CH 109

Title: 顶级掠食者 (Alpha Predator)

Author：水千丞 (ShuiQianCheng)

Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)

Protagonists ：沈岱 (Shen Dai -MC), 瞿末予 (Qu Moyu -ML)

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Qu Moyu’s brain, which was innately capable of creating great value, at that moment, is like an empty valley that echoes repeatedly what his mother had just said.

Madam Qu was annoyed for a moment and then seemed to let go of her heavy burden. She had said it. She finally had said it.

Qu Moyu spoke with a slight tremble in his voice, “What…do you mean?”

“When you are pregnant with a child but you have to use anaesthesia to operate on the glands. It’s common sense, right? You never thought about why Qiuqiu can still be kept after washing off the ‘mark’? Are you keeping up with me?” Madam Qu covered her mouth with her hands and said tremblingly, “In order to keep Qiuqiu, he chose not to take anaesthesia…on the day of your engagement.”

Qu Moyu’s eyes were staring straight blankly at the ground. He stiffened for a long time. He put his head in his hands and grabbed his hair.

He actually thought about it. But he didn’t think about it carefully. He thought that it was some medical method he didn’t understand that allowed Shen Dai to keep the child while washing off the ‘mark’. In any case, he never thought it would be such a cruel possibility— When Shen Dai washed off the ‘mark’, he did not use anaesthesia, in order to save Qiuqiu.

No anaesthesia.

The gland is a very fragile, sensitive and important organ in the human body. When injured, it will be more painful than hurt in other parts. Such places have to be cut open by a scalpel in order to extract glandular fluid, dialysis purification, suture and a series of procedures. It would be such a severe pain. This unimaginable torture happened to Shen Dai… to his omega.

How painful, how painful, how painful!

When Shen Dai was lying in the cold operating room and experiencing inhuman pain, he was engaged to Zhou Xiaochu in the splendid banquet hall. He couldn’t imagine what Shen Dai was thinking at that time, how many tears he had shed, and what kind of screams he had made.

Qu Moyu seemed to recall everything that had happened between the two of them in a flash. Everything that he had said, what he had done, what further mistakes he had made, and every tear and every plea of ​​Shen Dai. Every point of his own indifference and every persecution. What had he done to the person he loves?!

For a long time, his body’s defence mechanism has been preventing himself from uncovering the veil of these memories, He only occasionally glimpsed the despicable and unbearable past from the flying dust, which was enough to inspire his indebtedness and pity for Shen Dai. As if they were all only there subconsciously. He knew very well that once he remembered everything, once he replaced himself with Shen Dai’s experience, he would be torn to shreds by guilt, remorse and self-blame.

Has he always been so selfish and shameless? When it is time to retreat, he still wants to escape!

He loves Shen Dai too much, so he is afraid. He is afraid to face up to the unrecoverable harm he had caused to Shen Dai. He is afraid that after seeing this clearly, there is no way to fool himself that Shen Dai will come back to him. He is afraid that no matter what he pays and how much he tries to make up for it, he has no confidence or qualifications to think that Shen Dai will still love him.

But now he had to open his eyes, clear the fog of memories, and see clearly the debts he was trying to escape. Piece by piece. Bit by bit. What he had done to Shen Dai and why can’t Shen Dai be able to forgive him.

He despised, misunderstood, humiliated, threatened, and oppressed Shen Dai. He knew that Shen Dai liked him but didn’t take it seriously. He knew that Shen Dai didn’t schemed against him and didn’t care about Shen Dai’s innocence. He used pheromones to suppress Shen Dai and forced Shen Dai to knock out his child, wash off the ‘mark’, and even after the two reunited, he continued to coerce and hurt Shen Dai.

He even felt aggrieved and ashamed of Shen Dai’s rejection. Why should he be?!

For him to have Qiuqiu, from pregnancy to childbirth to parenting, what Shen Dai has encountered, sacrificed, abandoned, and paid for… these are what he could never imagine. They were all engraved on his soul. For the sins that he cannot erase and cover up, he will experience repeated torture and execution for the rest of his life and he will never be freed from it.

Seeing Qu Moyu’s face contorted with extreme pain, Madam Qu was also very sad. With tears in her eyes, she whispered, “Your father always said that I was siding with an outsider. I didn’t mean to. But you owe him a lot.” She originally planned not to tell this secret in her life. First of all, it was Shen Dai who requested this. And secondly, she saw that her son really fell in love with Shen Dai. He wanted to ‘mark’ Shen Dai in anger and everything would really be irreversible. She personally experienced the pain of having a physical ‘mark’ with Qu Shen. But not having a spiritual connection, the pain of love and hate, closeness and alienation, she knew that Shen Dai would not be able to achieve consummation with Qu Moyu simply because of being ‘marked’. The two will only torture each other for a lifetime in an unbreakable bondage.

