Chapter 99 - Loving You Proved To Be Very Painful

It was already morning when Shen Youlin woke up. When a little bit of consciousness returned, her eyelids fluttered slowly and she opened them.

This time, it didn't take her long to realize that she was in Mo Roulan's room.

The last night's events rushed in her mind and she swiftly sat up on the bed.

The movement seemed to make her realize that her hand was held by someone and she looked down.

Mo Roulan was sitting on the floor holding her hand.

The bright rays of the sun were falling on her face because the door of the balcony was open. Her eyes couldn't help but moisten as she leaned down a bit and uncovered her face from her hair.

"Roulan…"

She whispered slowly and bit her lips.

A tear from her eye fell down on Mo Roulan's face which made her woke up.

Just as Shen Youlin was going to take her hand out of Mo Roulan's hand, Mo Roulan opened her eyes and looked at her.

The sudden eye contact made Shen Youlin very nervous.

Her heart was filled with the same fear.

She suppressed her tears and whispered with her head lowered

"I'll leave right now."

However, just when she was about to turn around she realized that her hand was still held by Mo Roulan.

She tried to take her hand out of her grip but Mo Roulan only tightened her hold.

"Where do you want to go? Aren't we going to college together?"

The words froze Shen Youlin's whole body. Slowly, she raised her head to look into Mo Roulan's eyes.

She couldn't believe that Mo Roulan still wanted to go with her to the college.

"Roulan…I…"

She stumbled over her words but stopped when she saw Mo Roulan leaving her hand.

Her mouth parted to say something and her eyes were filled with fear as she saw Mo Roulan standing up and then sitting on the bed.

After sitting comfortably on the bed, Mo Roulan looked at Shen Youlin seriously.

"Last night, what were you thinking before you got unconscious?"

Last night when Shen Youlin has collapsed, she was shocked.

Only she knew how she dragged Shen Youlin inside the room and secretly went to call the lady doctor who lived in the building only.

The doctor said that it was a panic attack.

Panic attack? Mo Roulan didn't have anything to say when the doctor asked her what was the situation.

She just thanked the doctor and paid her the fee and then went to leave her to her house.

The whole night, she was thinking about Shen Youlin.

Did she do something wrong?

Perhaps her way of handling Shen Youlin's situation was completely wrong.

Shouldn't she have gone to Shen Youlin's home and tried to tell her parents about her situation?

That was the best option for her but somewhere Mo Roulan felt that there was something missing. If Shen Youlin had such responsible parents then why would it be her who found out about her drug addiction first?

The night left her mind in mess.

But she was clear with one thing. She needs to talk with Shen Youlin.

She needs to make Shen Youlin understand that the drugs were not a good thing.

Until and unless Shen Youlin wants to leave drugs, no matter how many drugs she destroys she can't help Shen Youlin.

Mo Roulan didn't force Shen Youlin to answer her question.

If she doesn't wish to share it with her then it was okay. She just wished that Shen Youlin would hear whatever she was about to say very calmly.

"Youlin, when did you start taking….drugs?"

She could see Shen Youlin's body stiffening at her question.

Mo Roulan really didn't know what should she say or ask for a moment.

The past her had left drugs because of her child. But did Shen Youlin have something or someone in her life for whom she could do this?

As she was thinking about this, she suddenly felt two arms surrounding her waist.

Looking down, she saw Shen Youlin was hugging her very tightly.

Just a moment later, she felt her shirt a little wet at the place where Shen Youlin was burying her head.

She couldn't help but remember the first time when she had met Shen Youlin. That day also, Shen Youlin had hugged her like this.

Her arms immediately reciprocated her hug which made Shen Youlin tighten her hug.

"Roulan…"

Hearing her choked voice, Mo Roulan's own eyes went slightly teary.

"Youlin…look at me."

Mo Roulan tried to lean back a little and take a look at Shen Youlin's face but Shen Youlin didn't leave her.

"Roulan…please don't leave me, okay? I'll leave the drugs. I'll try my best. Just don't leave me. I will become alone again. Roulan…I'll never touch them…. just… "

Shen Youlin said many things and Mo Roulan heard her silently.

She only hugged her showing her support.

At some moment, Mo Roulan's own tears fell out of her eyes. She knew what Shen Youlin was feeling.

She could feel her fear, her regret but she also knew that it was just the start.

"It's okay. I'm not going anywhere. We will be together in this."

It won't be easy but she won't leave Shen Youlin on this journey alone.

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Tian Yuan turned his body but frowned when found out that he couldn't do it. With wrinkled brows, he opened his eyes a little and looked down at his stomach only to find an arm holding him tightly.

His eyes widened when he slowly realized the situation he was in.

He was naked with only a blanket covering him.

Swiftly he threw the arms away from his body and sat up on the bed with a terrified expression on his face.

What did he do?

He clutched his hair in his hands.

How could he do this?

"Wife, are you alright?"

The voice fell in his ears making him angrier.

He raised his head only to see the smiling devil looking at himself while propping his chin on his hand. The smile irritated Tian Yuan so much that he kicked Liu Ji Fan furiously and cursed

"B**t**d"

"Woah…so wild that too early in the morning. At least have some rest then we…"

Before he could continue, Tian Yuan covered his mouth and glared at him fiercely.

"Just shut up. Don't spout any nonsense out of your mouth because I really don't know what I will do."

However, Liu Ji Fan only felt amused by his actions.

His anger has been calmed down after a beautiful night with his beautiful wife.

He easily uncovered his mouth and pushed Tian Yuan under himself. Griping Tian Yuan's both hands with his one hand he put them above his head and asked in a low but seductive voice.

"What will you do, wife? Tell me, I am so eager to know."

He also licked Tian Yuan's earlobe while saying that and blew warm breath in his ear making him close his eyes and breathing heavily.

"St..stop…"

His 'stop' was silenced by Liu Ji Fan's lips.

After a long kiss, Liu Ji Fan leaned back a little and said

"Don't say stop now, Tian Yuan. You should have said it last night but you didn't."

Hearing his words, Tian Yuan didn't dare to open his eyes.

It was true. He really didn't try to stop Liu Ji Fan.

Because he couldn't.

As soon as Liu Ji Fan's lips touched his body, he lost control.

He wanted it, Tian Yuan knew.

He shouldn't but he wanted it.

So he indulged himself but he regretted.

He shouldn't have done this. By doing this, he only gave Liu Ji Fan hope of something which could never exist between them.

Opening his eyes, Tian Yuan looked at the man who was staring at him with love and adoration. His heart felt stuffy and painful.

He calmed down his emotions and said emotionlessly.

"Get off me."

Liu Ji Fan frowned at his sudden change of tone and said dominantly.

"I won't."

Tian Yuan sighed and said again.

"I need to go to the office."

Hearing his words, Liu Ji Fan smiled and pecked his lips. He chuckled seeing startled Tian Yuan and whispered

"You don't need to go anywhere. Just rest here today, in my room. I have a meeting. I'll be back in an hour."

After saying this, Liu Ji Fan got up from the bed.

Tian Yuan diverted his eyes somewhere else when he saw the naked Liu Ji Fan.

He heard Liu Ji Fan laughing but he didn't say anything.

A moment later, the shower's sound from the bathroom could be heard inside the room.

He laid there unmoving while staring at the wall far away, lost in his own thoughts.

A tear rolled down from his eye disappearing in his hair.

'Ji Fan, sometimes I really regret meeting you in my life.

Because loving you proved to be very painful for me.'