1042 Chapter 27- Reagan – Busy (VOLUME 6)
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Reagan
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Things were getting really busy at home for us all. The day that Rika and I offered to help Mom and Dad with the revelation preparation, we were actually put to work. I was surprised about that, since our parents usually tried to keep us out of what was happening.
Things have been changing lately, starting with how Talia was a major player in the murder case that Mom and Dad worked on recently. In the beginning, when Talia first left, I was a little jealous of her. I mean, I had never been asked to help my parents like that before. Then I thought about it and I knew that they had a reason to ask Talia. She was different from Rika and I. She had powers that we didn’t.
Yeah, we all had magic, even Zachary, Zander, Zayden and Zaley all had magic, but Talia’s was different. She had magic related to the dead, and since they needed to free the souls of the dead, and talk to them as well, Talia was the only person alive that we know of that could do that. She is an amazing person, and a truly kind hearted person. I felt bad for her having to deal with the souls of the dead coming to her all the time. I have heard her, more so in the past than now, she has screamed during the night when they visit her and invade her dreams. It can’t be a pleasant experience.
Compared to Talia, Rika and I didn’t have a lot of special abilities. Then again, we have recently started to practice more of our magic. There was a lot to learn, and our mom was just a little older than we were when she learned most of it. So, in truth, I didn’t feel too far behind. We would get to the level that we needed to be, eventually.
Right now though, Rika and I were sitting alone at school. In the middle of the campus there was a fountain that had quickly become one of our favorites. Usually, we would sit here with our friends and talk while between classes or when we ate our lunches. Our classes for the day were over though, and our friends had gone home. We didn’t feel like leaving just yet, we just wanted to sit and think.
There were times when Rika and I were still so in sync that it was easy to tell that we were twins. Other times, people were shocked to learn that about us. Today was one of the former. We were so in tune and in sync with each other that we barely needed to speak to communicate what we were thinking to each other. And when we did speak, sometimes the sentences were chopped and shortened because we were able to fill in the blank for each other.
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“Busy.” I asked Rika as I looked at the water splashing into the fountain.
“Very.” She agreed.
“Wanted it though.” I continued in the same manner.
“That we did. Can’t complain.”
“Not at all.” Neither of us were upset about the situation, we just needed to talk about it a little.
That feeling of intense connection wasn’t fading, but I was starting to feel the urge to talk more, to get more off of my chest that the small sentences were doing for me. There was something that was bothering me, and I was pretty sure I knew what it was.
“Rika?” I called to her, drawing her attention away from the water and toward me. I was already looking at her and so her eyes met mine.
“What is it?” She sensed that something was different without me needing to say more.
“Even with how things are right now, with how busy we have been, have you felt incomplete at all? Like something is missing?”
“Well, yeah, in a way. But I have felt that way for weeks.”
“You have?” that was news to me. She must have been hiding it well. “Why?”
“Well, I think it was because I thought that Clovio was my mate. I don’t know if I was just jealous of Lyssa finding her mate with Warrick, or if I was just desperate to be loved, but I wanted him to be my mate so bad.”
“And it had to be him specifically?” I asked her with curiosity in my voice. I wasn’t judging her. I knew that she had been through a lot.
“No, I don’t think that it had to be him specifically. I don’t know how to explain it. It just felt to me like I was supposed to have my mate. Things were feeling strange for me for a little while, and then Clovio came by and he was the only one that was treating me like I was the most important woman in the world. I thought that it had to be him. And my mind and heart weren’t accepting anything else. It was strange. And now, ever since he left for Wales, I haven’t felt the same. It’s getting a little easier by the day, but it’s been really hard on me ever since then. It’s almost as if a piece of me went away, even though I know that he wasn’t my mate.”
“Huh. I didn’t know that. I am sorry, Rika.” I felt bad for my sister. I didn’t want her to feel upset like that. “I think that I am feeling incomplete too though, you know. Like there is something missing inside of me. And I know what it is. I want a mate too. I mean, I am a wolf, of course I want to find my mate. That is the first and most important goal that we have. And here I am, almost nineteen, and she hasn’t shown up yet.” I felt so dejected.
“Same here, Reagan. I mean, I am the same age as Mom was when she met Dad, and I feel like I am falling behind. But I know that it isn’t my fault. I was being stupid and immature, so I think that fate wanted to make me grow up a little. That is another reason why I wanted to help Mom and Dad with this issue. I wanted to prove to myself that I had changed. That I wasn’t the same person that I used to be.” I could hear the determination in her voice as she spoke. She wanted to be better than she was. I wanted the same thing for myself. I didn’t want to be an immature teenage boy anymore. I wanted to be a man. A responsible adult. I needed to be better, to be stronger, to help more. That was how I was going to improve myself and find the woman that was meant for me.
After a few moments, I heard the sound of laughter drifting toward me and I realized that my sister was laughing at me. She was grinning and trying to hide it, but I knew that she was laughing at me like I had done something funny.
“What? What is it?” I glared at her, not liking that she was laughing at me.
“I was just thinking about something.” Her eyes were sparkling at me with all the laughter and mirth that was pulsing off of her in waves.
“Well, what was it? Don’t leave me hanging here.”
“Well, Dad was twenty-five when he met Mom. He had to wait for her to be older enough. What if you have to wait another six years as well.” She laughed again, almost hysterically this time. “What if your mate is only twelve right now? What if you have to grow older and older until she is an adult. Or better yet, we’re immortal, what if she isn’t born yet. What if she won’t be born for another hundred years.” She was clearly getting a kick out of this.
“I swear to the goddess, Rika, if that happens, I will personally make your life a living hell.” She laughed again. “And don’t think that you’re immune here. What if you need to wait that long as well. What if your mate is just a baby right now and you need to wait until you’re a cougar before you meet him.”
“Eww! Gross! I don’t want a mate that is younger than me.”
“Fine. What if he is older than you? What if you haven’t met him yet because he is some ancient warlock that is like seven hundred and you have to meet him when you leave home?”
“Stop it, that’s even worse. I don’t want a mate that much older than me either. It’s just plain wrong. I want one more my age. Like two or three years older than me at most. I don’t want to be a child to him. And I don’t want to be a granny to him either. Stop it Reagan, that is just mean.”
“You started it.” I laughed and she joined in.
“Yeah, I know.”
The conversation died down a little after that. We just sat there and watched the fountain in silence for a little while as the minutes passed. When it was about five in the afternoon, we got to our feet and went home. We had another lesson at the castle, another thing to keep us busy. That was why we had needed these few moments of peace sitting here in the middle of the crowded campus. We had needed time to pretend like the world wasn’t fucked up and everything was going to be just fine. Then it was back to busy once more.