CH 9

Let’s drink, but don’t get drunk.



My goal was to never get drunk because I can’t remember having sex while drunk.



It would be a pity if I had no recollection of having sex with the dominant Alpha, who also has such a beastly body



I usually drank quite a lot, but I had to be careful since I had a cold and was on a heat inhibitor.



“So, when is your mother coming?”



“She’s coming next year”



“How come even her son doesn’t know the exact date.”



“It seems she herself doesn’t know.”



“Hahaha, what’s that… so funny. So, when is your mother coming?”



“…”



I wasn’t very drunk thanks to my hard self-control. Except for a little twisted tongue, I talk very rationally. Choi Sung-hoon poured wine into my glass to stop talking about his mother.



What wine was that? Was it bourbon? Was it makgeolli?



“It seems you really like salmon. Is it to your liking?”



“Yeah,”



I’m not sure what kind of wine this was, but it goes so well with the creamy, salty salmon dish that I eat three plates of it.



“Uh oh… It’s so good.”



I praised, ‘This salmon dish is very good.’



Choi Sung-hoon chuckled slightly before turning his head to the side and returning with a stern expression.



He poured a glass of wine for me. I raised the glass, gave it a quick toast, and then drank it all at once.



I never imagined the day would come when we would sit face to face and drink in such an atmospheric setting when I first met this man. I gave Choi Sung-hoon a glance.



Unlike me, who had a loose posture with messy hair, he was still sitting in an upright position in a perfect suit. 



A sharp nose, a hard jaw, and a scar across the cheek. 



His appearance was unlikely to have changed in the meantime, but why does he look more and more handsome? Was it because I fall in love quickly?



I wonder what it would feel like to have a lover like this.



People will look at me whenever I go on a date, right?  I’m afraid I’ll die of stomachache as a result of the others’ envy. I’d go to the club every day and brag about it. I have to show it to my Hyung’s friends and the landlord grandfather. If my uncle asks me to meet up again, I can confidently say that I have such a scary lover.



How hot will it be at night or how big will it be?



I sipped a glass of wine. It was a burning sensation that reached all the way to the top of the head.



Choi Sung-hoon immediately tried to pour wine into my empty glass. I shook my head.



“It’s not the time to just drink…” 



“Then what time is it?” 



“Uh, let’s do this…”



I pretended to be shy as I glanced up at him. “Do you have a boyfriend?”



I asked whether he had a boyfriend because it’s a necessary question to ask before having sex. I don’t want to repeat the experience I had with the section chief.



“Boyfriend?”



“Yes. Or girlfriend…fiance?”



“No, I don’t have any.”



He responded quickly and refilled my glass with wine. The prescription was a little higher than I expected, but that’s fine. I’m keeping a decent level of self-control.



“Why not…”



He grinned as he sipped his wine.



There seemed to be none. I checked everything beforehand and there was no evidence of a ring on his fingers.



“Is that secretary married?”



“…Who are you talking about?”



“You know, there’s a gray-haired and dignified secretary… who was also standing in front of the room today as well.”



“Secretary Kim met his grandchild lately.”



His previously pleasant voice seemed to turn colder for some reason.



“As expected, it’s like that.“



“Why are you curious about whether Secretary Kim is married?”



Choi Sung-hoon asked in a very cold and low voice.



“Just because he is an Alpha?”



That’s right. That secretary was an Alpha. An incredibly passionate omega like myself has an instinct to survive, and I can tell just by looking at them since I have a sharp Alpha radar. I’m not sure if he was passionate or not, but he was Alpha and an elderly gentleman whom I liked. He was perfect for marriage.



“Alpha…”



Choi Sung-hoon muttered quietly.



Ah… did I say something wrong? It seems that he mistook me for a Beta. He might have been dumbfounded when he discovered that Beta, who can’t smell the alpha and omega pheromones to find out that the secretary was an alpha.



But, if he knew I was Omega now, wouldn’t he want to sleep with me even more?



I’m starting to wonder if I now smell like the soaked rose in the rain.



I’m curious about the scent of Choi Sung-hoon’s pheromone. I wish I hadn’t caught a cold.



“Then Seo-yu ssi, do you have a lover?”



“No… I don’t have a lover.”



“That’s unexpected.”



“It’s been so long… I think my love hormones are going to die like this.”



“How long has it been?”



I counted the days since I’ve been single with my fingers.



I broke up with Park Jin-cheol before my brother’s death anniversary… So…



“Wow, it’s already been 20 days. I’m going to get mold on my ass like this. How did I stay single for three weeks. This is crazy.”



Suddenly, sadness came.



How was it possible that no one has dated me for more than 20 days?



