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After drinking the medicine, his thoughts became a little blurry, and he slowly began to lose track of everything.

Perhaps it was because he was thinking about his child, even when he was unconscious. Thus, he didn't sleep as long as Rinloran thought he would.

When I opened my eyes, I was the only one in the huge room. White smoke curled out of the elegant and noble mouth of the crane.

What entered his eyes was a white hanging curtain, a red pillar wood, and a simple yet elegant layout. This was not a palace.

I felt my stomach tighten around my waist. How could I do that? A child cannot be bound.

He wanted to call for help, but when he heard someone speaking, he shouted louder and louder, "How can he keep on lying to me? He kept on cheating her. He knows that he has never offended her before."

This was Xia Junchang's voice, filled with anger, as if he was suppressing his anger.

"Calm down. Have you forgotten your own identity and mufei?"

Tell me, if I leave, you will help me take good care of Zhi Qiu. You took care of her like this, Rinloran, I really look down on you. You even said that Zhi Qiu was a friend that stood out from the masses, but what did you do to her? You also said that I shouldn't have sent her here. Rinloran, do you know that Zhiqiu is lying in a pool of blood? I even want to kill all of those people. This is a conspiracy, and she knows that Qiu shouldn't be the person behind the plot. She's so innocent, she's so innocent. " Xia Junchang was getting more and more agitated as he spoke.

Lin Luoshui seemed a bit helpless as he said, "Jun Tang, you and I are friends, but I am just an official. Do you think I don't want to? I'm not allowed to enter the palace. Even if I do, there are still dozens of people following me. Do you think I can see her? Even if I saw her, what would you say? She looked happy, her face was bright, she didn't ask for anything, she didn't even sink into her sorrow anymore. You don't know what her life was like after you left, she broke her bones, she gave birth to a small child, she was almost dead.

I suddenly burst into tears. A lot of sorrowful tears also burst out.

I thought it was over, but it was still hidden in the corner of my heart.

"But now." Xia Junchang did not finish.

Lin Luoshui said, "Actually, if I gave her a dream, she could be happy, she could be happy. I don't think it's necessary to expose her, it's just that right now, we can't say anything, there are too many things we have to worry about. Wouldn't she be more upset when she found out? Right now, there are only two paths placed in front of her. You two are very clear which one is the one you want her to walk on. "

When Rinloran told me about my past, I cried even harder. As for the future, I didn't think about it too much. I thought he was trying to trick me into telling me that the baby was all right, but was that the choice? The paper will never wrap up, and I will always know.

My child, it must be gone. The people I care about the most the most are gone before they even come into this world. I even think about when he was trying to learn, and how when he called me mother, both male and female, they would be the ones I loved the most, the ones I could love and entrust my whole life to, and then they would be gone?

Opening my mouth, I started to silently cry, but no matter how I cried, I couldn't make a sound. Even my heart started to tremble.

Could it be that I did something wrong, that I was destined to have no children, that I was destined to suffer pain again and again? Was it because of the previous one, that I really followed my fate and didn't properly protect him?

Heartache, sour, despair, what use is crying, my child will not come back, big tears from the corner of my eye, wet pillow, burning my eyes.

Why didn't those people act a little more ruthlessly? Even I was able to deal with them and make me taste this heart-wrenching pain alone.

"I'll go see Zhi Qiu." he said weakly.

Not long after, the door creaked open and I turned my head and pretended to be asleep.

He sat in front of the bed for a long time before he gently wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with one hand. "Zhiqiu, only when you are asleep will you shed tears. Zhiqiu, don't be afraid. I believe you can walk over here."

Don't say it, please don't say it, the more I say it, the more I want to cry.

"Zhiqiu, don't cry." He laughed softly, "Yun Zhiqiu, whom I know, is the strongest woman. He has a calm and unhurried heart, and a determination that belongs to her. The thing that I regret the most in my life is that I have brought you into the palace. "

Unfortunately, life only regrets when it is lost.

"Greetings, your Imperial Majesty." Suddenly, he heard Rinloran's resounding voice from outside.

I was getting anxious, but Xia Junchang had no intention of leaving.

"Where's Yun Cai?" he roared.

Lin Luoshui said, "Yuncai Zhenren encountered an assassin and is currently sleeping in his room after eating medicine. He will probably need a few more minutes to wake up."

"That's all?" he asked coldly.

Lin Luoshui said, "Yuncai's people have already become a small fortune."

That was like a blow to my heart. Although he knew it, he still didn't want to accept this fact.

He said: "Very good, Imperial Physician Lin's medical skills are the best. I am relieved that the three kings sent Yun Cai here."

When the door was opened by his father-in-law, Xia Junchang was still sitting in front of the bed.

"Go out." He spoke indifferently, with no trace of anger in his tone.

