CH 56

Villainous Poor Student (21)

She had actually had such thoughts about her since high school?

Song Xu Yi stared blankly into He Siyu’s eyes and felt like her brain had been bombarded by something “buzzing”, because the shock was so great that all that was left in her mind was a blast.

“But… wasn’t there someone you liked back in high school?”

Song Xu Yi remembered the object of He Siyu’s heart back then…

“There is no one else but you.” The coldness at the bottom of He Siyu’s eyes didn’t diminish at all as she looked at Song Xu Yi without blinking: “I gave you a chance at that time, you were the one who took the initiative to lean over and said you would stay with me for the rest of your life…”

Song Xu Yi was speechless.

Song Xu Yi knew that He Siyu’s words were a bit unreasonable and illogical, yet… He Siyu was too beautiful to be looked at with tears in her eyes, and Song Xu Yi found that she couldn’t even think of arguing with He Siyu.

“You, you don’t have to cry first.”

Song Xu Yi stammered and turned her head away, biting her lower lip: “I’ll think about it…”

She didn’t dare meet He Siyu’s eyes as she looked over, and for a moment, He Siyu felt like a scumbag who had hurt a young girl’s heart.

However, He Siyu was as good as ever at coaxing.

She gave Song Xu Yi a deep look and without another word turned her head back to her laptop…

There was no rebuttal, nor was there any crying.

This made Song Xu Yi’s heart feel more complicated:

If He Siyu had shouted at her, her feelings might not have been so complicated, but with He Siyu being this compliant, Song Xu Yi felt more sympathy for her…

The next day Song Xu Yi was discharged from the hospital.

He Siyu had already found Song Xu Yi and there was no reason to stay in the province. After taking the time to check some of the branch’s routine work, Song Xu Yi took a flight back to the capital with He Siyu in the afternoon.

It is probably because of the habits of these years that even though the window paper was broken, getting along with He Siyu was not as awkward as Song Xu Yi thought it would be.

Even though He Siyu seemed to be a little less talkative, she was by nature a woman of few words, and Song Xu Yi was a little confused at the end of the day as to whether she was in a cold war with her or not…

The state of affairs between the two of them did not seem very much like a cold war.

When she returned to the hotel, He Siyu had already helped Song Xu Yi pack her luggage, her clothes were neatly folded, and the quilt was also neatly folded in the room where she checked out, but Song Xu Yi, remembering the several sets of cute style underwear in her suitcase and remembering the dreams He Siyu had said, inexplicably blushed.

When she got into the taxi, He Siyu naturally sat in the back seat with Song Xu Yi.

On the plane, Song Xu Yi was a little dizzy because her body had just recovered, so He Siyu covered Song Xu Yi with a blanket, pursed her lips and gestured with her eyes for Song Xu Yi to rest on her shoulder.

But Song Xu Yi didn’t notice her intention at first, and stared at her with wide eyes, but He Siyu finally reached out her hand and pressed Song Xu Yi’s head against her shoulder impatiently.

Song Xu Yi was a little embarrassed at first, and closed her eyes to pretend to take a nap, however, she was really too accustomed to He Siyu’s scent, and Song Xu Yi didn’t know when she actually fell asleep.

She only remembered that a thought suddenly crossed her mind when she was in a daze: this state of affairs between the two of them really seemed a bit like an old married couple who were having a falling out…

The two of them then returned to the house that He Siyu had rented near the University of Finance and Economics.

Everything seemed to be the same as before.

Song Xu Yi was still very busy every day and occasionally went out on business trips. After He Siyu accepted Song Xu Yi’s investment, the company started to get on track and also started to become extremely busy.

But Song Xu Yi found that every day, no matter how late it was, He Siyu would insist on going home to bed.

And once she found out that Song Xu Yi’s luggage was at home, when she woke up the next morning, Song Xu Yi would often see the back of He Siyu making breakfast for her.

The two of them tacitly did not mention the kiss that night, as if it was all just a drunken dream.

But everything was still a little different.

For example, He Siyu spoke very little when faced with Song Xu Yi, and Song Xu Yi no longer accepted He Siyu’s dedication to her heart and began to think about making things less difficult for He Siyu…

This was the case for two months.

When the final exams were about to come, Song Xu Yi came back to the house near the school to prepare for the exams.

“Siyu, I’m already grown up and have the ability to live independently, you really need to stop taking care of me like this…”

After waking up in the morning and finding He Siyu already in the kitchen making breakfast for her, Song Xu Yi couldn’t help but decide to have a proper talk with He Siyu.

The day before when Song Xu Yi came back, it was already after 2 at night and He Siyu hadn’t come back then, now it was only 6:30 in the morning and He Siyu had gotten up to make breakfast for her, He Siyu had only slept for 4 hours at most, so how could her body bear it?

“So, now I can’t even take care of you?”

Song Xu Yi did not expect that her words once again seemed to have hurt He Siyu.

“Don’t think too much about it,” He Siyu glanced at Song Xu Yi, seeing Song Xu Yi’s wide eyes, she dropped her head, a sad smile on her lips, “Just think of it as me going to all the trouble to please you! Who made you my investor?”

It must be said that He Siyu has taken Song Xu Yi’s heart very well.

The last thing Song Xu Yi wanted to see was He Siyu looking so dejected.

Whenever such a look appeared on He Siyu’s beautiful face, Song Xu Yi would even want to give her her whole heart as long as she showed a smile in return.

