Chapter 181

The wind blowing from the ear, brought the children's laughter, which seemed to bring them into the memory of the past. So pure youth, so simple laughter!

He showed a bitter smile and sighed, "if you miss it, you will never come back."

Her hand was on his hand, and he looked back at her and said, "I know she loves me very much. She has been with me all the time in Cambridge. Clearly she is different from you, is a completely different person, but, in those lonely miss you, I always mistake her as you. From the time we were in high school, it was you and me in my dream family, even now. "

"But you know you have her in your heart, don't you?" She said.

He nodded.

"I remember someone saying that no one will always be standing there waiting for another person to turn around. Instead of fantasizing about getting perfect feelings, why not cherish the person around us? When that person leaves one day, we will know regret, but regret does not necessarily bring us happiness She said.

He looked at her speechless. After a long time, he asked, "Shiyuan, would you choose me if there was no such thing?"

"But there is no if in the world, is it?" She said.

He sighed and looked into the distance.

She took his hand, looked into his eyes and said, "it's very simple to look back at the existence of another person! Mufei, I don't want to lose your good friend. If we can't take our feelings seriously, we'll have to cut off the relationship temporarily! You know that! "

He laughed and sighed, "you've always been the one who makes decisions between us!"

"Because I want to get back on the road!" She replied, "I will go to the United States in January. Whether it is you or Wang Zixuan, I want to leave. The knot in my heart, only myself to untie. If I had been among you all the time, I would have been confused about everything, whether it was my future life or the confusion of the past. "

"Shiyuan, can we still be friends?" He asked.

She nodded and said, "as I said, you will always be my best friend! And I don't want to forget those years, because it's our only memory! "

He reached out and she held it.

"I have never been able to make such a decision. However, in order to be worthy of your" best friend "position, I still have to work hard. So, Shiyuan, when I can really put it down, I will come to you! Before that, I also want to think quietly! " He said.

She clenched his hand and the wind ruffled her hair.

Her hair was blown disorderly. She said with a smile, "it seems that I should go and have my hair cut off as a memorial to welcome my new life." He laughed, but asked: "will you still choose Wang Zixuan?"

She shook her head and said, "no matter you, or Wang Zixuan, I will throw you into the memory of the past at the moment when my hair is cut off."

"How cruel you are He said with a smile.

She answered him with her own laughter.

"How happy you are! Share it? " Ding Haonan comes over.

"Shiyuan, I still won't regret my feelings for so many years, because you are the only one in the world!" Mufei said goodbye and left.

"What are you talking about? It's totally different from what I thought When Mu Fei's figure disappears, Ding Haonan says to Shiyuan.

"Secret!" She said with a smile.

"It's not interesting enough, you!" Ding Haonan road.

"Well, if you want to know, just accompany me to cut off my hair and give you a chance to witness Xu Shiyuan's new life!" She got up and went to the exit.

"Haircut? New life? " He said to himself, "I don't understand it at all!"

Buddhism calls people's hair worry silk. Therefore, the first ceremony for a person to become a Buddhist disciple is to shave the silk. When the roots of the green silk fall, it also means the world's joys and sorrows to leave the body of people. However, how far is the formal separation from the disintegration of the soul? How many people can really forget the joys and sorrows of the world after shaving their hair?

When Shiyuan cut her hair short and walked out of the hairdressing salon with Ding Haonan, she saw the sunlight shining from the gap of the dark clouds. The sunlight penetrated not only the thick clouds in the sky, but also the clouds in her heart.

In the evening, she and Wang Zixuan formally talked about their own ideas, and she wanted to separate from him.

At first, he was still surprised by her new appearance. When he heard her say she would leave, he fell into deep thought.

"You moved here to guard against mufei, but now that he has gone completely, we have decided not to contact. Do you have no reason to be here? " She said it very seriously.

"I said I would pursue you. If I move away, how can I pursue you?" He's very reasonable.

She got up in anger and smashed her hands on the table top, staring at him and saying, "Wang Zixuan, do you have any problem with your understanding? Don't you understand what I'm saying"I understand. You want me to move away." He replied.

"What are you pretending to be innocent with me? Move it for me She exclaimed.

"I told you, if you move away, you can't pursue you, don't you understand?" He gazed at her flaming eyes and replied calmly.

"Wang Zixuan, don't challenge my patience!" She roared.

He glanced at her without answering.

She had to sit down and change her tone and say to him, "Wang Zixuan, we are divorced, you know that!"

"So what? What law says that you can't be together after divorce? " He seemed to answer her reasonably.

She was speechless. Her hands scratched her hair. "Ah ah" called a few times. Then she looked at him and said, "Wang Zixuan, you think I can't do anything about you, do you? I'll buy a big dog and keep it at home tomorrow. I'll bite you when I see you. How dare you come? "

He also stares at her, faint smile, way: "not afraid, you buy casually, don't say one, I don't care about ten!" She was so angry that she pointed to him. He grabbed her hand and stared at her and said, "it's said that canine phobia can't be cured overnight! Before you buy a dog to bite me, I'd like to remind you so that you won't be scared to stay at home first

She suddenly flashed into her mind the embarrassment of hiding behind the dog several times. Hearing what he said, she had no choice but to lie on the table and just hit the table.

He sat down next to her, leaned against her and said, "well, I won't press you. It's just that I can't live without you

She raised her face, looked at him for a long time, and then said, "let's separate for a while. If we still love each other at that time, I don't think I will be so stubborn! You know that! "

He nodded.

They looked at each other for a long time, and then he said, "Xu Shiyuan, you cut your hair short. It's different from the past!"

"What's different?"

"The feeling of growing up!"

She laughed silently and said, "I'm almost thirty years old."

"Did you? I don't seem to feel it yet He said, she laughs and twists her hands around.

He touched her new haircut and said, "Xu Shiyuan, there's something I think I should tell you!" She tilted her head to stare at him, and he said, "Peng mufei's girlfriend, I sent someone to find him -"

she suddenly sat up and stared at him. He thought she was going to get angry and blame him, but he didn't expect her to say, "thank you for doing this, otherwise, I won't forgive myself!"

He stared at her for a long time, took her into his arms, and she sat quietly against his chest.

"I'm sorry, I'll tell you earlier in the future." He said, kissing her on the top of the head.

Thank you She said.

So they were silent.