There were so many lovers who kissed in public today, hugging even though it was not very cold, and dressed in couple clothes.



I drank all of the wine at once. My esophagus felt like it was burning. Still, it wasn’t enough, so I took Choi Seong-hoon’s glass and drank it. When I did that, Choi Sung-hoon remained silent.



I groaned and fell on the table.



“I’m the only one who doesn’t have a boyfriend. Everyone has a boyfriend, but I don’t have a boyfriend…”



“…”



“It’s really too much, if there are 7 billion people in the world, at least one of them can date me. It’s not like I want the best Alpha… I’m not going to cling to you for the rest of my life like an idiot. I’m going to be really nice to you while we’re dating, and I’m quite good at turning my back and sucking it.”



I fell on my stomach and squealed. I wanted to say that I was good at turning my back, but I held back because I was afraid of being too open in my seduction. There was also a word at the tip of my tongue about how good I would suck it, but I didn’t say it because I was afraid it wouldn’t work if I sounded too cheap.



“Sigh…”



I heard a sigh above my head.



I buried my face in my arm and mumbled a few more times. I kept closing my eyes whether I was getting drunk or sleepy.



“Seo-yu ssi…”



Choi Sung-hoon called my name and said something, but I couldn’t hear it well. You have to speak loudly so that I can hear you.



“…Wake up…”



I felt a hand shaking me slightly. I felt so much better when the hard palm of his hand touched my shoulder. After all, people have to live with each other’s touch and must have a lover. 



But I don’t have a lover, I don’t have a family. 



Only me. 



“I don’t have a lover…I have everything but I don’t…” 



I lamented as I cuddled on his palm. 



I felt like I heard low laughter. 



I’m maintaining my rationality right now, but I was sure I’d get drunk if I drank more wine, so I reached the table and drank water. It was water that tasted like alcohol.



“Are you all right? You already drunk…”



“… Moreeeeeeeee… “



I just replied that it was okay. How shameful it would be to say that I ate twenty-seven salmon and was drunk after only a few glasses of wine.



I know exactly how much I can drink while remaining in control. I hate people who are drunk and flirtatious. Of course, no matter how hard I try, I occasionally get drunk, but I only stumble a little and do not lose control of my body.



I’m a little disappointed in myself because I’m such a good self-manager. It would be easier for me and Choi Sung-hoon to develop a relationship if I pretend to be drunk.



“…I’ll go up to the room…”



Choi Sung-hoon said something in a low voice, but I couldn’t hear him well. I feel so sleepy right now. It’s all because of the cold. People have to sleep when they are sleepy, so I lay face down on the table and buried my head in my arms.



I felt a hand shaking me, but it had to be an illusion. Who was going to wake me up? I don’t have a family and a lover. Then I realized it had to be Choi Sung-hoon who was waking me up, but I had a cold and needed to sleep when I was sick, so I continued to sleep.



I felt my body being lifted while I was sleeping. I also heard a loud noise. “Director, Director, we will take care of him.”



I felt nauseous as if I were getting motion sickness.



“Uuub…”



I got nauseous. I paused for a moment and grabbed the hand that was firmly supporting me.



“Uub… Blergh!”



And then, the noisy surroundings became quiet in an instant.



It was so quiet that I couldn’t even hear someone’s breath. I don’t want it to be quiet… I want people to keep talking…



“…Just kill-…!”



“Hold on!”



Fortunately, it soon became noisy again. I thought it was a good thing and smiled mischievously.



“There are so many…”



It sounded like a tongue-clicking sound, and then something touched my lips. Tissue? It was made of a soft material, similar to a handkerchief, and it was damp from being soaked in water.



The gentle and warm rub on the lips was very soothing. The dampness dissipated as it continued to touch my lips, and I felt that my body was being lifted once more.



“Director, I…”



“Clean up here.”



I felt like I was lying on a big rock. It was a moving rock. I thought, ‘Who carried me on their back?’ but it probably no one.



I don’t have a lover, and my father and brother, who could carry me on their backs, both died a long time ago.



“I’m the only one who doesn’t have…”



Another low laughter was heard.



“Everyone has it, but I am not.”



“… I’m dying of sadness.”



A laughing voice answered. 



I lamented my condition by rubbing my cheeks against the rock.



I’m so sad that I’m going to die. Everyone has it, but I’m the only one who doesn’t have it. I’m the only one…



“I’m the only one who doesn’t have a family…”



“…”



The movement seemed to have stopped. However, I didn’t stop complaining.



The high school kid has an older brother and even the psycho man has a father and mother as well.



Everyone has a family, but I’m the only one who doesn’t.



I’m the only one who doesn’t have it…