Chapter 69

Asked by mufei, she still kept the smile on her face because she didn't want to affect him with her own pain.

He had been waiting for her for so many years, and she knew that. But the more I know his intention, the more I can't face him, the more I want to escape from him.

"Well, yes. The date of the wedding has not been decided yet She replied, lowering her head.

He was silent. He didn't know how much he knew her. He thought he was the one who loved her most and knew her best in the world. But at this time, did he dare to think so?

"Shiyuan, I have a lot to say to you!"

Yes, there are too many words, which have been hidden in the heart for more than ten years.

Perhaps to settle her past, or for some other reason, she agreed to him.

It was midnight, and the family had to rest, but it was not safe to go outside. She had to take him upstairs to her room.

It's a lot of talk, but I can't say it.

Maybe this love is too deep and depressed for too long. At this time, Peng mufei can no longer bear it. At the moment when Shiyuan closed the door, he held her in his arms.

They are so close to each other that they can hear the breath and heart beat clearly.

The last scene was the night after his last football match in high school. It was the night when he expressed his feelings for the first time but was rejected by her.

At the moment, the scene at that time clearly floated into their minds.

Because they never forget the past.

"Shiyuan, I love you, I only love you!" His voice trembled and his heart beat wildly.

Her heart is so painful that he is the only one in the world who can tell her those three words. However, this only person can not be her husband, and she will never be able to live with him hand in hand.

At the moment, she suddenly felt good regret, regret the mistakes she had made these years, regretted being with Wang Zixuan, and regretting losing the person in front of her.

However, to today, everything has been irretrievable, there is no way back!

Regret, despair and pain, because of his words and let these emotions beat her down, tears like a huge wave, all of a sudden sit on the ground.

Even if she didn't say anything, he knew how she felt.

Maybe, he really is the one who loves her most!

She wept silently, but could not tell him the truth.

We can't tell him that he was raped by a stranger that night; we can't tell him that he was rejected because he loves him too much; we can't tell him that he has become Wang Zixuan's lover because of his confusion; we can't tell him that he has been with Wang Zixuan all these years; we can't tell him that he has no way to divorce Wang Zixuan.

Mufei kneels in front of her and holds her in his arms.

He is also the same sadness, the same despair, the same regret.

But what else could he do? She has married someone else and has become Wang Zixuan's wife.

For some reason, he kisses her for the first time.

Her lips were so cold that when he touched her, he clearly felt her refusal.

She couldn't tell what to refuse, but it was just a moment. If it is not complete to say no, it is hesitation and hesitation.

However, he did not suppress his own ideas as in the past, and even though he knew what he was doing at the moment was wrong, he insisted. Because he knows her attitude towards marriage, her feelings for him, and these are his motivation!

Is that wrong? Shouldn't you? And Wang Zixuan married should not accept mufei to do so?

If all these years were wrong, is it right now?

However, from this time on, when young, simple love has been mixed with other things, mixed with desire.

When two people fall in love, if there is no longing for the body, is it still love?

However, Xu Shiyuan knows that even if she can't forget mufei, even if she once expected to join hands with him, she has not imagined the situation of her physical intercourse. In her eyes, he never changed, he would not have such close contact with himself.

This situation, this scene, aroused her inner fear!

If you can't live with him, does such indulgence hurt him?

However, at the moment, mufei has forgotten everything, because she did not refuse her, and no refusal is support.

He is a normal adult man, and now he is facing his beloved woman. Even if she's married to someone else? She was forced at all. You can imagine what he will do!

The difference between men and women is not only about body structure, but also other things.

Women tend to be calmer than men before facing physical temptation. The reason may be related to sex hormones in both sexes! Or is it related to the education of different genders in society!Just as he tried to unbutton her, his hand was stopped by her.

He was suddenly stunned. His eyes were full of doubts and staring at her. Her eyes were so firm that he could not understand what it meant!

"Shiyuan -" he called to her softly.

"Mufei, you can't do this! We, we can't do this! " She didn't relax his hand at all.

"Shiyuan --" he seems to insist.

"Mufei, I, I am married! I have a husband

She repeated this reason to keep herself calm and sober at the moment, and his expression, from the initial pleading, to puzzled, and finally to sad.

"Yes, it's too late, isn't it?" He laughed in despair.

How can her heart not hurt when he is so?

He's here. Is he late?

Perhaps, two people have gone too far, far hard to start again!

People often say that time and space are the killers of love!

However, we often think that as long as two people sincerely wait, no matter how long they separate and how far away they are, they will always come together! Little did not know, this world all will change!

It was only at this moment that he really realized this.

At this time, Shiyuan was more distressed than the night when she heard his first confession. However, any is painful heart, any is broken heart into ashes can not continue!

Since there is no chance to be together, we should not let each other take chances, right?

"Mufei, I'm getting married! You, don't you -- "she tried to persuade him to forget himself and to let him die completely, but how could such cruel words be said!

Clearly is to give their most simple love of the people, clearly is their life is the most reluctant to hurt people, but, we often will such harm, whether intentional or unintentional, eventually hurt such a person, let each other even meet the reason can not be found!

Please forgive me for being so cruel! Please forgive me for hurting you so much!

In the face of such a beautiful you, let me worry about gain and loss, let me be willing to meet you in every dream in the future, but I don't want to, don't want to hold hands with you!

Am I too selfish? Is it that I don't love you enough? Is it that I only love myself?