Chapter 963

"If you can feel it, it means you can control it." Luo lie said that he was a little excited. Since he arrived here, Shi Xiaonian opened his heart to him for the first time. This is a good thing.

Is it because Gong Ou is here? Sure enough, the crux of all this is Gong ou.

"But I need to look like a normal person, at least for two days." Shi Xiaonian said that what his eyes revealed was his extremely persistent eyes.

“Why？” Luo lie said, "for a long time, I've seen baby in your stomach, so I never suggest you take medicine. If you use it, what will you do once there is any consequence?"

The baby is so fragile that everyone wants the best for the baby.

Smell speech, when the small read eyes gradually dim down, low eyes to see his bulge stomach, the hand holding down the corner of the clothes, hand a little bit pinch tight, give oneself enough courage, "if I say, I'm not ready to have this child?"

"What?"

Lori stares at her in shock, unbelievable.

"When my adoptive mother died, I decided that I would not want this child." When small read a word a word out of the mouth, said extremely difficult, each word is like biting their own flesh.

Min Qiujun's death is the last straw to crush Shi Xiaonian's spirit. Since then, she has made this decision.

She doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore.

"Now you say no? You can only induce labor now. Do you know how much harm induced labor does to pregnant women? " Lori could not understand her thought, "this child is a life, you have to selfishly decide his fate?"

“……”

Shixiaonian bowed his head and didn't speak.

Yes, it's selfish not to have children. She's very selfish.

Looking at her, Lori eased down, pulled a swivel chair and pushed it to the window. "Mrs. Gong, since you are willing to talk to me, I think we should have a good chat."

"Gong Ou is waiting for me downstairs. I'll take the medicine and leave."

Shi Xiaonian said that she was afraid that she could not control herself and face gongou, which made gongou suspicious and uneasy when she left. At that time, her efficiency would be poor.

It's about his future, his life.

"After talking with me, if you can move me, I'll let you down." Luo lie went to the window, raised his hand, opened the curtain, let a large amount of sunlight cast in, is falling on the swivel chair, very bright, "sit down."

Shixiaonian raised his eyes and looked at him. He had no choice but to walk forward. He stepped forward step by step and gradually stepped into the sunshine.

The sun shone a faint light on her.

She sat down in the swivel chair, and Lori leaned against the window, in a doctor's manner, with the gray curtains floating gently on one side. He said, "come on, convince me."

"I don't deserve to be a mother." Shi Xiaonian sat on the swivel chair, like a believer who was admonished by God, and said his sins, "because of my wrong decision, Xiaokui suffered from the sequelae of gunshot fear, and holly hurt people at a young age, leaving him a shadow that can't be removed all his life. I can't even take care of my two children now. How can I take care of this one in my stomach?"

Once upon a time, she thought that the baby in her belly would be full of happiness, so she insisted that even Gong ou could not resist her.

Only now did she realize that if it would make the child unhappy, it must be her.

"You go on."

Lori decided to listen to her explanation before expressing her opinion.

When Xiaonian sat on the swivel chair, her whole body fell in the sun, as if the whole body of darkness were shining brightly, her hand once again clasped, whispered, "I killed a lot of people, if I don't fall into the trap, those people will not die; if I can accurately predict the consequences of each decision, my adoptive mother will not die."

Just like a student doing a question, she carefully read every question, but in the end she can only choose the wrong answer.

And this paper has no chance to start all over again.

"This is a typical self negation. You think all the negatives are caused by yourself, but think about it again." Luo lie leaned against the window and began to say, "first, your adoptive mother has long had the heart to seek death, and she will commit suicide whether you go or not. Second, many people died in the hill incident, but it is Mr. Gong who planned all this. In other words, he is the culprit."

"But he did it for me." Shi Xiaonian said clearly, "if he doesn't understand me and my human shortcomings, he won't plan such things; if I'm smart and strong enough to reassure him, he won't plan."

“……”

Lori was speechless. She thought so.

The long silence made Shi Xiaonian raise her head. She looked at his face and asked, "Dr. Luo, is my logic wrong?"

"I..."

Lori wanted to argue, but there was no language. He felt that her words were full of problems, but he couldn't find a refutation for a moment.

