Chapter 529

I know, maybe you are still very cruel to me now. Why did I abandon you with Lu Jun and even marry him later.

To tell you the truth, if it was me, I would be as cruel as that person.

If you still hate me in your heart up to now, or I have done great psychological harm to you, I can only say that I'm really sorry. I know that I can't make up for my selfishness by praying for your forgiveness. However, I just want to tell you what I really think.

Frankly speaking, the man I love most in my life is you. The man I always want to marry you is also you. So far, the only man I really love is you. My heart will always be filled with you, the man I love most, the man I love most in my life, Yang Yang.

Maybe I say so, you may think I am a sad woman, a woman who likes to lie, but the fact is that I don't mean to pray for your pity, I just want to tell you what I really think.

Life a lot of times there are many things really helpless, including so cruel to leave you, in fact, I have no way.

Since my father was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer a year ago, I feel that my life suddenly fell into a trough, and the sky suddenly collapsed.

I used to dream that I would like to find a good job like other girls, and then go to the palace of marriage with you, and then show filial piety to both parents. For material, I don't require a car and a house, but only a simple and happy life, so I'm very satisfied.

But when my father got such a terminal cancer, I knew that my life could not be as happy as other normal people.

After being checked out, my father would face surgery later. If he didn't have surgery, his father would only have two or three months of life at most. So I was very afraid and worried at that time. After all, my father had worked so hard all his life and left before he had time to enjoy happiness. I would never be reconciled as a daughter, and that would be forever I feel guilty.

When dad was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer, I tried my best to make myself calm. I didn't want to let such emotions involve you, so I chose to hide. I dare not tell you. I know that this is not a simple number to bear.

Therefore, at that time, I often shed tears alone when I was free, and then sometimes I quarreled with you for no reason, because at that time, even my own heart felt extremely vulnerable and scared, and I didn't know what I should do.

At that time, Lu Jun seemed to see my mind. Then, at a party, he told him what he thought. He said that he liked me and could help me no matter what difficulties I had.

Later, I told him directly that I needed money and 200000 yuan in cash. If he was willing to give it to me, I would marry him.

What I didn't expect was that he suddenly agreed to me, and then launched a crazy pursuit for me. Although I know how sorry I would be for you to do that, in order to save my father's life, at that moment, I can only do that. I can't watch my father die like that.

So, in the end, I can only choose to let go with you. Therefore, from the beginning, the passionate scene in Lu Junna's office can be arranged by me, in order to let you die instantly and not bring you more pain.

In fact, I made such a decision, I can be described as how sad ah, that period of time, my heart was a great suffering, although I know, I do this, not only will hurt you, but also will hurt me, because I know, I do not like Lu Jun, I am with him, everything is a deal.

In order to save my father, I chose to commit suicide at the expense of our happiness. I can only say sorry to you from the bottom of my heart.

No matter what happens in the future, I know that we can't be together again. In this life, we are doomed not to be together again, but in my heart, you will always be the man I love most.

For such a long time, seeing that you now have a woman you like, my heart is really happy for you. I know you like Su Yuqing, and I can see that Su Yuqing has a good feeling for you. I hope you can strive to pursue your own happiness. Finally, I wish you happiness!

Finally, please allow me to call you for the last time, my dear Yang Yang, I love you forever!

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When I saw the end, my face was full of tears. I knew that it was a letter written by Lin Jing with great determination, because no one could imitate her handwriting.

After reading it, I couldn't help crying with this letter. It turned out that I really misunderstood Lin Jing. I really didn't care enough about her. She always loved me. Why didn't I realize it at first?

And I should let her a weak woman to bear so much pain and pressure? Why?……

After that, I took a period of leave from the company and didn't go to work. Because of my physical condition and my state, I didn't feel in the mood to go to work at all.

Therefore, during this period of time, in order to adjust my mood, I went to Songshan temple and lived in Songshan temple for a while.

During my stay in Songshan temple, I learned Taijiquan with Uncle Li every day. It was during this period that my Taijiquan practice reached a high level. In addition to learning Taijiquan with Uncle Li, I dived and cooked in the temple with the little benefactor every day. Although my life was flat, I forgot the worries of the world for a short time.

This quiet day would have been for a while, but after living in Songshan temple for a while, Su Yuqing's sudden visit broke my quiet life.

When I was practicing Taijiquan in the temple that day, suddenly the little benefactor said that someone came to see me. When I looked back, I saw Su Yuqing standing at the door and clapping at the same time. Su Yuqing showed a faint smile.

When I saw her, I immediately stopped my work, and then I was a little surprised and asked, "Yuqing, why are you here?"

Su Yuqing slightly embarrassed smile, said: "how? Can't I come? "

I said, "I didn't mean that. I mean, why did you come here all of a sudden?"

Su Yuqing said with a smile, "I'm not here all of a sudden. I've been here for a long time. It's just that you've been practicing boxing and haven't noticed me!"