Chapter 83 - 80....madness....

"Secretary Qin?", Qin ZiXuan was perplexed.

"Xuanxuan...", Meilin started with an eerie voice.

"Yes, Ma'am!!"

Noticing his sudden change, she chuckled softly and then continued, "I am strong..."

Though she didn't say it outright, ZiXuan caught the nuance, she meant that she is stronger than before and that she is stronger than him....it definitely hit his sore spot.

She suddenly started speaking in English, "You see, I can still beat you to a pulp, but because I care about you so much...I can't hurt you, right?", she released him.

ZiXuan who was shown 'care', got up and softly twisted his wrist, though she had not applied much pressure, it was psychological because he was not able to get her off of his body.

As he sat on the bed without saying anything, Meilin bent a little to see into his eyes, she softly patted his cheeks and in a soft voice said to him, as if she didn't know what she did a while back, "Xuanxuan, will you get ready now?"

ZiXuan, who had not been treated like this for the last 5 years, "........", he is sometimes astounded by her bipolarity.

"Xuanxuan?"

"en.....I'll go wash up....", that is what he said, but being the 'man' he was, there was no way he will leave things like this...

He held Meilin's wrist and pulled her towards him and suddenly bent down, their faces were so close that any movement will cause their skin to meet, ZiXuan's lips were just below her own, Meilin voluntarily stopped breathing and went stiff, the previous her who acted real savage was gone in a POOF....

"Linlin...", ZiXuan opened in his deep voice, "I know that you care about me the most.....don't be angry, hm?"

Meilin: "......"

ZiXuan knew that she was probably malfunctioning, well, she was not the only one who was bipolar, they were not suffering from the disorder just that they were multi-faced?

When she reacted to his tantrum, he was sure that it was because she was trying to get rid of the pent-up stress she had, she didn't want to go to the meeting, but she couldn't deny his request, she didn't want to see Xun Luli, she never asked, but she probably was twisted with jealousy and her desire and OCD of control, she couldn't bear to ask what their relationship was, but that didn't mean she wasn't affected.....

The final trigger was probably when he said that she didn't care about him and then she probably couldn't control all these negative feelings anymore. In case she exploded, she will ruin all her hard-work till now, some emotions still leaked out, when she said she was strong, she was reminding herself that, 'she had to stay strong'.....

ZiXuan understood her, too clearly for is own good. She still controlled her overflowing emotions, but it was a good sign that she was starting to lose control, he was waiting for the day she would lose all her control over them, that day he will accept all of it, all her love, all her madness....

"Linlin, just like I understand you, I hope that you will understand what I want too...."

"Xuanxu-"

"sshhhh", he put his finger over her soft lips and then as if addicted softly brushed them, "Linlin, I want you to truly understand what I want, I will beat you, it may take some time but I promise, I will do it, so until then, I hope you can make your heart and body ready for everything that I want from you...", his lips hovered over her's for a while, but finally settled on her chin...."I hope you will be ready by then....Linlin", he gave her a soft smile and without waiting for her answer went into the bathroom to take a shower.

Linlin went into introspection, she was not sure what he meant, but she was sure that Xuanxuan had changed or, was it her that couldn't understand him anymore, what she did today was taking her stress out on him, she know that it was not good, Xuanxuan was not at fault, but she just couldn't control it anymore, all her emotion were starting to run rampant, she didn't know till when she could control it, in a way, she always wanted him to see the perfect version of her, but slowly everything was crumbling away...

'Xuanxuan,... I wonder..... if you knew all the ugliness inside me, will you still accept me... You know, when it comes to you, I can accept everything... everything except you hating me... everything is driving me mad. I don't know what to do with these feelings anymore?'

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It was already 20:00, when the both of them left the QMX building.

Meilin had given some snacks and fresh plum juice to fill his stomach, though it may be a dinner meeting, it wasn't logical for them to eat till their fill, she didn't want him to stay hungry or ruin his stomach, it was still a bit awkward between them, which was very rare in itself, but they let it be....both of them didn't talk with each other throughout the short drive.

By the time they reached there it was 20:15, nor too fast nor too late...

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Agnes...the high-end French Restaurant, named after the owner's beloved was famous for its ambience and food made with care to the details, there was no private booth but the second floor was reserved for its VIP guests with enough distance between the tables to give certain amount privacy....

Xun Luli and her father had reached the restaurant by 20:00

If possible Chairman Xun wanted to be a bit late, but Luli was too eager, but now that she had to wait for another 30 minutes, she was very troubled.

"Luli, don't fret. He will be here soon, I'm sad that my princess can't get time for her papa anymore", Chairman Xun teased his daughter.

"Papa!!"

In between their jokes, the door to the room opened.

ZiXuan, in a slim fit DIOR royal blue suit, walked in with grace and his unique aloof elegance.

"ZiXua--", Luli's who had stood up to welcome him, froze....

A name flashed in her head...

"Qin Meilin"