C87

I don't even know how I got back. I can't find the bamboo forest anymore, I can't find the bamboo with the words carved on it.

I couldn't find the words he left for me, couldn't find the warmth that belonged to him to reassure me.

Not long after arriving in the northwest, he was riding his horse alone across the grassland. It was unknown if he was captured by bandits or if something happened to him, but when the officials from the northwest found the place where his accident had occurred, there was only a dead horse there. The withered yellow grass on the ground was stained with dark red blood, as well as the cut off hair and blood-stained clothes on the ground, which were also blown all over the place.

The string in my heart hurt a lot, and it had been two days since the news had reached the palace. That person used to have some ties with her, so he couldn't hide it from Grand Concubine Yi to tell her. But Grand Concubine Yi's current condition couldn't withstand any sort of provocation.

The news about the palace, especially the news about Xia Junchang, naturally didn't reach my ears.

I didn't know what had happened, but the strings in my heart were taut and aching. Xia Junchang, nothing will happen to you. You said you wanted me to wait for you.

That horse can be yours, but you'll be all right.

I could do nothing but comfort myself and tell myself over and over that he was blessed, and that I could do nothing about it, and when I thought of him, my heart ached, and when I closed my eyes, I thought of the blood all over the ground that my poor aunt had said.

She said that no news had traveled back to the palace yet, and that it was only good news. However, it couldn't be considered to be good. She was shocked that it was actually day time.

I think I'm free to go to the northwest and find you.

He placed his hands behind his back and faced the northwest side as he said the word 'peace'.

When the palace maids came to clean up, I listened attentively to their conversation. The people they talked about in private were merely the ones favored by the emperor last night. I had never been interested in such things.

I knew that they did it on purpose. When he sent them to look after me, he thought that I might receive some sort of reward, but I was so depressed that I insisted on living my own life. The two of them couldn't hold on any longer, and since they could leave due to an order, they would stand by my side as if to say who was the Emperor with.

"Lu Shui, what do you think happened to the emperor?"

"I don't know either?" Another palace maid sighed. "Imperial Concubine Mu requested to see the emperor for two days straight. It's really strange that the emperor has never seen her. His favorite person is Imperial Concubine Mu, but now he's begging and not seeing her."

"I heard a little about what happened to the Third Marquis in the northwest. Imperial Concubine Mu probably wanted to tell the emperor these things. The emperor doesn't like to hear anything about him anymore."

"Imperial Concubine Mu wouldn't be so tactless, but it's hard to say. Hehe, right now, the imperial concubines are all prettier than the last, and the emperor likes beauties too. If we had gone along with Miss Shangguan, we wouldn't have to stay here and do such bitter things."

"Exactly."

Seeing that they were fine, the two palace maids went out.

I put down the book in my hands and rubbed my eyebrows. My eyes were filled with anxiety. Something must have happened. Imperial Concubine Mu had feelings for Xia Junchang and didn't even like her. Could it be that we can only wait?

No, I have to find out. I can't let him go.

I care a lot, I am in the heart but do not know to fly to the far northwest, eager to know his current news, wait a moment more, the pain in the heart will be more.

I never wanted to see Imperial Concubine Mu again. It's true that she was in love with Xia Junchang, but it wasn't false that she set me up to be in such a state.

I used to hate her too, but I couldn't help it. She was a poor woman, doted on by a man, and yet she was thinking of a man, and even if they were old together, it wouldn't be easy.

I don't want to be hateful all the time, it's so heavy, it won't let me find my own peace and happiness.

I used to think, she won't let go, what is she fighting for? Did she think she could have it? But now, what right did I have to think like that? What am I? Even though I shouldn't think about him anymore, hearing these bad news still made me unable to sit still.