"If my parents knew, they would definitely kill me..."
"That's all! Their family only recognizes boys, and I can't help it..."
"The company will send me abroad soon. How can I get pregnant at this moment?"
"...Yes, I don't want to have a baby too early..."
"I don't want to lower the quality of life because of having children..."
...
All kinds of voices, all kinds of reasons, Tangtang couldn't listen to it anymore, she couldn't face them at all!
Turning around and wanting to go, I was caught off guard to see the oncoming woman, her face was bleak, she was holding a metal vessel with a piece of blood inside...
It seemed that something pierced the forehead and buzzed!
Tangtang closed his eyes and sprinted out!
She panicked and walked down the stairs very fast, her nerves tense, as if she was terrified!
When I was about to run to the door, I finally couldn't help it anymore, holding the goal post and retching in pain!
Not because of pregnancy, but because of pain, nausea, and unbearable nausea. I just want to vomit all the bad breath away!
A nurse supported her with concern and asked, "Are you okay?"
The smell of disinfectant on the opponent's body once again irritated Tangtang. She pushed the nurse away and ran out uncomfortably until she ran to the holly in the green belt, breathing hard, and gradually calmed down.
Her head was still buzzing, and the whole person was a little dizzy. She sat down next to the flower bed, looking down and seeing her hands trembling, her heart was full of chaos.
why?
There was a voice in my mind repeatedly asking: Why don't you want me?
...
After Tangtang returned home, he went to the study alone and began to copy the scriptures without saying a word.
Gu Liang didn't know what was wrong with her. He felt that her condition was not right, so he didn't ask why.
She was trembling all the time, and the scriptures were copied in a mess, once, twice, three times...Finger slowly calmed down.
...Stop shaking.
She let out a breath, put the pen down, sat quietly, and closed her eyes.
In fact, it doesn't matter to her whether she wants a child or not, but once she brings her own experience, she feels it has become her own business, her own suffering, and her own demon.
She read the scriptures she had copied down, feeling much calmer, and she was relieved and left the study to find Gu Liang.
She was still tired and crooked, she still looked like acting like a baby, Gu Liang didn't ask any more when she saw her regaining her spirit.
But at night, she fell asleep, trapped in the nightmare and cried and screamed, and when Gu Liang woke her up, she looked blank and did not remember that she had just had a nightmare.
After doing this for several days, Gu Liang finally couldn't sit still.
He couldn't find Old Ghost Huang, so he called Du Hao and asked what was going on.
Du Hao said: "It should be frightened. After a few days, it will gradually get better. In the old days, the ghost refiner would make the little ghost feel heavier in order to make it feel the state of his death and repeat the death. After a hundred times and thousands of deaths, the pain will be deeply ingrained. However, if you don’t touch children and pregnant women, it’s actually fine.
Tangtang's reaction to children, especially infants, is indeed much more extreme than ordinary people.
Gu Liang still remembered that after she was taken to the hospital, she would have nightmares every night, sometimes calling "Mom" and sometimes asking "Why don't you want me", but after waking up, she didn't notice anything, and she still laughed naively and without sorrow.
Now, again...
He sighed deeply in his heart, really shouldn't take her to the hospital...
"Can I just wait for her to get better?" Gu Liang asked, "There is no other way?"
Du Hao hesitated for a moment, and said, "If there is the ashes of her destiny, she can be used to calm the mind and soul, but..."
However, Tangtang's ashes have already been made into a dagger.
And the whereabouts of the dagger is currently unknown.
Gu Liang thought for a while, got up and opened the safe in the study, took out a jet-black dagger, and gently placed it in front of Du Hao——
"Use this."