Chapter 137

I lay on the bed in the hotel, and the sound of water from the bathroom echoed in my ears. The whole person was a little hot and felt uncomfortable. I wanted to take off my clothes and rush in immediately.

There is no doubt about Xia QingHan's charm. Whether it's body or appearance, it makes countless men jealous and countless women jealous. Seriously, it's impossible if I don't have an idea at the moment. I almost feel that my body is going to be suffocated and exploded.

In the past, when I was in Myanmar, I couldn't help touching a lot of women because of he Haoran's supervision. However, every time I had a relationship, I was like a routine perfunctory, not mixed with a trace of emotion, just to deal with he Haoran hastily. However, Xia QingHan was the only exception.

Once we almost broke through the last line of defense many times, but at the critical moment, Xiaoya always appeared in my mind and waved it. Therefore, I also pulled the brake in time to stop myself, but now, I'm really tired. I love Xiaoya too tired. Over the past five years, I uphold the idea that she is my faith and lived hard, but in the end, I can't be with her.

This is undoubtedly the doomsday, which makes me despair, but I don't blame anyone for all this. Xiaoya is innocent. I have the ability to defeat Gu Lichuan and get her, but I have to let go. After all, he Haoran is a terrible devil. If he can't catch me and take Xiaoya to vent his anger, I really don't even have a chance to regret it.

He Haoran's means are too cruel. In his eyes, human life is like the life of livestock. It's cheap. As long as he can achieve his goal, he will not choose all means, which also scares me.

Seriously, I blamed Qi Weihua in my heart. Maybe I couldn't find someone to carry the pot at that time, so I had to be good to Qi Weihua. But now I think, I'm very serious. Qi Weihua has tried his best. He has been fighting against drug dealers in the front line all these years. Many times, he almost lost his life. Such a selfless person met a drug lord of the level of he Haoran, I must hate him to the bone. I'm eager to kill him the first time I catch him.

But there's no way. He Haoran's background is too hard. He forcibly delayed the death penalty for half a month, which gave him a chance to escape from prison.

What I remember most is that Xia QingHan said to me that I seem to have no soul, as if I live for Xiaoya. If Xiaoya abandons me one day, my life will be meaningless.

At that time, I thought this was very shocking, but now it seems that there is really nothing wrong. These days, I feel that my life is dark to the extreme. I want to get out of this emotional setback. However, whenever I think of the picture of Xiaoya and Gu Lichuan together, I can't help but feel heartache and even can't breathe.

Just as I was thinking, the door of the bathroom finally opened. I subconsciously looked at the bathroom, but the next scene almost made me spray nosebleed.

Xia QingHan was wrapped in a bathrobe. Although the woman was so magnanimous as she said before, at the moment, she was shy like a flower girl. She hung her head shyly and didn't dare to look directly into my eyes. There were two blushes on her pretty face that were more beautiful than flowers. Even her plain face was suffocating.

"Hey, have you seen enough?" My hot eyes embarrassed Xia QingHan. She couldn't help being angry.

I hurried back to my mind. I was at a loss. I felt my head awkwardly and said, "no!"

Xia QingHan skimmed his lips, came to the bedside and said mysteriously to me, "do you want to see more?"

I hardly used my mind and blurted out, "of course."

I think that women don't have to take off completely to arouse men's desire. Sometimes, a proper cover can make people feel more impulsive. For example, in front of summer, the bathrobe is half covered, revealing white and flawless skin, which can be broken by blowing, revealing a faint pink and refreshing.

Xia QingHan raised a bad smile and said, "are you ready?" As she spoke, she unbuttoned her bathrobe.

A burst of beauty fragrance came to my face, which made me relaxed and happy. The charming eyes locked me tightly. I was a little shy and didn't know how to deal with it.

How active I was in the past. I can catch any woman and play with me. But now, in front of Xia QingHan, I seem at a loss. Even my heart beats faster. I feel my face is hot and I don't know what to say.

This tempting goblin makes me crazy. I can't wait to put her down immediately.

When Xia QingHan saw my shy appearance, he couldn't help laughing and giggling. He grabbed my chin and said, "it's really rare, Wang Chen. I didn't expect you to be shy?"

"This..." I was a little embarrassed and racked my brains thinking about how to take the initiative.

However, before I finished thinking, Xia QingHan's slender white fingers gently outlined my neck, and then gradually went down and untied the buttons of my shirt one by one: "Why are you incoherent? Are you nervous?"

Xia QingHan smiled badly, which made me even more nervous. My palms couldn't help sweating.

The slender fingers gently drew circles on my chest, which made my heart itch. I felt that I was about to suffocate. However, I could also clearly feel that Xia QingHan was also pretended. Although she seemed to be able to do it easily, her heartbeat was faster than me.

When I was at a loss, Xia QingHan leaned over and kissed my mouth with the enchanting red lips. For a moment, I only felt my head blank and the whole person was immersed in the softness. My mind was buzzing and the whole person was stupid. My body seemed to hold a lot of fire and could not be released.

However, it was this kiss that reminded me of Xiaoya's kiss. On the balcony that night, she kissed my lips like a dragonfly, and my heart suddenly hurt. I tried my best to suppress that emotion, because I knew that it was unfair to Xia QingHan. She must have made a great determination to do so.

"Yes... Sorry..." I suddenly pushed away Xia QingHan, and the whole person was particularly sober. I didn't dare to look directly into Xia QingHan's eyes, lowered my head and said guilt: "QingHan, I'm really sorry, she's all in my mind!"

