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In the end, Yi Yuanze was still unable to hold back and pulled Meng Yunhan into his embrace, gently stroking her hair.

"Yi Yuanze, in your heart, you have always thought that it was I who left without saying goodbye five years ago, and left without leaving a trace. But in my heart, it was you who did not come to send me off, and were not willing to go abroad with me, leaving me alone." Meng Yunhan lay on Yi Yuanze's chest and continued to speak. No one knew why she wanted to explain everything clearly.

"I didn't …" Yi Yuanze held her shoulder, and increased the distance between the two of them, "It's not that I don't want to send you off, it's just that I'm not willing to be with you, and I haven't left you alone either."

Yi Yuanze's answer was firm and assured, but there was still a trace of hesitation in the corner of his eyes, "You don't know when I will leave? Did you not receive my letter to you? How is this possible? "Impossible."

She wanted to believe what Yi Yuanze had said, but she was also afraid that Yi Yuanze was lying to her. She also wanted to suspect that Gu Jing was lying to her, but after so many years, there was no way Meng Yunhan could deny that he had accompanied her.

Looking at Meng Yunhan who was about to cry, Yi Yuanze could not bear to continue speaking. No matter who was right or wrong, right now, at this moment, it was all his fault.

"Let's not talk about the past anymore, okay? I believe you, and I believe everything you say. We'll forget the bad things of the past and start over, even if it's starting from scratch. " Yi Yuanze really could not bear to see Meng Yunhan cry. He believed that she did not bid her farewell at that time, and that he had also written to himself before. Although he did not receive it, he did not want to care about these matters anymore.

Meng Yunhan couldn't help but cry bitterly. She seemed to know that Yi Yuanze wasn't lying, but she couldn't convince herself in her heart, Gu Jing actually lied to her for so long. Meng Yunhan could only shake her head continuously, she hated herself for explaining this matter.

Yi Yuanze held her in his arms, crying like he was about to cry. He did not continue to talk, and at the moment, he just wanted to give Meng Yunhan a shoulder to lean on.

It was unknown how long the pain in her heart had lasted before Meng Yunhan slowly stopped and did not cry anymore. Everything seemed to have been revealed, but it was as if she had walked into another fog, causing her to be unable to see the direction nor find the exit.

Sensing that the person in his embrace had stopped crying, Yi Yuanze lowered his head and looked at her, the arm around her tightened even more. He thought for a moment, then slowly opened his mouth and said: "It's alright, everything is already in the past, let's forget about it okay? I don't care about any of that stuff from the past. As long as we're together again, it doesn't matter. "

Now that Yi Yuanze had given up, he gave up completely. His plans, his revenge, his so-called torture, he had given up on all of these things. He only wanted to start with this woman again.

"I can't get through …" Meng Yunhan choked with sobs as she said those words. Now that they were all at a loss for words, who was lying? Who was concealing it? Meng Yunhan didn't have a clue. The expression on Yi Yuanze's face when she spoke was real, but it was also true that Gu Jing had accompanied him and given him so many years of effort. If he had to say who among them was lying, Meng Yunhan would still believe in her heart that Yi Yuanze was lying to him.

"Yi Yuanze, we are no longer the same as we were five years ago. We have experienced far too many things, and too many helplessness has appeared in my life. Our hearts are no longer as pure as before, and the hatred we had towards each other cannot be resolved in a short period of time."

Yi Yuanze loosened his grip on her hand, looked into her bright red eyes, and said: "I know that the things I did and the words I said after we reunited, more or less hurt you, but I really didn't mean it. At that time, I just couldn't accept the fact that you had gone abroad.

Meng Yunhan suddenly reached out and covered his mouth. She did not want to continue listening, maybe she was too afraid to continue listening. She was afraid that if Yi Yuanze continued speaking, she would completely break down.

"Yi Yuanze, don't say anymore. No matter if there's that matter between us from five years ago, right now, you don't have to say anything …"

Yi Yuanze held Meng Yunhan's hand, then moved it away from his mouth to the location of his own heart, "I can say nothing, but I believe you can feel that my heart has always been beating for you. Whether it was before, or now, or perhaps even after that, it will always only beat because of you."

"Yi Yuanze, I need time. My heart is very chaotic, can you leave me alone?" Meng Yunhan lowered her head. She was a little tired now, and her brain could no longer function properly. She felt that she was on the verge of collapse.

Meng Yunhan let go of her hand, and stood up, hesitating for a moment, then walked to the direction of the study, while Meng Yunhan bent her knees, with her hands around her shoulders, she curled up on the sofa. Yi Yuanze only glanced at her once, and then he entered the study, and did not come out again.

