265 The Fear Of The Proposal

Selma Payne’s POV:

Avril retired in January this year, which was three months ago.

Mara was about to strangle Avril with her gaze. “For three months, you didn’t even say a word to me about your proposal? I feel so sad!”

“I didn’t hide it from you on purpose,” Avril quickly explained. “It’s just that I was very confused back then, so I didn’t agree immediately. I’ve been in a dilemma for the past few months, so I didn’t tell anyone. I finally agreed to Perrin’s request last night.”

I knew that Avril and Perrin had started dating before I went to the Rocky Mountains, but I knew nothing about what they had been through in the past three years, so I asked, “What’s there to be conflicted about?”

“Many things. The meaning of marriage, the responsibilities and obligations it brings, the new stage in life, my age, and the uncertainties of the future.” Avril was a little lonely. It was obvious that she empathized with what she felt then. “To be honest, I had a premonition that Perrin was planning to propose to me. I didn’t do anything and acquiesced to his plan.

“I think I was already looking forward to going one step further with him, but when he took out the ring, I hesitated. I’m just twenty-two years old. Is it good or bad for my future if I get married too early? Perrin and I love each other, but is love the only condition for marriage? After marriage, can I fulfill my responsibility as a good wife? Is Perrin, as a boyfriend, different from Perrin, as a husband? There were too many questions that prevented me from thinking. I almost subconsciously chose to avoid it and started to deal with this relationship coldly.”

Mara thought aloud, “No wonder you’ve been acting weird ever since you left the army. I thought the military life had done some strange things to you.” However, to treat it coldly? To be honest, that’s really a scumbag move.”

Speechless, Avril pushed her away and told her not to interrupt. She then continued, “I didn’t tell anyone about this, including my parents in another city. This is the proposal that I’m looking forward to, but it doesn’t seem to be the proposal that I’m looking forward to. I’m in a dilemma. I avoided contact with Perrin and tried to delay this by not seeing it.

“In the first few days, Perrin didn’t contact me. I thought this was it – our break up. However, what happened after that was a little beyond my expectations.

“When I was upset, I made many low-level mistakes in the handover procedures with the school, so I had to make a trip to the Academic Affairs Office. But then these problems were suddenly solved perfectly. I thought that the teacher suddenly turned over a new leaf, and then I discovered it was Perrin.”

Perrin blushed. Let’s not talk about this,” he said softly. “Anyway, we’re still at the perfect ending, right?”

“Don’t interrupt. Let me finish.” Avril stuffed his mouth with an apple and continued, “I don’t even know myself as well as Perrin. I just filled in the form on the first day of school and forgot much of the information. The few mean teachers in the Academic Affairs Office suffering from menopause also refused to help me open the archive room, which almost made me lose my enrolment. Perring sneaked into the archive room to check the information and was almost caught by the security guard.

“Later, I couldn’t catch up with the classes because I took a break from my studies. Mara is in the Literature Faculty, and I’m in social media studies. We don’t have any courses in common except for public extracurricular classes, so she couldn’t help me with tuition. Fortunately, there were kind-hearted seniors to help me with my homework, so I didn’t end up at the bottom of the grade.

“Later, I found out that Perrin also hired the seniors. For this, he helped them clean the club activity room for a semester.

“There were also Ryan’s bad friends. They came to find trouble with me but disappeared very quickly. That was Perrin too. He beat up those hooligans behind my back, and they never dared to come again.

“This semester was a complete mess. All kinds of unexpected troubles came one after another, making me feel more devastated than when I received the strict training of the guards. Luckily, many people were helping me; Mara, my classmates, and Perrin. He never told me when he was doing all this for me. He didn’t even have to appear before me. I thought we had broken up, but he has supported me silently.

“If I didn’t go to the boxing club to pick up the things I left behind, I wouldn’t have guessed what he was doing behind my back. At that moment, I thought, ‘What’s there to hesitate about?’ There was no difference between getting married at twenty-two and fifty-two. I was confident that I could take on the responsibility of a wife and that Perrin was a good man worthy of trust. All the questions aren’t problems anymore. I shouldn’t continue to avoid it.

“So I agreed. I was covered in sweat, and he was wearing a ridiculous apron. One of the activity room’s lights was broken, flashing like a horror movie. In such a simple and scary environment, we realized that the other party was our fated mate, so don’t worry, don’t hesitate. Love must be our final ending.”

She held Perrin’s hand happily and exchanged a sweet and trusting kiss with our excited cheers.