Sarah felt her chest still pounding, her face still hot. Unknowingly, Sarah touch her lips that had been kissed by Steve. The kiss was slow, and careful as if giving a chance for her to kiss it back or reject it.
And Sarah decided to do the latter. Her brain seemed to stop functioning when she felt the kiss. She couldn't think of anything.
"What should I do? How can… Why…?"
Sarah's brain began to fill with the question. Luckily there was no one else in the corridor at the moment, so they couldn't see how messed up Sarah was right now.
Right now, Sarah was completely confused. She admits that she was a little attracted to Steve before when they met again.
The man became more and more handsome and also treated her well. Almost every day they had lunch together in the hospital cafeteria. Being with Steve is always fun and she can be herself.
However… she couldn't just forget about Michael. The man she once loved, still thought she was still his wife and treated her so well, so much better when they were still married, making her even suspect that it wasn't her ex-husband.
If she had to choose between the two of them…. Sarah really didn't know.
She was comfortable with Steve, but on the other hand, she was also becoming more and more comfortable with Michael. Both men had their own way of making her feel comfortable.
Steve with his annoying jokes that always made her laugh, and Michael who… was sweet and made her flutter.
"But… if I had to choose…" Sarah couldn't continue her words. How could she choose between the two of them? In the first place, she simply didn't deserve to do that.
However, Sarah knew she had to make a decision soon, because Steve was waiting for her answer and she couldn't possibly think about this at Michael's house.
Sarah closed her eyes, trying to recall her memories with Michael, then her memories with Steve.
"One was my ex-husband who was being sweet, while the other was my annoying friend," thought Sarah, her head hurting at the thought.
"I'm gonna choose… Steve," Sarah muttered under her breath, having made up her mind.
It was actually a very difficult decision for Sarah, but when she thought about it again, Michael was her ex-husband, they were divorced, and she was just pretending to be Michael's wife.
Their relationship is over.
To her, Michael was just a thing of the past, and only temporary until Mr. Collins got better.
If she had to look into her future, being with Steve was so much better.
Well… one of the factors that made Sarah prefer this man was because of his family. Even though Mr. Collins treated her well, very well, Steve's family was warmer.
Sarah wanted to be in a family like that when they could have dinner and joke around. It seems Mrs. Brown is also a good woman, she will definitely make a better mother-in-law than Mrs. Collins.
Sarah immediately covered her mouth with her hand when she realized what she had just thought. Steve only asked her out to be his girlfriend and not for marriage! Why had she thought about it that far?
Sarah's cheeks felt hot, causing her to immediately raise her hands and fan them over her face.
This is so embarrassing!
After feeling that she had calmed down, Sarah quickly got out and walked to the other apartment, where Michael was waiting for her. She had already made her decision, and it seemed she had to speed up her plans.
Make Michael crazy about her, then dumped him!
***
p "You're home?"
Michael couldn't hide his surprise when he saw Sarah coming. He then looked at the clock on his laptop screen which showed 11:02. It was still early enough for Sarah to come home.
"Oh, yes. Were you waiting for me?" Sarah asked, smiling sweetly at Michael who was in the living room busy with his laptop.
Michael nodded then immediately stood up and walked over to Sarah.
"Why didn't you call me? I should have picked you up," said Michael following Sarah who was heading to the kitchen to get a drink.
"Sorry, I thought you were asleep and didn't want to wake you," Sarah apologized.
How could she even think of contacting Michael when her mind was filled with Steve?
"I understand. Next time please call me and don't go home alone like this. What if something happened to you?" Michael scolded.
Sarah snorted inwardly hearing that. She used to always come home at dawn and should take about twenty minutes, but Michael coldly told her to go home alone.
So why should he worry about the walk that only took her five minutes?
"I understand. Forgive me. You'll grow old if you nag like that!" Sarah said sweetly then immediately hugged Michael's arm.
Michael sighed and smiled at Sarah's behavior like that.
"Oh right, do you want to take a shower or dinner first? I've prepared the bath," said Michael suddenly.
Sarah was a little surprised at Michael's question. She was used to Michael filling her bath so it wasn't something that surprised her. Did Michael just mention dinner?
"Dinner?" Sarah asked repeating Michael's words, her brow furrowed.
"Yeah, dinner. I'm thinking to reheated it later if you came home late, but I guess we can eat it because you came home early," Michael replied looking at Sarah who was still hugging his arm.
Sarah fell silent when she heard this. Again… Michael behaved unlike the Michael she knew.
Sarah still vividly remembers coming home hungry one night, but not only did she find Michael asleep, she also found nothing on the dinner table.
When the next morning she asked if Michael was eating out, Michael said he ordered food and ate at home. Sarah wanted to ask why Michael hadn't left any food for her, but she just swallow her question.
She knew that Michael couldn't cook, but couldn't he at least spare some food for her?
From then on, Sarah always had dinner before going home, so the two of them never had dinner together again.
Sarah clearly remembered that's how Michael is, but why was Michael acting so out of character once again? And why… Why should her heart feel touched by a small thing like this?
"Wifey?" called Michael when Sarah just stood there and looked dumbfounded.
"Yes? Ahh… So you haven't had dinner yet?" asked Sarah, who had regained her sense.
Michael nodded.
"I'm waiting for you."
"Then what if I come home late? I didn't even tell you when I was coming home!" Sarah asked subconsciously raising her voice.
Michael was a little confused by Sarah's change, but he answered it anyway.
"Well… I will still wait for you and have dinner with you."
"We are husband and wife, it's only natural that we have dinner together," continued Michael.
Hearing that, it seemed like Sarah had to think again about her decision, because… her heart became shaky again.