Xia Junchang didn't leave right away. He merely gave a cold snort and wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, saying in a low voice, "Zhiqiu, love yourself dearly."

He stood up and walked out, speaking rudely to the emperor. "Is this what you call love?"

"There's no need for you to interfere in my matters. Men, escort the three kings back to the third prince's residence."

The room became much quieter. He sat by the bed and grabbed my hand from inside, tightly gripping it. My hand trembled slightly, and he said softly, "Zhiqiu, there's also Zhen. Don't be sad, there's also Zhen …"

He kept repeating this, and it hurt me.

I opened my eyes and wept silently.

He lowered his face, and his face gently caressed mine. He warmed my face with his warmth, bit by bit. "Zhiqiu, we will still have children. I will tell you in my capacity as emperor that our children will be safe and sound."

In an instant, some of the built up weakness collapsed. I leaned my head back against his neck and cried, "I want my child."

"Shh, don't cry. If you cry again, the child will be sad. Have you heard of it? Every single soul that had yet to be born had actually already learned how to perceive one's mood. "Zhiqiu, we will still have children. There are many, many children born. Some are like you, while others are like me. This is great."

I nodded, choking, but my heart was in a mess.

We have no children, can we still tolerate each other? But without children, what would I have to be happy to be by your side?

When I opened my eyes and looked at him, his face was filled with sincerity. He held my hand and kissed my fingertips.

He pulled back his sleeves and stuffed his wrist into my mouth, "If you feel bad, bite me and let me know how painful your heart is. If I didn't love you too much and didn't care about you too much, I wouldn't have let you be like this.

I bit, took a deep bite, and let go of his hand.

"Ai, crying makes me feel heartache. I will not let those people who hurt Zhi Qiu go. Let's return to the palace." His hands gently wiped away my tears. "I still remember when you left this morning, how you were so bashful and touching, and how you kissed the rosy blush on my face."

I shook my head. "I'm not going back to the palace. I want to go home." I was afraid to go to court, and I will always remember what the woman said.

"Then go home." He spoke with a great deal of tolerance.

Because his wounds weren't suitable for him to move around, he stayed in the Lin Clan for two days. Aside from some urgent matters, he would often come to the Lin Clan to accompany me.

Perhaps, he came, but he did not see me. Currently, a large number of imperial guards, eunuchs and palace maids were stationed in the Lin Residence.

I always think about Xia Junchang's last words, Zhiqiu, love yourself.

To love oneself, that was such a lonely thing. When the people closest to me, one by one, left me, I was in great pain, and the Emperor came to accompany me, to undress himself as a king, like a man in love, to tell me something interesting, to amuse me, and when I woke up cold and sweaty, he was still at my side.

I think, he really is very important to me, I want to rely on him, he is good to me, very good, very good, he really loves me.

Two days later, the mighty people left the Lin Clan. He carried me while we sat on the emperor's carriage, saying that he wouldn't be able to open the wound like this.

When we arrived at the house, the furnishings were still the same as before, but much cleaner. However, I could tell that the window and table had all changed. He carried me upstairs and said smilingly, "There's going to be a surprise for you later?"

I smiled and put my head in his arms.

When we reached my room, it was not as grand as before. All the utensils were the last, with a small bamboo basket hanging from the ceiling, and a cat's head peeking out, meowing and hanging from the soft cotton roof.

"A lazy cat like its owner, it should stay with its owner. I've asked Yang Yan. This cat is called 'Ball'."

"Thank you." My heart was filled with joy and emotion.

Instead, his face hardened. "What are you doing? "What are you?"

"You are the Emperor."

"Except for the status of the Emperor?" He had to ask.

"Husband." I said softly.

He let out a sigh of relief and said, "This kind of person is cute." Put me down on the soft couch. "What would you like to eat? I'll get someone to do it for you. "

"Don't be so nice to me." I want to open the window and let the cold wind in, to wake me up, to let me know why he is so good to me, and I still feel empty inside, always feeling like I'm dreaming.

He pinched my face unhappily. "It's always like this. Don't give yourself any confidence."

"Hehe, after all, your palace has so many beauties. I, Yun Zhiqiu, am truly too unremarkable." Truly, that was why his favor was not very stable.

He smiled and kissed my face, making me drool. "If liking a person means loving her looks, then I'm a shallow person. I don't know why, but I've been attracted by you like this. Yun Zhiqiu, tell me, are you a demoness? What are you trying to do?"

I looked at his half-serious face and couldn't help but laugh. I closed my eyes and touched his warm face, trying to remember every single detail of it.

I was so empty that I needed to remember something. He was kind to me, and I didn't mind remembering him.

A warm kiss, little by little from the corner of my lips to warm my heart.

