Chapter 136: Morning Prayer
Im on my knees in a rare act of prayer. My eyes are closed, and my hands are joined.
Sometimes it's important to stop. The past events have gone over me like a [Tsunami]: the Princess sorry, Princesses and the change I'm undergoing.
After all that happened, I ask myself, are you still you, Joey Luciani?
What happens if you lose yourself? What happens in the crazy race for power when shit really goes down? Will I go mad? Will I become an empty shell, dominated by fear and impulsiveness?
And if one day I'll be too deep into it, too late to go back, what shall I do?
I wonder, Mom if you are watching me. I wonder if you are up there somewhere, looking at your son. I know you wanted me to take responsibility, Mom. And I know it's too late, but if you were right about the whole Heaven thing, Im sure that's where you went.
I met a lot of wonderful people here. Some are a bit crazy. And I say that in a derogative way, obviously. I met a woman who tricked me I'll not say what names you would call her. But even then, I think Id learned something. And I had my fair share of fun.
Now, though, Mom, things are moving faster than ever for me. I promised I would save two continents from war. That sounds ridiculous, doesnt it? But it also sounds like something I would be saying.
And speaking of Laura, shes your actual daughter-in-law-to-be. I am extremely confused by this development. I proposed getting married as I propose all absurd things in the world, right? But she actually accepted. I mean, I do have to go through a deadly set of duels with the best [Mages] in the academy. But she accepted! How crazy is that?
I wonder if you would have passed your ring to her, you know? You always said that you would do that once I settled down with a nice girl. I mean, Laura is pretty racist; you would have liked that. Dont get angry, please. If you do, dont start swearing in Italian, Mom. Im sure your company in Heaven wouldnt like that. Is she the right one, Mom? I would have really appreciated some feedback here. She confuses me a lot. She seems the most despicable person at first, but then she worries about me. Is it a ruse? I dont think so. I could ask Lord Juler or Stan. But I want to do it on my own. This time, Ill be careful around her. Ill make reasonably sure its not going to blow up in my face. Just I dont know. Give me your blessing. Make a shooting star go off or something. I mean, Im in my room. Do something. Maybe make my bed? You know how I am. Always lazy.
Mom
I dont know. I wouldnt have minded bringing you here. We talked so much about taking a long vacation in Italy together, but we never did, did we? We would have had a good time here. I mean, as long as you wouldnt have dated any stupid Elves, Mom.
We never got to visit the archaeological sites in Sicily that youd always raved about. All the ruins from the Ancient Greek era and that stuff. I would have loved to sit in the Syracuse theatre with you. We could have watched some stupid tragicomedy together, you know?
Yeah, thats it.
I just hope you were proud of me.
If not, I beg you, watch me do it right this time.
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