CH 36

Chapter 36: A God Killer for an Angel

Translated by Dawn

Chapter 36: A God Killer for an Angel

“What is it…Why…”

After being removed as manager of Kuon, what awaited Kazemiya Sorami was rejection, condemnation, and defection from various sources. All of the business partners she had worked with and the personal connections she had cultivated were informed that “working with Kazemiya Sorami was a risk.” No matter how hard she tried, the situation was such that everything Sorami had built up to this point as a manager would crumble.

She tried to persuade her with every word she could. She tried to clear up the misunderstanding. She tried everything she could to talk to the president and get her to reinstate her as manager of Kuon. But in the end, everyone made the same decision.

—We believe in your daughter, Kazemiya Kuon, more than you, Kazemiya Sorami.

With this single word, Kazemiya Sorami lost everything.

And it was—Kazemiya Kuon who created this situation, her own daughter.

“It’s a lie…lie. It’s all a lie…I…I’m like this is…”

There was no longer anything Kazemiya Sorami could do.

All she could do was to escape from the reality in front of her alone in her empty, empty house.

“….Why…such a thing…why. Why. Why. Why. Why…”

The exchange with the president was repeated over and over in her chaotic mind. Each time, Sorami experienced a sense of loss and escaped from the loss of everything. Then she replayed the exchange with the president again. In the midst of this repetition, Sorami saw a ray of light.

“Kohaku…that’s right, it’s Kohaku! Let her testify that I didn’t abuse her!”

The light that was found became a dazzling light, clearing Sorami’s head of the darkness it had been shrouded in.

“Ah, how could I have failed to notice something so simple! I should contact Kohaku immediately—”

“That’s very convenient.”

Her voice was as if it were mocking and crushing the light.

Her footsteps were as if they were carrying the darkness with her.

“Kuon…!”

“You still look good, Mom.”

Kazemiya Kuon made her appearance.

“Kuon, Kuon! What did you do!? What in the world are you thinking!? To suddenly, suddenly, such…! Trying to spread a false rumor to drag me down!”

“…..”

“Yeah, I know. You didn’t like what was happening with Kohaku, didn’t you? But you can’t help it. It’s for your own good.”

“……..”

This is a very important time for your future, and Kuon’s momentum is not just a passing fad. You are the real deal! I can’t have you hurt by her nonsense!

“………….”

“I just—I just wanted to protect you!”

“………….You wanted to protect me?”

“……! T-that’s right! I just wanted to protect you! I wanted to protect you and your bright future……!”

Clinging to her daughter, for Sorami, Kuon was everything to her. She was the person to whom she had decided to devote her entire life. It didn’t matter if it was humiliating or not, she clung to her and put her trust in her. Kuon was the one thing she could not lose.

“………”

Kuon was trembling. Surely, the love of her parents had reached her. It must have.

“Puuh….Kuku…ahahahahahaha!”

“…….Eh?”

What came back to Sorami, who was filled with anticipation, was Kuon’s laughter.

It was as if she were rolling around laughing in her stomach when she saw the clowns dancing on stage. It was a reaction that had no room for parent-child emotion.

“Me? You wanted to protect me? Hahahaha! Are you serious about that? If so, then you know….aha! It’s so irredeemable that it makes me laugh in spite of myself!”

“What do you mean……? What are you trying to say!? I really wanted to protect you……!”

“It’s not me you wanted to protect, it’s your special doll to satisfy your boring life, isn’t it?”

Kuon mercilessly twisted one word that pierced Sorami’s heart at a moment’s notice, as if to pierce a gap in her breathing. Her whole body was paralyzed. Even if she tried to spin some words, her pierced heart could not even form words.

“’You had an older sister …… who would be an aunt to me. I heard she was rather free, yet talented. She was a playful person, but had a good personality and was well-liked by everyone. She was always the best in academics and sports, and her grades were always above yours. …Well, I heard that she left home after college and disappeared somewhere.”

That was right. Sorami’s sister had been with her since she was a student at……no. From the time she was born, she was always above Sorami in everything. She had never been able to beat her sister.

“Auntie…your older sister was a special person. You could never win at anything against her. Only a sense of inferiority was always inside you. Your sister seemed special, and you longed to be special. You wanted to be special too.”

She couldn’t take her eyes off Kuon. She couldn’t allow her eyes.

“You studied as your parents told you to, entered a university as your parents told you to, and found a job at a company as your parents told you to. You didn’t think anything of it, you just lived your life as your parents told you to. ……But then one day you realized, didn’t you? There is nothing in you. All you had was a boring life compared to your sister’s.”

“…….!”

“What a mediocre, boring, and dull person you are compared to your sister—But you can’t start your life over. That’s why you decided to use me, right? You used me as your avatar, and you built your success on my success, right? You felt like you were on your second life, didn’t you?”

Each word mercilessly gouged out Sorami’s heart. What had been kept secret inside her was forcibly pried open and grasped.

“You wanted to be the manager and feel like you were special, didn’t you? You wanted to feel like you were more than your sister, didn’t you? That’s why you wanted me to succeed, right? Because I’m just a puppet avatar to make you feel better about your inferiority to your sister.”

Kuon took one step closer to Sorami. Sorami retreated one step each time.

“You hate Kohaku-chan because she reminds you of yourself, right?　The inferiority complex to your sister. Your old self who was always inferior to your superior sister. That’s why you ran away from this house because you don’t want to see Kohaku-chan……as your past self who was always inferior to your sister.”

“S-shut up!”

She kept backing up, backing up, backing up, and her back hit the wall.

Sorami could only force herself to raise her voice and yell at her.

Even though she knew it was a bluff that would have no effect on Kuon.

“Aren’t we family!? Why do you say that!”

“Kohaku-chan is family too. She is my precious little sister and…she is a cute little angel who came down to me. My song was given to me by an angel named Kohaku-chan.”

“An angel……? I don’t understand…..No. What does it matter!? I’m……I’m your mother!”

“Yes, you are. It pains me to admit this, but without you, I wouldn’t have become Kohaku-chan’s sister, and Kohaku-chan wouldn’t have become my sister. If Kohaku is an angel, then you are God for giving birth to us.”

“If I’m a God……you will do what I say, right? Right? Kuon……”

She reached out her hand as if to cling. To the daughter in front of her. To the light that shined on her life.

“It’s irredeemable, really.”

She reached out her hand, but it was coldly brushed away.

“I, you know—would kill God for an angel.”

“…….!”

It was clear that it was a word of farewell.

Her legs gave out and she collapsed to the floor from the knees, and Kuon just looked down at her.

“I am grateful to you for giving birth to me and for raising me. ……Well, that’s enough. You’ve earned enough to live on for the rest of your life.”

“Where…where are you going…?”

“Somewhere other than here.”

“Wait…!”

“I won’t wait.”

Her daughter’s back was moving further and further away from her. Out of her reach.

“Goodbye.”