Chapter 83: A Precious Person

Chapter 83: A Precious Person

“......”

It was dinner time.

Today’s shooting had ended, and as everyone was slowly wrapping things up, I stayed next to Ahn Hyeon-ho, who was sitting on a bench.

He glanced at me with resentful, angry eyes, tried to say something, but eventually just sighed deeply and shook his head.

“It’s all because of you.”

I understand his desire to blame me, but ultimately, the choice was his to make.

“You... man you- you rushed in too fast.”

No matter how much you like Choi Yiseo, you can’t just go confess to her out of the blue.

It wasn’t like a scourge, but seeing him push his face forward, I couldn’t help but quickly avoid the spot.

“You didn’t explain it to me in detail.”

Looking at Ahn Hyeon-ho, who continued to blame me while covering his face, I could only sigh.

It didn’t seem like he truly believed it was his fault, but rather that he just needed someone to place the blame, which felt somewhat pitiful to me.

“Sigh... if you were popular in high school, didn’t you date a lot? Why are you so inexperienced when it comes to it?”

Didn’t those kids just rotate among each other, dating multiple people?

“That was only because the girls came to me.”

“Just go and die already.”

The audacity he had was so absurd that a clicking of the tongue was inevitable at his words.

After all, in middle and high school, looks and strength are prioritized over grades, so someone like Ahn Hyeon-ho would have been considered a top catch.

Imagining the battles among students to win a good-looking guy over just made me feel even more disgusted.

If girls approached him just because he opened his mouth, what was there to study?

“Anyway, are you giving up on Yiseo now? It’s the first time I’ve seen her make such a fierce expression at someone.”

“...How much did you see?”

“I ran away right after seeing you confess. Gore isn’t really my preferred genre.”

Wasn’t it practically an ‘Ahn Hyeon-ho dismemberment’ show?

It was a time when Ahn Hyeon-ho’s limbs were bursting out from here and there, just without the bloodshed.

“I see.”

Ahn Hyeon-ho looked somewhat relieved.

Then, he clenched his fist and answered.

“It’s too early to give up. It’s hard to find a girl like Yiseo.”

“......”

I wanted to agree, but I didn’t. It seemed like it would just create a subtly awkward atmosphere between us.

“What about you?”

“Hm? Me?”

“You’re interested in Yiseo too. That’s why you confessed, and you’re going to try to date her seriously in the second semester, aren’t you?”

“Ah...”

It was difficult to answer.

I had no intention of being a CC, so the chances of developing a romantic relationship with Choi Yiseo were rather slim.

Honestly, I’ve recently felt that those walls are gradually crumbling.

This is probably because as time goes by with memories of Oh Yoon-ji, Seo Yerin and Choi Yiseo kept knocking the wall down...

“I don’t know.”

That was my honest feeling.

It was a topic difficult to share with anyone, but since Ahn Hyeon-ho was not important to me at all, I felt it was somewhat easier to open up.

“Don’t be jealous if I end up dating Yiseo.”

What would my heart feel like then?

Thinking that it needs a cold diagnosis, but as soon as I closed my eyes, the expression Choi Yiseo had when looking at Ahn Hyeon-ho came to mind.

“Will that be okay?”

That was the only answer which came from me.

“Fuck.”

Ahn Hyeon-ho also seems to acknowledge it, heaving a deep sigh as he sweeps his bangs back.

While we were unintentionally having this deep conversation, it seemed like the others had finished packing up and were approaching us from the other side.

“Tsk.”

Choi Yiseo clicked her tongue as she looked at me.

“Huh?”

It was precisely me Ahn Hyeon-ho was looking at, which caught me off guard.

The sight of Choi Yiseo genuinely being annoyed with me was quite precious to see, yet it immediately made me wonder what I had done to wrong her.

“Sorry...”

But unexpectedly.

Hearing Ahn Hyeon-ho’s apology from beside me, I found myself glaring at him without realizing.

“Why are you sorry?”

Seeing Ahn Hyeon-ho trying to sneakily stand up while avoiding my gaze made me feel even more uneasy.

I quickly grab the hem of his clothes, making him sit back down, and ask.

“What are you sorry for, you bastard?”

“That...”

That? what?