But he is the emperor after all, so he can't always accompany me. He said it's good to be here too, to be able to let me feel at ease, to not have to worry about anything else, to have him at all times.

As for the child, we didn't mention anything, nor did we want to talk about it anymore. The wound in my stomach healed day by day, and he was still very good to me, but for some reason, when Jing Jing was alone, she would feel extremely lonely.

The sound of the jade flute once again rang out. In the evening, the wind was driven away by the wind.

Xia Junchang was the one blowing it. No matter how loud or soft the sound was, I could still understand it.

His flute was full of concern, and I turned my head and asked the maid to bring me my lute.

Forget it, it's better not to meet each other, for your own good, and I don't want to break the peace now. I'm greedy for the happiness now, and I'm afraid that if I walk alone, I'll be surrounded by endless grief, making it hard for me to breathe. The palace maid brought the zither, I gently, very softly, the sound is faint like a whisper, if there is a heart, he will hear what I say.

At the door, the palace maid happily said, "Master Dai, the emperor has arrived."

I raised my head and saw that he had already strode to the entrance with a pleasant smile on his face. "I have not yet arrived, but I have already heard the sound of the zither. It is indeed very melodious."

He thought about how funny and famous he had been that time because he wanted to meet Xia Junchang for Lu Yao. Alas, there were too many heaven's wishes that couldn't be changed, so he decided to get used to it and enjoy himself.

I stood up carefully and went to meet him. "I didn't think you'd come this late."

"If I didn't come over, how could I have heard such a beautiful melody?" He took my shoulder and walked over to the piano. "Play some more music for me."

"What does the Emperor want to hear?" I asked, looking up at him.

He pulled the cat out of the basket and said evilly, "If there's anything exciting or disturbing, you can play whatever you want. Look at your ball, it's so round and fat that I think it's a dog. No matter when I come, it's always sleeping, you lazy cat."

The cat meowed as he pulled it, perhaps protesting that it wasn't a lazy cat.

I smiled. "He likes to sleep freely, but he's really too fat. In the time it takes to jump down and drink two mouthfuls of tea a day, he lies on the ground and closes his eyes."

"You have cat hair on your bed?" He cried out in alarm.

"Just now, it jumped up to hide for a while. I had the palace maids come and clean it up." I was made to jump up and down by him, and I enjoyed his company every day.

He picked up the cat and put it back in his arms. Luckily, the cat was a light animal, so it went to the side lightly, on its front paws. It looked at me with its round eyes and then at him with its guarded eyes.

"Cat, you care about him too." He really was a child.

"Of course, that is my position. If it dares to jump on it, next time, I will skin it. If you don't like it, I will open the window and have someone throw it out into the river."

So there was a tendency for violence, my poor ball, to shrink even further.

I shook my head and smiled helplessly. "You, I'll play a song to calm you down."

"That's fine too. Sigh, Zhi Qiu, I've looked at you. But I don't know why, but I feel a bit guilty. Why are you getting thinner and thinner?" Zhi Qiu, don't think too much, okay? " He stroked my sharp chin, his eyes filled with heartache. "Zhiqiu, don't think about the past anymore. We need to think about the future and take good care of our bodies."

"I know." "I will take care of my body. There must always be some time before I can forget about the past."

He waved a jade pendant from his sleeve and said, "Zhiqiu, this is beautiful. When we were refurbishing this house, we found it among the logs at the corners."

It was half a white jade pendant. It was perfectly round and clean with only one side. It was hard to tell what was engraved on the pendant. I tried to think, "I don't remember having these things at home."

"Of course you won't be able to find it. They said that it was found downstairs in the corner of the third room after the palace was renovated and the old wood was replaced. Hiding something so secretive must be important, so they presented it."

Even I wouldn't bring her in, so I wasn't very good at embroidery. I put it away and said, "I'll play a song for His Majesty."

The eunuch served tea and quietly went down to wait at the door. He took a sip and lightly said, "Zhiqiu, can you hear that someone is playing the flute?"

I thought about it and said, "I can hear it."

"It's him!" he said calmly.

I looked up at him, his face in the tea cage, his eyes lowered to my strings, and I couldn't tell what he was thinking.

I nodded again. "Probably."

He suddenly raised his head and smiled, "Do you want to see him? Zhiqiu? Go on, I was just about to take a nap. "Remember to ask the palace maid to gather some furs for you. It's cold outside."

I was a little frightened, and his words seemed incredible to me.

He was suspicious before, but now he's actually magnanimous enough to let me see Xia Junchang.

I still hate him, and I also blame him. I still want to see Xia Junchang, but now that he let me see him, I shook my head, "It's already getting late and we're going to have dinner. It's cold outside, so I don't want to go out."

He smiled, his beautiful eyes extremely gentle. "Eunuch Chen, bring me the clothes of a fox fur coat."