“I don’t mean that,” Song Xu Yi’s heart felt a pang of pain and she hurriedly spoke up to explain, “I just don’t want you to work so hard…”

“Siyu, don’t be sad. If you want, things will remain the same between us as before, okay?”

“So that’s the answer you came up with after two months of thinking?”

However, these words did not pacify He Siyu. He Siyu pursed her lips, turned off the fire of the gas stove and turned around: “Xu Yi——”

“Then tell me, what is the same as before that you are talking about?”

He Siyu’s voice was calm, but her tone had a hint of aggression, “Can I hug you, hold hands with you, kiss you the same way I did that night?”

He Siyu’s eyes were dull and burning, which once again reminded Song Xu Yi of that night in her memory that she wanted to forget.

That night, He Siyu seemed to be looking at her the same way…

When she thought of those hot and fiery kisses, Song Xu Yi flinched, not daring to meet He Siyu’s eyes at this moment, and involuntarily took a step back.

“Look, Xu Yi, you don’t even dare to look at me now, how are you going to go back to the old days with me again…”

Yet this action seemed to hurt He Siyu once again.

He Siyu looked at Song Xu Yi’s appearance, her eyes grew darker, the fingers placed at her side twitched, but did not make any movement, only lowering her eyes, the smile at the corner of her mouth looked more miserable.

“I can’t let you go, Xu Yi. I know I don’t deserve you. If it wasn’t for you, I might have spent my life in the deep mountains facing the yellow earth, and it’s not even certain that I would have survived to this day, and it was my wolf’s ambition to covet you. I’m sorry…”

“But I really can’t control my feelings, every time I do something for you I feel overwhelmingly happy. I can go along with you and cover my ears and pretend that nothing is going on, but can you not be so cruel as to deprive me of even my last happiness?”

……

Once again, He Siyu’s voice took on a husky tone.

She…wouldn’t be crying, would she?

Song Xu Yi’s heart struggled.

She didn’t know why things had turned out this way, and couldn’t help but quietly glance back at He Siyu.

He Siyu was not crying, yet she seemed more upset than crying, her sadness and despair visible to the naked eye.

The city was slowly waking up, yet Song Xu Yi felt as if He Siyu was falling into eternal darkness. She was dressed in a loose fitting house dress, unadorned but stunningly beautiful, her house dress could not hide her curvy figure, her neck hanging low, white and long like a swan, her whole body looked fragile and downtrodden, like a rose trembling on a branch that could be broken with a single reach…

The image that Song Xu Yi had of He Siyu was beautiful and outstanding, the one who was born to be the center of attention in the crowd, but she never thought that He Siyu would show such a weak and depressed look, let alone that she was the culprit for making her look like this.

Did she like her that much?

Song Xu Yi looked at the sad He Siyu, her heart flushed with unprecedented confusion and sympathy.

The system looked at Song Xu Yi, whose eyes were torn, and alarm bells went off in its heart, exclaiming, “Xu Yi, calm down! You can’t fall in love…”

However, just a moment before the system opened its mouth, He Siyu, who had been keeping her head down, seemed to notice Song Xu Yi’s gaze and inclined her head.

In the early morning light, Song Xu Yi saw the blotchy red ends of He Siyu’s eyes and the watery look in them…

——She was crying after all!

There were countless thoughts swirling around in her head, about the system’s confusion, about the possible future separation… but all her worries came to an abrupt end when she saw He Siyu wipe her tears.

Her heart felt like it was being clutched by something, and Song Xu Yi was left with nothing but heartache, and her voice couldn’t help but take on a crying tone when she replied to the system.

“I’m sorry, I just couldn’t bear it! She’s too beautiful, I can’t bear to see her shed tears…”

Even if in the future they will part and forget, so what?

Grasping the present is the most important thing.

Seemingly afraid that the system would interfere with her and regret it, Song Xu Yi shut the agitated system out of the small black room after she finished speaking——

That day was a day that He Siyu could not forget for a long time.

She hadn’t lost her senses that night and had kissed Song Xu Yi in a desperate attempt to be the first to mark Song Xu Yi’s heart… she was too afraid that Song Xu Yi would be snatched away by someone else…

However, Song Xu Yi did not push her away.

This gave He Siyu hope.

For a long time, she had pretended to be good and progressive, but inside she was dry and dark, and Song Xu Yi was the only light that came through the shackles. She knew that Song Xu Yi was slow to respond to emotions and was ready to wait for a long time, and she also understood that Song Xu Yi might not be able to return the same feelings to her for the rest of her life.

The reason why she deliberately showed weakness and shed tears in front of Song Xu Yi was because she knew that Song Xu Yi could not bear her own tears and wanted to make Song Xu Yi feel more sorry for herself.

——She knew that she was being extremely selfish, but she couldn’t help herself: she was a beggar begging for affection, hoping for any affection, whether pity or compassion, from Song Xu Yi so that she could feel that Song Xu Yi also cared for her…

However this day, her dim world was sprinkled with heavenly light, and she heard the most beautiful voice in the world.

The little girl who had laid her heart on the line, her cheeks flushed, her soft white fingers gently tugging at her sleeve, her eyes shy but not avoiding her sight——

The young girl bit her lower lip and spoke softly.

“Siyu, I’ve never liked a person, nor do I have any intention of liking one.”

“But if that person is you, perhaps, we can try…”