She also wants them both out of pain. But she also wants the family to be reunited. But the love calamity can only be overcome by herself.

Qu Moyu’s head almost dropped to his chest. The huge regret drowned him in a sea of ​​misery and he was almost unable to breathe. He never thought that one day he would hate himself so much. He whispered in a hoarse and disembodied voice: “What should I do?”

It seemed that everyone and every force in the world was preventing him from being with Shen Dai. The more he wanted to hold on to Shen Dai, the more he wanted to escape. He felt powerless. He was so high-spirited that he thought he could climb any mountain. But he still couldn’t hold water in his palms.

Madam Qu sighed. She didn’t know how to comfort her son: “The most important thing now is to solve the issue with You Xinghai. In any case, Shen Dai cannot be allowed to bear these debts.”

Qu Moyu clenched his fist slowly. The resentment he wanted to vent on suddenly had a specific direction.

“You’re a smart person. You actually know what to do in your heart. You don’t want the person you love to treat you like that, so don’t treat the person you love that way.” Madam Qu said softly, “No matter what education you have, no matter what your pheromone level is. S-class alpha is much better than ordinary people but everyone is equal in love.”

Qu Moyu closed his eyes.

Equality. It is such a simple word. But it is the farthest word in the world between ‘knowing’ and ‘doing’.

“I’ll go see him first.” Madam Qu walked to the door. She knocked lightly and said softly, “Ah Dai, it’s me.”

There was no response from the room. Madam Qu hesitated for a moment, pushed the door open and walked in.

Shen Dai sat in the corner of the sofa, holding Qiuqiu blankly. It was as if the child in his arms was the only connection between him and this world. There was nothing else in his eyes.

Madam Qu felt heartbroken. She sat aside and said bitterly, “I looked at you and I saw myself back then.”

Shen Dai’s eyes floated over. He didn’t know what normal people would think at this moment after experiencing so many setbacks. His brain seemed to freeze for a while.

“But you are stronger than me. You can protect your own child. I couldn’t. I couldn’t protect the first one, nor could I protect the second one.” The pain in Madam Qu’s eyes was indescribable.

Shen Dai looked down at the sleeping child. He realised very early on that he had nothing but Qiuqiu. He was trying to save his child and he was not trying to save himself.

“Can we talk?” Madam Qu asked softly.

Shen Dai said indifferently: “I will always be grateful to you. But you are also from the Qu family.” He did not believe that Madam Qu did not know Qiuqiu’s pheromone level. As Qiuqiu’s omega father, he was the last to know. He knew very well that the reason why Madam Qu helped him was for her own son in the final analysis. When their interests conflicted, she would definitely give priority to her own son. He was rifed with betrayal by those closest to him.

“My surname is not Qu. My surname is Liang. Before I was only known as Madam Qu, my name was Liang Rui.” She seemed to be a little unfamiliar with her own name and murmured, “Liang Rui.”

Shen Dai inexplicably touched her heart.

“I am the omega married to the Qu family. It does not mean that I agree with all the practices of the Qu family. Because I am also deeply affected by it.” A sadness appeared on Liang Rui’s face, “I have always wanted to help you. You can trust me.”

Shen Dai’s face was still written with precaution. A precaution against everyone.

Liang Rui said solemnly: “I am Moyu’s mother. I hope he is well, but I also hope you are well. I will not defend him for his mistakes, but I must help him clarify some misunderstandings. Moyu definitely does not want you simply because of Qiuqiu. He and I both knew Qiuqiu’s pheromone level. It was when you were in the hospital at that time. He was afraid that you would misunderstand and that his father would know what he would do, so he decided to hide it from everyone.”

Shen Dai lowered his head and said nothing.

“I know you can’t believe it now, but there must be many traces of the truth that can verify it. It all depends on whether you want to know it or not.” Liang Rui said warmly, “I always feel that you are stronger than me, smarter than me, more resistant than me, and better than me. With determination and survivability, I couldn’t fight back in the game with my own alpha. So I lost my first child and the possibility of happiness. But do you have to admit defeat?”

Shen Dai’s body slightly shook from the realisation.

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Next update: 2022.09.06

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*Translator’s note: -Equality. It is such a simple word. But it is the farthest word in the world between ‘knowing’ and ‘doing’- Hey, y’all… this applies in real life too, no? -K