Chapter 131

"Yuanze, you are not..."

"Come on, while I can barely control my emotions now. You'd better explain quickly." Yi yuanze doesn't want to talk more nonsense with her. Tie her wrists tightly to the sides of her cheeks. Said some impatiently.

Meng Yun frowned coldly. This posture made her very uncomfortable, not to mention Yi yuanze's palm was really hard. Let her some pain, instinctive struggle. But Yi yuanze stopped it.

"Yuanze. What do you want me to explain? I already said, I called you. You didn't answer, I was afraid you were angry. So I didn't tell you to go to dinner in the evening. Besides, we have known each other for a long time. It's not normal to welcome him back." Meng Yun said coldly. He looked at him with a very wronged look.

Yi yuanze avoided her sight and looked at her cheek. "Let's not talk about the phone, nor about going to dinner without telling. How did you know each other? Why didn't you mention him before?"

"He studied psychology. He met by chance before. Later he became a good friend. Then I returned home. He said he planned to stay abroad and continue to develop. But I don't know why, but now he's back."

Meng Yunhan the extremely complicated encounter between them. The explanation became four words of chance and coincidence. It seemed that there were some things and memories. Even after so long, Meng Yunhan still didn't have the courage to say it.

Yi yuanze was obviously not satisfied with her explanation. His eyebrows frowned tightly, and the strength of holding her wrist became bigger. He stared at him fiercely and said, "you have been abroad for so many years. Now you have finished the explanation with the words of chance and coincidence?"

Meng Yun snorted coldly, her eyes drooped slightly, sighed a long sigh, looked very embarrassed, hesitated for a while, slowly opened her mouth and said, "Yi yuanze, do you really want to know what happened in my years abroad?"

"Yes, I want to know, I want to know, I must know what happened to you in the years we missed?" Yi yuanze looked at her firmly. For the years they missed, Yi yuanze wanted to know everything, big and small.

"Even if it was a painful memory or a scabby wound, do you want me to tell you a little bit now?" for Meng Yunhan, in the past few years of studying abroad, she didn't live as well as the outside world imagined. Even that was the darkest day in her life, which she never wanted to mention.

Listening to what she said, Yi yuanze felt more confused. He urgently wanted to know all the things that had happened to her over the years, but he was afraid that those would be painful memories as she said.

Meng Yunhan looked away and said, "five years ago, my father insisted on sending me to study abroad. Even because of my opposition, he put me under house arrest. Later, I finally compromised. On the day I left, the person I waited at the airport was not you..."

Meng Yunhan looked up at him slightly. After a cold hum, he said again: "At that time, I thought that you abandoned me and gave up our feelings. Therefore, after going abroad, I ushered in the darkest time in my life. There are even many times when I want to commit suicide because I can't accept such things. Later, I met Lin Ziyu and often did psychological counseling with him. Slowly, I survived the darkest time and talked with him He became a good friend, I...... "

"Stop talking..." Yi yuanze interrupted her softly, and his eyes could not help but red. What he once wanted to know and the five years they missed, now when Meng Yunhan told him, Yi yuanze felt that he could not listen. His heart was no longer painful. It was like being torn, and he was about to die.

Meng Yunhan's face was already full of tears. It was a bad mood. She had already poured into her heart, but she always held back and clenched her fist tightly. Even if her nails had been trapped in the meat, she didn't want to loosen them.

Yi yuanze hugged her tightly and closed his eyes to keep his tears from rolling out. Now he regrets why he asked her such a question and why he didn't go to her to seek the truth of the truth.

"Yi yuanze, do you know how I survived those years?" Meng Yunhan leaned against his chest and whispered this. Her fingernails seemed to have pierced the skin tissue of her palm, and blood began to seep out. However, Meng Yunhan didn't seem to care about these. She still held her fist tightly. It seemed that only in this way could she not be besieged by those bad emotions and wake up her brain for a moment.

Yi yuanze shook his head and said firmly, "don't say it. Don't say it. I know you've had a hard time in those years, but now those have passed. I'm sorry. I shouldn't let you recall those bad past events. I'm really sorry."

