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All the time waiting for him

When Xia Ze heard my voice, his body paused for a moment, then he turned his head around as if he had just awoken from a dream. The fake smile that I was familiar with on his face had disappeared, and replacing it was ice cold. I had seen that kind of cold gaze on Cheng Ruojun's face before, and I couldn't help but take a step back.

As I looked at his profile, I felt that he was a stranger to me. I knew that Cheng Ruojun and I had been intimate enough to hurt him.

"Xia Ze, we are destined to be unable to be together and we can only enjoy ourselves for a moment. I don't know what will happen in the future, so even so, are you still going to ignore me?" I understand that my words were a little too willful. I know that what I said was too excessive, I was threatening Xia Ze, but I really didn't want him to leave me.

Xia Ze finally raised his head to look at me, and a smile appeared on his cold face. The smile I gave him was suddenly very uneasy, as he looked extremely similar to Cheng Ruojun in that second.

But I can't leave, otherwise Xia Ze would probably never forgive me.

I took another step forward. Xia Ze looked at me but did not move. He also did not stop me.

"You don't need me anymore." Xia Ze said, "You've done very well."

I looked at Xia Ze, and I believed that he had spoken words of anger.

"If it weren't for you, I wouldn't even want to leave Cheng Ruojun." "No," I said.

Xia Ze's eyes became dimmer and dimmer. I finally couldn't stand him like this, I ran forward a few steps to hug Xia Ze, but he pushed me away.

His strength was so great that I was pushed to the ground by him. Then he stood up, as if he was about to leave.

"Don't go." I took his hand. I sat on the ground and looked at him imploringly, hoping he would be merciful, but it was no use.

Xia Ze turned around and looked at me, and he said, "I know, I understand what you have to say. I could clearly control myself before, but right now, when I see you together with Cheng Ruojun, I …"

His voice was as clear as ever, but his words, his expression, were completely different. He was sad for me, and in addition to the current situation, I was also happy.

"I'm sorry." "It's all my fault, if I."

"In short, let me calm down." "Leave me alone for a while."

I looked at Xia Ze's eyes. He really wanted to calm down, and I knew that no matter how I begged right now, Xia Ze would not forgive me.

"Alright." "Then I will wait for you here. I will wait for you forever. I will not leave."

After Xia Ze heard my words, he stared at my face for a long time. Finally, he extended a hand and touched my hair, and I looked up at him, hoping that he would save me.

But he didn't. He turned and walked out.

I sat blankly on the ground. The sky outside the window had completely darkened, and the room was extremely dark. I could hear the rumbling of thunder in the distance.

I wanted to cry, but my tear ducts dried up at that moment.

Xia Ze and I both understood that what I had just said was only a joke. How long I could wait here was something that Cheng Ruojun had said.

I looked at the clock on the wall and felt that I could stay for a while longer. I sat down at the place Xia Ze just left me.

I closed my eyes and felt really miserable.

I don't want to leave Xia Ze …

I thought about the gentle Cheng Ruojun who had treated me today. If Xia Ze no longer loved me, I might not have the courage to leave Cheng Ruojun.

I... It really was useless.

I saw the lightning streaking across the sky, the raindrops hitting the glass like stones, and I just sat there.

My future is as indistinct as a fog.

When the hands on the clock pointed to five o'clock in the afternoon, my cell phone rang. I immediately picked it up, but the person on it disappointed me.

"Li Zhen?" I didn't want to reveal any of my feelings right now. I don't know why, but in my heart, I clearly saw Li Zhen as a friend, but I didn't want her to know about what happened in my house. I suddenly remembered that yesterday, my mother had caused a ruckus in my house, so no matter how much I tried to hide what happened in my house, she still knew.

"Why aren't you here today?" Li Zhen said with concern. Her tone of voice did not change at all from yesterday's incident. We were both trying our best to cover up the traces of yesterday's incident.

"I have something to do." My tone wasn't too good, I felt like I was about to cry. I really didn't do it on purpose, it was just that after hearing Li Zhen's gentle words, a part of my heart seemed to have been touched.

"Do I need to see you?" Li Zhen said, "I'll go see you."

"No need." I said, and immediately refused.

Li Zhen hesitated for a moment before continuing, "Jiang Rou, don't lock yourself up in there. You helped me previously, so I want to help you too."

Her words moved me, who was weak at the moment, and I couldn't help but tell her my home address.

But just at this moment, I suddenly heard Li Zhen's side becoming noisy, maybe Li Zhen's uncle went to cause trouble again, and when I wanted to ask, the call had already ended.

I stared at the phone that had been hung up. I wanted to dial it, because if I was in a good mood before, I would definitely dial it. It's just that I really don't want to care about other people's business anymore.

I glanced at the clock. It was 5: 15 P.M. and I had to be back by six.

If he doesn't come by six, then I'm leaving.

If he doesn't come, then I'll give him up like he gave me up.

I closed my eyes and buried my head in my knees. I understood a lot of things, but I didn't want to face them, I buried my head in the dirt, I pushed everything out of the way, and I was just drifting along, taking everything that happened to me as fate had given me. I just needed to hate my life, but I didn't want to live like that anymore.

Even if Xia Ze doesn't exist in the future, I have to escape from him. I remember how Cheng Ruojun was treating me gently today, and his gentleness won't last for long.

Together, I looked up at the clock, which was now at forty-five.

I looked out at the sky, which was still overcast. There was no difference between one o'clock in the afternoon and five o'clock in the afternoon. It was foggy outside.

I stand up and plan to leave this place, Xia Ze is definitely not coming.

I didn't know him at all.

But just when I was about to give up, I suddenly heard footsteps coming from outside. Maybe Xia Ze is back.