“The confession strategy... I told her that you told me about it.”

“Huh?”

“That- at that time, I was so flustered that I thought I had to make up some excuse for what I did...!”

Is he fucking insane?!

“Hey! I just told you that such a method exists, when did I ever say to rush to Choi Yiseo right away and give her an honest deep confession?!”

I immediately started beating Ahn Hyeon-ho with my fist. He seemed really sorry for what he did, and only putting up his hands to not get hurt at all, which made me even angrier.

“Sorry... I really am sorry.”

So now, in Choi Yiseo’s eyes, I am.

“Yes, that’s right.”

It feels like I’m turning into some kind of trash in her eyes. I’m pretty sure I went around firmly nailing down that I wouldn’t do CC.

“But why do you think I’m not saying anything to you?”

“...Be-because you’re not my girlfriend?”

I thought that was the reason.

In fact, Choi Yiseo has said this now.

“There’s that. But that’s not all.”

“Then?”

“Because you’re having a hard time.”

At that moment,

I was at a loss for words.

Choi Yiseo, who was staring straight at me, pressed her lips together as if pausing.

Despite my wish to not have her say any more, she seemed to read my mind and immediately declared,

“You’re struggling with relationships with women because of Yoon-ji. Even if it’s just physical relationships, you’re rejecting emotional connections with women around you.”

Cowardly.

I was a coward.

Understanding and being considerate of such cowardice...

It was the Choi Yiseo standing in front of me.

“Sex? I could do it right now if I wanted to. We could book a hotel! Or go to your room! But I’m deliberately not doing it. Do you know why?”

“......”

“Because! Then it would mean that I’ve won your heart with my body. It would mean I’m forcing you, who is not yet ready, to date me by using that!”

Thump!

Choi Yiseo hit my chest with her fist while tears ran down her cheeks. It was a feeble punch, but it hurt more than anything else I had encountered today.

“I don’t know what Yerin thinks. That girl might see a side of you I haven’t, and approach you differently from me. It’s not a question of who’s right here.”

As Admin, Kim Woojin.

Seo Yerin saw that.

Choi Yiseo and Seo Yerin could be said to be on completely opposite ends of my nature.

If our relationship was arranged in the order of the alphabet.

Choi Yiseo started from A.

And Seo Yerin started from Z.

“Do you not have the right? You don’t have the right to hold on to someone drifting to another man? Who decided on that?”

“That is...”

“I’ll decide for you, hold on to me.”

Clench.

Choi Yiseo was breathing roughly, holding my hand. She was trying hard to suppress the emotions welling up inside her.

“Tell me to stay. And that you can’t go anywhere. In case I tilt towards another man, try to turn my eyes towards you.”

“......”

“Hold on to me, you bastard!”

Choi Yiseo rushes into my arms.

She doesn’t let go, holding me tightly, as if she didn’t want to show her crying face to me.

Looking down at Choi Yiseo.

“I don’t want to love someone.”

A sincere feeling I had never expressed to anyone slipped out from my mouth.

“It hurts so much... Honestly, I still dream about Oh Yoon-ji at times.”

That was the reason I can’t date anyone.

“After she left, I really couldn’t do anything for a while. It was a relief that it was the vacation period.”

Otherwise, I wouldn’t have been able to attend lectures at all.

“Because it hurt so much then, I don’t want to date anyone.”

Choi Yiseo’s sobbing and my trembling voice overlapped.

“That’s my intention, my resolution.”

The woman who seemed like she would be with me forever.

The woman I seriously thought about marrying.

The woman who always smiled brightly and loved me.

In the end, she left first.

That was the reality I faced.

The kind of unchanging love found in dramas or movies didn’t exist.

Oh Yoon-ji left me.

So will Choi Yiseo.

Even though she says this to me now.

There could come a moment when she would want to leave too.

If that happens.

It would probably be really tough then.

I am a coward, a weakling.

“Please, don’t move my heart anymore.”

My two hands, having nowhere to go, carefully embraced Choi Yiseo, who was trembling.

“Please.”

I hugged her gently.

“Don’t become a precious existence to me.”

Despite my plea for her not to enter my life any more deeply,

Choi Yiseo’s hands.

Still did not let go of me.