Chapter 187 I'm not worthy of you

I'm not worthy of you

Upon entering the house, Ye Zi Xuan heaved a sigh of relief. She had finally reached home after being tormented for an entire night, and she felt that her legs were about to break.

"Sit down first, I'll give you the blanket." After she finished speaking, she did not wait for Ji Hao Chuan's reaction and directly went into the guest room. She first arranged a room for Ji Hao Chuan before taking out a blanket for him.

Looking at her gentle and meticulous side, Ji Hao Chuan felt happiness from the bottom of his heart: "You said that you wanted me to come to your place, I don't need you to take care of me like this."

"You can do it. Look, your fever has not subsided. If it wasn't because you were seriously ill, why would you have gone to the hospital?" Ye Zi Xuan complained twice, but she still personally covered Ji Hao Chuan with the blanket and said: "Lie still, wait for me to pour you a cup of water. Once you've eaten the medicine, go and have a good night's sleep covered with a blanket."

"Good, good, good." At this moment, besides a smile on Ji Hao Chuan's face, he was in love with his.

He had thought about this feeling for a long time. It was a simple and happy life for Ye Zi Xuan and her. If she was sick, she could take good care of herself and the two of them could enjoy the blissful and quiet time together.

But this little thought had been going on for several years now, and there was nothing to be gained from it.

It was not that he didn't know what Ye Zi Xuan was thinking, it was just that he didn't want Ye Zi Xuan to touch her again, and even more so, didn't want her to be injured again.

The night was calm, so she poured a cup of water for Ji Hao Chuan and brought her apron back into the kitchen to make porridge.

In these three years, Ji Hao Chuan had always taken care of her. Although it was just a cooperative relationship, a relationship between a superior and his subordinates, they all understood in their hearts that they were not thinking the same way.

Every time he thought about the feelings Ji Hao Chuan had for him, Ye Zi Xuan felt a headache because he did not know how to accept or reject it.

Just like how from the start, when she was helpless, Ji Hao Chuan had appeared. He was her benefactor.

She was patiently making the porridge in the kitchen. After an unknown amount of time, she didn't even know that someone was standing behind her.

This moment was perhaps the happiest moment for Ji Hao Chuan.

He just stood there and watched as she cooked while looking like a little girl. He felt as if they were already husband and wife.

Suddenly, Ji Hao Chuan's heart moved, and he took two steps forward and hugged the woman who was cooking the porridge.

"Ah, what's wrong with you?" Ye Zi Xuan was startled by the sudden arrival of the pair of hands. As her waist was hugged, she unconsciously took a step back.

Even though she knew it was Ji Hao Chuan, she wanted to struggle free but was afraid of being harmed.

Time seemed to stop at this moment. The porridge in the pot was still bubbling. Other than this silence, only the breathing of two people remained.

Ji Hao Chuan's breathing was very stable, as he gently tilted his face and placed it on Ye Zi Xuan's shoulder. However, Ye Zi Xuan's face was completely red, and had been raising his elbows the entire time, wanting to keep the two people's bodies at a distance.

A warm breath splattered on her shoulder. Suddenly, a gentle voice rang out. "Are you ready?"

They all knew what this meant.

In these past few years, even though Ji Hao Chuan had not said anything, he had always been chasing after Ye Zi Xuan in private.

She thought of all the things that had happened in the past and felt as if her heart had been blocked. After biting her lower lip for a moment, she resolutely said, "I'm sorry. I'm still too far away from you."

These words were like the tip of a needle. Even though the words were simple, the needles were stabbing into Ji Hao Chuan's heart.

His voice was still as gentle as ever, and the corner of his mouth held a smile, "It's fine. I'll wait for you, but in my heart, from the moment I laid eyes on you, I already felt that you were very strong, strong to the point that it made my heart palpitate. I've already waited for three years, so wait a few more years, and I won't be afraid of you."

He did not want to force the person he loved to marry him. He only wanted her to completely accept him and marry him willingly. Otherwise, he wouldn't have waited so many years.

These words immediately filled up a layer of hot air in the small kitchen, suffocating Ye Zi Xuan so much that she couldn't breathe.

It would be a lie if she said she wasn't moved, but what happened three years ago was like a huge rock that had always been pressed against her heart. Facing such a single emotion from Ji Hao Chuan, she still felt that he was too dirty, and simply did not deserve his deep love.

Thus, some emotions had to be suppressed.

After being silent for a long while, Ye Zi Xuan took a deep breath. With great difficulty, a smile appeared on her face, and she pushed Ji Hao Chuan out of the room. "You're still sick, hurry and go lie down.

She cooked beef porridge for Ji Hao Chuan, sprinkled some cilantro on top and carried two bowls out, one for each of them.

She walked into the living room and looked at Ji Hao Chuan's smiling face. She mustered her courage to appear even more calm and said with a smile, "Come, I've been tormenting you for an entire night. I'm hungry too. Your favorite beef porridge."

"Thank you. Your porridge is the best to taste." Ji Hao Chuan's face was filled with satisfaction. After tasting a mouthful, he nodded his head in approval, and suddenly asked: "I also forgot to ask you, why are you going to the hospital tonight? Is there something wrong? "

"Ah?" I... Me. " Ye Zi Xuan stuttered a little, not knowing what to say. She knew that if it was because of Huo Jing Yan's son, then it was because of sprinkling a handful of salt into Ji Hao Chuan's heart. She was conflicted for a few seconds before she smiled and said: "I got a little cold, so I took an injection."

What she said sounded like a lie, but Ji Hao Chuan didn't pursue it, and only smiled: "Quickly drink, finish the porridge and rest early."

"En, remember to eat some medicine after you finish eating the congee. This way, you'll be able to sleep more soundly."

They cared for each other, but they could not get together.

They had lived together for so many years, everyone knew who had what sort of personality, and they all knew that he didn't want to make things difficult for Ye Zi Xuan, nor did he want to make her unhappy.

After drinking the porridge, both of their bodies felt warm. Ye Zi Xuan put everything into the washbasin and waited for the worker to come tomorrow to clean up.

Two rooms, two beds, yet both of them were not in the mood to sleep. After working so hard for so long, Ji Hao Chuan still failed to fall asleep, his head aching so much that he couldn't fall asleep.

And for Ye Zi Xuan, other than Ji Hao Chuan, the reason was more because of him.

These two men, one was unworthy of her, the other was unworthy. They both occupied a large part of her heart, but she didn't know where her love lay.

She thought that she needed to suppress her feelings for Ji Hao Chuan, but after thinking about it carefully, she realized that there was no love between a man and a woman for Ji Hao Chuan at all.

After tossing and turning in the bed, there was still no answer to a question.