She was trapped by this logic."That's right, isn't it? I've been thinking about it for a long time. No matter what I think, it's my problem. " Shixiaonian said bitterly, "instead of this, I might as well do something absolutely. The baby is in my stomach, and he doesn't realize it. He doesn't have to come to this world like Xiaokui and they are implicated by me."

Children should be the most carefree in the world, but what are their children experiencing?

"Mrs. Gong." Luo lie's head ached. "If you lose your child, Mr. Gong will also be hurt. I don't think you want him to be sad."

"It can be said to be an accident, so that the damage can be minimized."

Shi Xiaonian said.

She even thought about it. It seems that she has not been thinking about abortion for one or two days.

Lori looked at her, her whole body bathed in the sun, appears particularly weak, her soft lips gently move, "you give me the medicine, Dr. Luo."

If you slow down, I'm afraid Gong Ou is going to find her. He's an acute man, but he can't wait for her too long.

"Mrs. Gong, children need to be taken care of and protected by their parents. If you think you are incompetent, there is Mr. Gong, isn't there?" Lori said, "I can see that you love Mr. Gong and admire him to some extent. You should believe him."

Hearing this, Xiao Nian's eyes were more gray and her lips were pursed.

"Mrs. Gong..."

"Gong Ou has paranoid personality disorder. Although he has improved a lot over the years, he is still paranoid and crazy in many things." Shi Xiaonian said in a low voice, "I thought that adults should not involve their children in any way, but Gong Ou would not think so. He is too paranoid of me."

“……”

"In the hill incident, he could completely avoid putting two children in danger, but he was worried that I would do stupid things after I was captured, so he would rather arrange two young children to accompany me, let me worry, let me have the will to survive." When small read low eyes said, voice more bitter, "I am not a good mother, he is not a hundred percent of the father."

“……”

"Dr. law, I don't want to feel indebted to my children any more." Shi Xiaonian said, raised his eyes and asked to look at him, "give me some medicine, let me calm down, at least I can't let Gong Ou who dares to make crazy choices for me leave in worry."

If so, who knows what gongou will do?

Luo lie wanted to persuade her, but somehow she seemed to be moved, she is mentally unstable, but the situation is not as bad as he imagined.

Because she thought a lot, considered a lot, and made corresponding measures to deal with it.

A person with complete mental breakdown can't do this. She is much stronger than he thinks.

"Do you really think about it?" Luo lie asked, "or you can talk to Mr. Gong and let him choose to make appropriate changes instead of doing everything absolutely to protect you. Let him understand that hurting the people you care about is also hurting you."

"That's paranoid personality disorder."

That's Gong ou. If he could get rid of it completely, he would have.

“……”

Luo lie was completely defeated. He couldn't persuade Shi Xiaonian, because she had thought a lot and considered it very carefully.

When Xiao Nian looks at him, Luo lie sighs and goes to the shelf beside the wall to take down a bottle of medicine from it.

"Thank you."

Shi Xiaonian came up to him.

Luo lie clenched the medicine bottle and looked at her hesitantly. "Do you really think about it? This is your child. It's a life. "

"I really think about it." When small read a firm nod, "such as send away gongou, let him settle down in Britain to deal with things, I will choose to take off the child."

"Maybe when Mr. Gong comes back, everything will be fine, and there won't be such a difficult situation again." Lori still hesitated to hold the medicine bottle.

"As long as people live, there will always be trouble. I can't afford to hurt the people around me." Shi Xiaonian said, a pair of eyes clean but gray, "and Gong Ou this trip out, the result I can't predict, I made the worst plan, I don't want him to leave full of worry."

She doesn't want Gong ou. She always thinks about whether my time is good at home, whether my mood is stable, whether I will be safe and obedient.

She slowly reached out to him.

"Maybe, after this, you can choose to leave Mr. Gong for a period of time to calm your mood. Maybe you don't think so at that time. You don't have to kill the child." Lori still wants to persuade her.

If she just wants to avoid the harm she brings to others, she can choose to leave alone.

When small read shook his head, "I can't leave palace Europe."

I can't.

She can't do it. Gong Ou has paid too much for her.

“……” Luo lie had nothing to say, hesitated for a long time, finally put the medicine bottle into her palm, "Mrs. Gong, I misjudged you before, your mental state is not very good, but you are the strongest woman I have ever seen."

"Thank you."When small read low eyes looking at his palm, above is a small white medicine bottle, without any words, she clenched the medicine bottle to go out.

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