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I glanced at the long jacket on the ground, which still had the scent of Tao Man's perfume on it. I stretched out my hands towards Xia Ze and said, "Xia Ze, hug me."

It was still raining hard outside, and the rain on the glass almost drowned out my voice.

"Xia Ze, as long as you say it, I will believe you." I added that I didn't have any feelings when I said it.

It's just a fake. I said to myself.

"So you've already guessed it." Xia Ze said, "Even though your brain isn't considered smart, you would still be able to see such obvious changes. I thought you would pretend that nothing had happened."

His voice was light, light, completely different from the repressed tone he had used before, as if he loved me but couldn't get it.

So this was the real him? I had always wanted to know about him, but I couldn't.

I stared at Xia Ze. I didn't know how to react, but endless grief had already surged out from my heart, why did things turn out like this, why did things turn out like this every time I exhausted all of my energy to love someone? Did I do something wrong?

I took a deep breath and said, "So you were lying to me from the beginning, right? You only approached me to enter the Cheng family, right? "

The corner of Xia Ze's mouth raised into a smile. His fingertips grazed my cheek and his movements were gentle, just like how he loved me deeply before.

"I thought you were crying?" Xia Ze said strangely, he smiled and said, "I was not lying to you in the beginning, at that time I did not know that I was the Cheng family's illegitimate child."

"Do you want the power of the Cheng family?" I asked him again.

He smiled and nodded. "Who wouldn't want it?"

"What is your purpose in coming to me?" "No," I said.

"Because I like you." Xia Ze said. The way he said this was extremely natural, as if it was a matter of course.

"Then why do you want to harm me?" I asked again, "Earlier, you kept asking me to tell you that there was news about Cheng Ruojun. It was also in order to bring him down and make him lose his favour at Cheng Ruixuan's place. What else did you do?"

The first thing that was imprinted in my mind was Xia Ze's anger that time. Li Zhen said that she wanted to come here and console me, but the person who came here was indeed Li Ling, thus both Li Ling and I were punished.

This time he set me up again.

"I didn't mean to harm you." Xia Ze said in a calm tone, "That was just in passing. Or perhaps, you are a rock that I accidentally bumped into when I was heading towards my target."

Stone? He compared me to stones.

My heart sank to the bottom of the valley. I carefully stared at his face, hoping to find evidence that he was just spouting lies, but I couldn't find it, I felt that he was speaking the truth, which made me feel worse, worse than when I found out that Cheng Ruojun was rolling around in bed with other women. How could he do this to me, what did I do wrong?

No, it's not that I did something wrong, it's that Cheng Ruojun and Xia Ze did something wrong, I didn't do anything wrong.

"Everything you told me was fake?" I asked him in a quavering voice. "Is everything that's happened to us just you?" I remembered everything we had done, and I remembered the confession I had made to him, and I felt like a fool.

I thought that if I could wholeheartedly devote myself to him, he would wholeheartedly treat me. I was really stupid.

"No." Xia Ze lowered his head and thought for a moment. Then, he smiled again, and said, "At least, I'm really very happy when I'm with you."

He put his fingers on my cheek again, his cold fingertips brushing my skin. How could I be so stupid?

I slapped his hand off my face. I wanted to cry, but I knew I couldn't. If I cried, it would mean that I had lost, and I didn't want to lose.

"Don't touch me." I looked at Cheng Ruojun and said, "Tell me, then why are you telling me this now?"

"I probably can't hide it anymore." Xia Ze said, "Didn't you want to leave Cheng Ruojun? This is a good opportunity. "

I stared at Xia Ze and said, "I don't need you to care about me, the two of us no longer have any relationship in the future." I said this word by word with determination, but my heart was in pain, as if someone was cutting my skin with a knife.

"Can you bear it?" Xia Ze smiled, "I am more gentle and better than Cheng Ruojun. In the future, the Cheng family will be mine too."

I remained silent and didn't say anything. I just stared carefully at Xia Ze's face, my eyes brushed past his, and his lips … they were obviously still familiar with each other, but how did the two of us become like this? While I stared at him, his expression didn't change at all, and it was as if we were chatting normally.

"Tell me why?" I asked him. "There must be more reasons."

Xia Ze shook his head and said, "Cheng Ruojun is a murderer, he killed my grandmother."

I didn't know how to respond. I should have hugged him now to comfort him, but I didn't want to. I had just been hurt by him.

He laughed to himself, and then he said, "You might ask me later if I've ever loved you."

I was silent.

Xia Ze laughed and said, "I've always loved you."

I couldn't make out the slightest hint of sincerity in his voice, and I couldn't tell now whether he was telling the truth or not.

"Leave, I don't want to see you again." I looked out the window.

I thought I would hear him hear the gentle words he used to hear, but I didn't. He just stood beside me and looked at me, and all I could hear was the sound of the rain on the glass.

"What do you want?" I finally couldn't stand it anymore and turned to ask him.

He pursed his lips in a puzzled expression. "In fact, I don't even know myself."

"I do like you, but other things are more important." His words hit me hard.

I can't listen any longer. Maybe he said it to make me weak and to make me forgive him.