He clearly remembered that five years ago, on the day he was about to go abroad, she waited at the airport in anticipation. But in the end, the news that Yi Yuanze would not come.

Even to this day, Meng Yunhan could still clearly remember how sorrowful she was on that plane that day. If it wasn't for Gu Jing accompanying her, the current Meng Yunhan might not even have the motivation to continue living.

The past had been overturned. The thing that she hated the most in her heart, the thing that she hated the most, had changed the most, was that Meng Yunhan suddenly stood up and took out her own bag. She fumbled through it and took out her phone, looking at Gu Jing's phone.

In her heart, she clearly wanted to call Gu Jing, but she was also afraid that the answer she heard was not what she wanted. If Gu Jing denied it, what would she do, continue questioning him, or continue questioning Yi Yuanze? If Gu Jing admitted it, what would she do, how would she face this man who had deceived her for so many years, but also accompanied her for so many years.

Compared to in the depths of the fog, where he could not see the truth of the matter clearly, it seemed that after he made a call, what was about to happen caused Meng Yunhan to be even more annoyed.

Meng Yunhan didn't know how long she sat on the sofa. She also didn't know how many times she had questioned him in her heart, but in the end, she still couldn't get a satisfactory answer.

Yi Yuanze looked at the watch on his wrist. It was already past twelve o'clock, but he seemed to have not heard the sound of Meng Yunhan returning to her room. Although he did not want to disturb him, he still pushed open the door of his study due to worry.

Seeing that he was still sitting on the sofa with his eyes wide open, Yi Yuanze felt as if someone had grabbed his heart, causing him to feel unbearable pain. He walked up to Meng Yunhan and looked down at her, saying, "It's already very late, can you go back to your room and rest first? Don't think about those things anymore. The wound on your leg has not healed yet, so stop tormenting yourself. "

"I'm fine, I can't sleep …" Meng Yunhan did not raise her head. Her current mood was not as lonely as before. Her face no longer continued to shed tears, but her voice had become hoarse.

"Tell me, what on earth should I do in order for you to not be in so much pain?" It was obvious that Yi Yuanze had approached Meng Yunhan from the beginning in order to make her suffer, but now, when Meng Yunhan was really in unbearable pain, his heart softened.

Meng Yunhan did not speak, she only shook her head.

Yi Yuanze crouched down and tried to make Meng Yunhan look into his eyes, but failed because Meng Yunhan had buried her head between her knees.

"Yi Yuanze, can you give me some time?"

"Fine, I can give you time, however long it is. But promise me, rest now and don't torture yourself, okay?"

Meng Yunhan finally turned her head to look at him, thought for a bit, and nodded. Then, Yi Yuanze carried her and walked into the bedroom.

That night, even though Meng Yunhan was lying on the bed, she had not slept an entire night. On the other hand, Yi Yuanze did not appear in her bedroom, but instead sat on the sofa for an entire night.

At six in the morning, Meng Yunhan sat up from the bed. She seemed to have already figured out the doubts in her heart. Whether it was Yi Yuanze lying or Gu Jing deceiving her, Meng Yunhan didn't want to find out.

When she pushed open the door and walked into the living room, Meng Yunhan was truly shocked. She had never thought that Yi Yuanze would actually sit there in a daze, guarding his for the whole night.

"You're awake …"

When Meng Yunhan saw the traces of blood in his eyes, her heart ached and she could not help but ask: "Did you not sleep the whole night?"

Yi Yuanze did not answer her question, he only helped her sit on the sofa, and asked: Why don't you rest a bit longer?

"Yi Yuanze..." Meng Yunhan called out his name, and then she placed her palm on his chest, then felt that her heart was beating extremely fast, and even her breathing had become hurried.

"Although I don't know, can we still go back to the beginning? I don't know what you're thinking, either. What's more, I don't know which part of what you've said is what I can believe? "But I know your heart isn't lying …"

Yi Yuanze held Meng Yunhan's hand and said: "I will definitely let us return to the beginning and solve all of the misunderstandings between us. I will also prove to you that every single one of my words, you can believe them."

Now, Yi Yuanze felt that the distance between them was getting closer and closer. In comparison to being a threat, it seemed that treating each other with sincerity was the key to opening up each other's hearts.

Meng Yunhan believed what Yi Yuanze said, she believed that he really did not know about his leaving the country back then, and she believed that he did not abandon his. Furthermore, she did not wish to doubt Gu Jing either, and she had also told herself that what Gu Jing had said was true, no matter what happened in the past.

Now, Yi Yuanze was willing to let go of everything, and believe what Meng Yunhan said, and start over with her, this was a good thing, and Meng Yunhan was also trying to accept Yi Yuanze again. Although they had missed and misunderstood each other for so many years, since they had the chance to start anew, she still wanted to try again.