning Ning." Zhuang Yan held Xie Ning, who was paralyzed in his arms, and asked, "where is my birthday present?"

He still remembers.

Xie Ning pursed his lips and laughed imperceptibly.

Zhuang Yan's voice was dull: "you won't really forget it?"

"No Xie Ning raised his wrist and put it in front of Zhuang Yan.

There was no light in the room, but there was moonlight through the window, sketching out the faint light and shadow.

Zhuang Yan seldom goes to see the tattoo on Xie Ning's wrist. He doesn't think the scar is ugly. He just looks at it and feels distressed.

The skin will get sores, rot and scab, but the pain buried under the wound will not disappear. When I think of those past events, it is as if I had gouged out another knife in my heart.

The moonlight was light enough for Zhuang Yan to see the tattoo.

Xie Ning's skin is very white, mottled light and shadow, exude a bit of heart stirring sex appeal.

The bird that once opened its wings and wanted to fly suddenly disappeared, like a real bird out of the sky.

Instead, a blue whale leaped out of the water.

Zhuang Yan breathed suddenly.

"Mr. blue whale." Shenin's hoarse and lazy voice sounded in his ear, "I engraved you in my body."

There are so many unexpected things in the world.

If time can flow, back to the moment when shenin handed over the blue whale doll at the beginning, no one would have thought that this blue whale would enter his life in the future and become his salvation, his refuge.

Also give him the warmest home and love in the world.

No one could have thought that such a beautiful love story could be born between Mr. rabbit and Mr. blue whale.

The author has something to say: the urban fairy tale love story between Mr. rabbit and Mr. blue whale is over. Thank you for your company for four months.

I thought it was a short and medium story that could be finished in 20W, but I didn't expect to write a 30W + text in the end.

At the beginning of this article, the original intention of the brain hole is dog blood, white moon and the stem of the stand in. As a result, it says that the dog blood has not been seen, and the ex boyfriend has gone offline directly. Instead, it has become a fairy tale love.

Sure enough, I'm good for writing love cookies.

After that, there will be some foreign affairs, all kinds of messy stems, and the follow-up of the film.

If Zhuang Yan didn't go abroad, he would encounter Xie Ning's Pan Wai Nao in University and wanted to write about it.

The new articles "what's wrong with trumpet chasing stars" and "what kind of experience it's like to be seen by straight men" in the columns, both of which are my favorite stems. I'll open them after I've finished writing them. If you're interested, you can collect them. Finally, the author asked for a collection of the diagnosis book of Xie Ning from fanwai county. Name: Xie Ning

age: 26

gender: male

disease Description: introverted, silent, withdrawn and shy. Emotional indifference, lack of perception, lack of emotional feedback to the stimulation of the outside world, indifference to the surrounding things, indifference to the evaluation of others (including praise and criticism), unable to establish deep emotional contact with others. There is emotional isolation from relatives and families. Close oneself, keep a certain distance with people, and do not want to carry on the social intercourse.

Detailed reasons: because of the sexual orientation problem, he had a fierce conflict with his mother. He had been forced to undergo extreme psychotherapy. During the treatment, he witnessed the suicide of someone who had the same experience with him, and his intense anxiety, panic and anger caused serious trauma.

Therefore, psychological defense mechanism is produced, which refuses to communicate with others in order to avoid being hurt again.

After that, he received informal psychotherapy again, and was instilled with the consciousness of mental illness. He had strong doubts and negation of self, thinking that he was suffering from emotional apathy (actually not), and he even refused to interact with others, and had suicidal behavior and self destruction intention (relieved by the intervention of relatives and friends).

Diagnosis: schizoid personality disorder (i.e. inferiority complex) and mild social disorder.

The way to deal with loneliness and alienation.

The existence and love of lovers heal the psychological trauma and pain, stimulate the interest and love of life, and generate the power to contact the society.

Note: treat your lover as a haven and redemption.He has recovered.

Physician: Ji Wenbin