"Am… I happy?"
Sarah kept repeating the question in her mind. Actually… Sarah didn't know how she was feeling anymore.
Is she really happy?
Sarah looked up at the sky which had turned orange in color, letting the afternoon breeze hit her face and loose hair.
To be honest, during this month or so, a lot had happened to her.
Her ex-husband shows up and thinks they are still married.
Her college friend shows up and confesses his feelings to her, something Sarah didn't expect at all.
Her boring life that was only filled with studying, meeting patients, performing operations, before finally returning to her simple apartment, began to be a little colorful and not boring anymore.
However, is she happy?
If being happy means that she smiles more often, then that means she is happy. She's been smiling a lot this past month, because of her ex-husband, and her college friend..
Well...she also cried a lot and was upset because of her ex-husband's actions, and come to think of it, her friend also made her feel annoyed, but she never cried because of her friend.
So… is she happy?
"Sarah."
Sarah lowered her face and looked at the man she had considered like her own father even though she had no idea what her father was like.
Would he be as kind as Mr. Collins? Or… their relationship wasn't close because the man ignored her?
Well… she didn't have to think about it because the answer was definitely the latter. Her parents left her in an orphanage when she was a baby, right?
Actually, Sarah really hated her parents.
Is she born because of a mistake so her parents chose to throw her away?
Even though the people at the orphanage were kind to her, why did she have to be left in the orphanage? Why did she have to be bullied by her classmates?
However, one day, Sarah finally chose to accept it. She didn't hate her parents anymore, and only thought that they had died a long time ago. She didn't even have any intention of finding out about them. They just died to her.
"Yes?" Sarah answered as she let go of the hair that stuck to her face and hit her red lips.
"How are you doing with Michael?" asked Mr. Collins curiously.
Sarah fell silent when she heard the question again.
How are her and Michael?
Actually… Sarah also doesn't know how they are at the moment, it seems that today Mr. Collins is again asking a difficult question that made her think to answer it.
To be honest, Sarah was a little surprised Michael's memory had returned—though not completely—and remembered his girlfriend, or maybe now his ex-girlfriend? To be sure, Sarah never thought Michael would think that he was having an affair with Anna.
Well, the man did have an affair, but with a different woman.
However… When she saw how devastated Michael was at that time, Sarah had no idea that her heart would also hurt when she saw that man.
Was this really what she wanted?
Sarah was starting to wonder, all along… She wanted to see Michael suffer, but when she saw him, she wasn't as happy as she thought.
So… at that time Sarah said that it was okay. Everything is alright. Stupid indeed, but… Sarah couldn't stand the sight of Michael looking like that and all she could think about was calming Michael down.
If she had left Michael at that time, then what if he finally found out about Mr. Collins? Even though the operation went well and Mr. Collins was on medication before he was allowed to go home, but… it looks like Michael would be even more devastated if he found out, right?
"We're fine," Sarah replied, trying to smile.
Sarah had decided for now that she would only do her part until Mr. Collins was healed and allowed to go home, without plotting any more evil plans for Michael.
Looks like… she doesn't want Michael to get hurt?
She does look stupid now after what Michael did to her, having an affair with another woman and then letting her go.
But… that was in the past, three years had passed since then. How long must she continue to be trapped in the past?
Looks like this time, Sarah can forgive it?
"You guys are here!"
Sarah and Mr. Collins turned their heads when they heard a male voice approaching them.
"Steve!"
Sarah's smile widened when she saw the blonde man who didn't want to be her friend anymore.
Honestly, seeing Elizabeth in Michael's office and Anna dating Michael made Sarah realize.
Was she the only one who was still stuck in the past when Michael had moved on from her?
So… Sarah also wanted to give Steve a chance, but after her business was done.
On second thought, she probably still hasn't gotten closure after her divorce from Michael because it happened so suddenly and they don't have many good memories.
One year of their marriage, ah, or maybe about eight months? They still seemed to be lovey dovey and doing well, but after that, they were both too busy and rarely talked to each other.
So with this opportunity, Sarah wanted to get her closure, do what she and Michael should be doing as wife and husband, before finally leaving the man.
This time, no grudges at all.
***
"Babe… Babe…"
Michael gasped when a hand touched his hands. He then turned to look beside him.
"Wifey?" said Michael, surprised to see Sarah who was sitting and looking at him worriedly.
"Did something happen?" Sarah asked worriedly. Lately Michael seems to be deep in thought and not as usual. Come to think of it, he also looked a little pale.
"Are you sick?" Sarah asked then quickly put the back of her hand on Michael's forehead, trying to check his temperature.
"I'm fine. I just lost on a thought," Michael said with a smile.
Even though he had chosen to wait to see if he had a divorce certificate, it seemed like Michael was still thinking and bothered about it.
"Don't worry, I'm fine, it's just office work," Michael said, taking Sarah's hand on his forehead and then kissing it and looking at Sarah with a gentle look.
Sarah was still looking at Michael worriedly. This was her first case of amnesia and the person experiencing it was her ex-husband who lived with her, so Sarah was worried that something had happened to Michael.
"By the way, what did you call me earlier?" asked Michael, trying to change the subject.
"Babe?" Sarah said, blinking her eyes.
"Did I do something wrong?" asked Michael looking confused and trying to think if there was something he did that made Sarah upset.
"Ah wait, do you want something?" Michael asked after realizing that wasn't quite right.
Sarah shook her head.
"Well… I just wanted to call you that, after all I told you earlier that I wanted us to go shopping for our picnic tomorrow, that's why we're in your car now," Sarah reminded Michael.
Michael seemed to be aware of this and immediately started his car engine and started the car.
"Is that true? You don't want anything else?" Michael asked confusedly, glancing occasionally at Sarah.
"Yes. Why are you asking and acting weird like this?" asked Sarah, confused by Michael's attitude. Did he remember anything else?
"Well… you call me babe if you want something," Michael said, looking to his left to see if there was a car because it was going into a main road.
"Eh? Is that true?" said Sarah, a little surprised.
"Yes. You call me babe and act cute when you want something," Michael said once again and then looked at Sarah because right now the road was straight.
Sarah was silent for a moment, trying to think whether it was her or Michael remembering another woman.
But on second thought, it turned out it was her.
"Looks like you finally realized it. So what does my wifey want this time, hm?" Michael asked as Sarah looked like she had just been caught. He then looked at the woman with a seductive gaze.
"Well… I just wanted to call you babe without any catch," Sarah said with a shy smile.
"Why? You don't like it?" Sarah asked, turning to Michael, trying to read the expression on his face.
"No, I like it. I like you calling my name, or also calling me babe. You can call me anything as long as it's not a curse word," said Michael looking at Sarah with a smile.
"Eh, you can cuss at me if you want to be on top again," Michael added with a mischievous grin.
He himself didn't know that he was enjoying Sarah dominating him like that, it had another sensation and to be honest, once in a while Michael wanted to do it again.
Sarah's hand immediately hit Michael's arm gently.
"Pervert!"
Michael just chuckled when he heard that, before finally being followed by Sarah. They both look happy.