After that, I really want to slap myself in the face. Why am I so cheap? I have given up Xiaoya, but why do I miss so much? Am I not mentally prepared? Why close your eyes and your mind is full of her figure!

I kept breathing deeply, but my heart was numb with pain.

Xia QingHan looked at me calmly and said, "I knew it was such a result. In the past, you pushed me away so ruthlessly. Didn't you think it would hurt me?"

I didn't speak, biting my lips and avoiding her eyes. I know I'm sorry for her!

Xia QingHan smiled at himself: "you know what? I thank you very much. If I didn't meet you, I wouldn't be Xia QingHan today."

I heard the speech and said seriously, "if you are to thank me for my kindness to you, you don't have to do so. There are actually many ways to repay your kindness."

Xia QingHan shook his head: "at first, I thought so too. I think you just introduced me a lot of contacts, but later I realized that I like you and love you! I'd rather give up everything I have now for you! As long as you can accept me."

I griped my hair in pain and said, "but I... but I'm really frustrated. I closed my eyes and my mind is full of her figure. I can't fall in love with others."

Xia QingHan sighed, "Wang Chen, can you tell me what's worse than her?"

I said with a wry smile, "you are better than her, you are more beautiful than her, and even say that you are almost a perfect person in my heart."

Xia QingHan frowned and said, "then why don't you choose to be with me?"

I bowed my head and said, "but you're not her."

Xia QingHan was silent. She used to think that Xiaoya was better than her, either in appearance, figure or soul. But now she understands that maybe Xiaoya is not as good as her everywhere, but she is not Xiaoya.

On this point alone, she lost completely.

Xia QingHan lay quietly in my chest and said, "but you have to come out. Are you going to be sad all your life? Have you ever thought about her while you are in pain?"

"She must be sad, too," I said firmly

Xia QingHan smiled but didn't speak, and didn't answer.

We fell into a brief silence. After a meeting, Xia QingHan said to me: "you must be under a lot of pressure now? I'm willing to let you vent. Don't worry. I'm very sensible and won't let you be responsible."

I shook my head: "you know who I am. If we really have a relationship, I must be responsible for you. However, I have too many things now. If you follow me, you will be involved. You know, I never like to trouble others."

In the past, even the women he Haoran sent me will give them a lot of money when they are finished. It can be regarded as a transaction or a kind of compensation. After all, it has never been easy for anyone, and Xia QingHan is the same. I know her mind and am willing to shelter me like a big sister. When I am sad, She was even willing to sacrifice her body to let me vent my anger. However, he Haoran seemed to be a mountain pressing on me, which made me out of breath. I couldn't implicate her.

If I have a relationship with Xia QingHan today, ask yourself, I can't get rid of it. I attach great importance to feelings, especially to the people around me. I don't allow them to be wronged. These years, when I'm lonely, Xia QingHan is with me. How can I do anything worthy of her?

Xia QingHan heard the speech, Some say nothing: "I don't know if I should say you're naive or stupid. What's the age? Your mind is still so rigid. Besides, just keep your heart in your stomach. If you really want to be responsible for me, don't worry. Now, you can wait until later. Do you think I've been waiting for you for several years? No big deal, I'll wait for you for a few more years, as long as you don't despise me. When the time comes Old pearl yellow will do. "

This made me very moved. Xia QingHan was like this. He paid for me and never asked for a report. But the more so, the more I felt sorry for her. It was right that I was kind to her. But at the beginning, I cherished talent and felt that she should not only curl up in a small wine bar, but should have a bigger stage. I never thought of any purpose in return.

I said solemnly to Xia QingHan, "but it's really unfair for you. Otherwise, give me some time. I think I can come out of this shadow after a while. It's OK for us to start again at that time."

Walking in the street these days, I think everyone thinks it's Xiaoya. I rushed to others several times and was mistaken for neuropathy. Fortunately, I had hallucinations after drinking for many times. When I saw Xiaoya standing in front of me, and even dreamed, I dreamed that Xiaoya was with me. We were very happy to visit mountains and waters, but when I woke up, I would burst into tears.

In the eyes of outsiders, I am an indomitable Wang Chen, covering the sky with one hand and calling the wind and rain.

However, only I know how fragile my heart is. It breaks when I touch it.

Xia QingHan was about to explode. She pinched my ear and hurt me. Xia QingHan angrily said to me, "Wang Chen, I really don't know what to say about you. Do you know how many men want to climb into my mother's bed? I threw myself into my arms and hugged, and you told me to think about it? You bastard! I have to eat you today!"

With these words, Xia QingHan directly drilled into my arms and twisted. In an instant, an unknown flame was boiling in my heart. My whole body was numb. The smooth and delicate skin was constantly rubbing against my chest, and I felt that I was about to fly.

I stopped and said, "wait."

Xia QingHan shouted: "wait? Wait for what! Shut up and enjoy it. I've seen it tonight. Will you miss her?"

With that, Xia QingHan directly lifted my shirt to both sides, revealing my ferocious and terrible chest. She leaned down and kissed a little until she kissed my abdomen. Xia QingHan's little hand attacked my belt unkindly. I closed my eyes and didn't dare to think much. The whole person was intoxicated and couldn't extricate herself from it.

Soon, the belt was untied, and Xia QingHan slowly took off my pants