Meng Yunhan smiled and said to herself: "What supported me through all these years was hate. I always thought you would come to me. You Yi yuanze didn't have any means. No matter where I hid, you could find me. But later, I found that I was wrong. I waited every day and looked forward to it every day, but I spent every day in disappointment. I waited for a long time, but you didn't show up, No He called me, didn't send me a text message, and didn't even leave a message on the e-mail. At that time, I realized that I was too naive, too...... "

"I looked for you and even bought a ticket to go abroad to find you. I wanted to make it clear to you face to face, but at the moment I got on the plane, I received the news that you were with Gu Jing, so I decided not to look for you and let go..." Yi yuanze's voice was a little hoarse. In this relationship, what he paid and what he endured was no less than Meng Yunhan, But he will not easily reveal those. He is only willing to hide in the corner and lick the wound alone in the dark night.

Just when Meng Yunhan said that it was hate that had supported her for so many years, Yi yuanze felt that his heart was hard pressed by something and he was unable to breathe. Although the thing five years ago was a misunderstanding, it was a permanent pain and a wound that could never be healed for both of them.

Yi yuanze held her shoulder, gently pushed her away, frowned tightly, his eyes were full of heartache, and whispered, "Xiao Han, I'm sorry, yes..."

"It's not your fault. We don't trust each other very much, so we'll miss five years, so we'll experience such a thing." Meng Yunhan's tears can't stop pouring out of her eyes. She feels that there is inexplicable liquid breeding in her palm. She knows that she holds the palm out of blood again, and this is not a strange thing for her, After all, in those years abroad, she often hurt herself in such a way to alleviate her inner pain.

Yi yuanze closed his eyes. He seemed unable to find words to refute Meng Yunhan. Trust between them is the most fatal thing. They don't distrust each other. Just when there is a trust crisis between them, everyone can't calm down. They always like to think with their impulsive side.

"I shouldn't ask you what happened in the past five years. I shouldn't mention it again and again. I shouldn't trust you..." Yi yuanze closed his eyes and tried to calm himself down and analyze his mistakes. According to the current situation, he seems to have never done a right thing. What he did before seems to deeply hurt Meng Yunhan.

Meng Yunhan looked up at him slightly and saw him close his eyes. She was very remorseful. She slowly loosened her clenched fist. The warm liquid trickled down along her fingertips. Now she didn't have to look down to know that it was blood, not sweat.

"Lin Ziyu, he was my good friend abroad. At that time, we were just an alumni of the school. We studied medicine and he studied psychology. Later, he knew that I was trying to bear my emotions, so he often gave me psychological counseling and used his methods to alleviate the pressure and pain in my heart. He may be the lighthouse guiding me in the darkest time." Gu Xiansi couldn't help laughing. When she recalled those things abroad, maybe she would be so happy only when she thought of Lin Ziyu.

Yi yuanze didn't speak, but slowly opened his eyes and looked at her. His eyes had been occupied by tears, but there had never been tears. Yi yuanze stretched out his hand and held her palm. Only then did he find that her hand was full of blood.

"What's the matter with you? Are you hurt?" Yi yuanze didn't dare to move too much. Looking at the blood in her palm at the moment, Yi yuanze fiercely remembered that when her arm was injured, he didn't know anything and hurt her.

Meng Yunhan shook his head slightly and said, "I'm fine, probably because I'm used to hurting myself to keep awake."

Yi yuanze took her back into his arms. His tears finally burst at this moment. He loved the woman in front of him. He loved her to the bone. Even in the years when there were misunderstandings between them, Yi yuanze never stopped loving her.

"I'll give you medicine..." Yi yuanze whispered this in her ear. Then he quickly wiped the tears off his face, hugged her shoulder and walked towards the living room.

Meng Yunhan stopped talking, but always looked at him. The sad tears in her eyes no longer gushed out, but there was more joy. She liked to see Yi yuanze worried about herself, but she also loved him to show such an expression.

Yi yuanze knelt on the ground on one knee, put her palm on his knee and blew it gently. Then he took a cotton swab and wiped the blood on her palm little by little.

"Tell me if it hurts, don't bear it?" Yi yuanze frowned and whispered to her.

Meng Yunhan nodded slightly, as if in response to him, but now she has been used to such wounds and pain, not to mention Yi yuanze's action at the moment is very gentle, and she doesn't feel the pain.

Yi yuanze looks like he is the injured person at the moment. Now he seems to have no other emotions except worry and heartache. The previous anger has long disappeared in Meng Yunhan's tears.

The wound on her palm was not very deep, but there were many places. Yi yuanze carefully helped her stick the wound stick, then bowed his head and kissed it painfully. He closed his eyes slightly and put Meng Yunhan's palm on his lips, unwilling to release it.