Chapter 2038

"If I had left her, her life would have been shorter. I'm so selfish. My heart is in love with two people. I don't know whether it's because of the change of heart or because I'm not Gu Changning. I'm so afraid of death that I want to live that I forget what I'm going to do if I don't die. "

"In the end, I lost myself, didn't know what to do, and became a ruthless killing machine. I don't want any redemption, and I dare not see you again. I have no words to face you and Gu Gu. I thought I would wear a mask and always be K. But when the two identities overlap, I don't know how to choose. "

"Wen Yiqing, you are the same as before, and I No longer a single Gu Changning, those four years of dark time It's been eroding me for a long time. "

His voice seems to come from the distant, heavy, with a trace of sadness.

"Have you ever seen a dead man?"

"Do you know what it's like to get up from the dead and live alone?"

"Do you know what it's like to kill someone from dark to dawn?"

"Do you know how long it takes for a person to die after cutting an artery?"

"To clear up I can't describe how I spent those four years. I don't remember Gu Changning before. For me, I have been a person who has died countless times. Every time I greet the sun, I feel like a ghost returning to the world. After you and Josh, I've been hesitating for a long time. I know that you may not dislike me now. You haven't experienced that. You don't know how terrible it is. "

"You don't mind, you think I can go back to the past. But I know that I can't go back. I've taken a road that I can't go back to. "

"I closed my eyes. It was a bloody scene. Close your eyes. It's a nightmare. I haven't had a good night's sleep for the last four years. I've been helping Caitlin eradicate dissidents. Using the identity of hackers to steal bitcoin. I am no longer the light in your heart. "

"I have fallen and cannot be redeemed. I'm alive now. I just hope that my family will be safe and do everything I have now. I just hope that the three brothers, as well as you and Gu Gu, can give me a good job. "

He has not said so much for a long time. He has always felt that he is brave and resourceful, but now he finds that he has no courage at all.

If Wen Yiqing is sober now, let him say these affectation words in front of her, he will not be able to say a word.

He looked at Wen Yiqing, who was unconscious. His eyes were gentle and his heart was shaking.

He didn't forget about her, but The former Gu Changning was indeed dead and killed by himself.

He stroked her face with trembling hands and wasted so many years to have the chance to speak like this.

"I'm sorry, I failed you after all, and I didn't take good care of Josh."

"I want to be with you all my life, but my life is coming to an end."

"I want to give Josh my whole life, but her life is coming to an end."

There was a lump in his throat as he said this.

In the face of death, it seems that everything has become a trivial matter.

They are all ants, unable to control their own destiny.

God, often when you are in the wind and water, give you a fatal blow.

But he Gu Changning, suffered two beatings, finally nothing left.

He gave up his ego for the sake of life.

After losing himself, he is no longer Gu Changning.