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My lord, a man I had hated, a man I had thought of, burned, and died, who had been hurt and would never come to see me.

How could a proud heart allow such a blow?

Who owed who, who could say?

He woke up in a daze and ate something with his mouth full of food.

She sobbed as she pleaded, "Empress, I beg you to eat something. You can't not eat or drink."

I'm not determined to die, I'm really unable to eat.

The congee in my mouth can't be swallowed. I borrowed her strength to get up. I can't sit here anymore. The wound on my butt hasn't healed yet. I can only lie on my stomach and drink a few mouthfuls of water before collapsing.

"I'm fine." I said weakly, "I'm just very tired. Just let me rest for a few days."

It's just a board, what's so great about it, what's the pain I've never suffered, and now I can't get up, it's the pain in my face, it hurts my heart.

She no longer tried to dissuade me, but the pain in her eyes was real.

Day after day, I lay on my bed for who knows how many days. I gripped the wolf fang in my fingers and let the sharp side pierce into my palm. Only then would I be calmer and more real.

When I fully recovered, I was so thin that I was trembling. Sitting there, I felt my heart skip a beat. There was no longer any snow outside my window.

I scratched at the edge of the window, the broken window paper, unable to block out the cold.

"Empress." The reason why she brought hot water over was, "Empress, have some water."

I did my best to give him my most brilliant smile. "The reason is that in the future, don't call me 'Empress' anymore. I'm not." It belongs to the past. Before the New Year, I have already buried all of my memories in the past.

Those who have gone through all the suffering are not gods, but themselves.

She went out in silence, and I touched my face, dry and stinging.

He got off the bed and grabbed the hot water on the table. He sipped it until his heart felt warm.

The curses of a baby came from outside, loud and clear in the cold palace.

I went outside, chopping firewood with my axe. I sat on the doorstep and looked at it. "Why? Didn't someone send us food?"

"The melting of snow can be very cold. The reason is because I picked up those tree branches and came back. I'm waiting for the melting of snow to make way …" She looked at me and said no more about the Empress. "Let the Young Miss not be cold."

"It's good to have you by my side." I sighed. This was really a blessing I had gotten from my previous life.

"The reason is not good at all." She hacked hard, almost with an ax, and the firewood split in half. I didn't know a woman could have such strength.

She didn't look much older than me.

I sized up the reason for this. "Why did you follow me to the Cold Palace? You are meticulous in your work there and have never offended anyone. Unless you are in the Cold Palace, you have a better place to go to."

I asked it at random, but even I felt a little odd at the end.

That's right, why would she follow me and suffer? The hearts of the people in the palace, to be honest, there aren't many women that are good.

The reason why he wiped the sweat off his face, and carefully said: "Miss knows the reason very well, and does not regard it as a servant. In the palace, what servant wants is not luxurious food, and does not want any boundless prospects, so she wants to have her own respect. Living is already very enjoyable, following Miss is also a blessing, and she has also read some books, so she knows what it means to share hardships with others."

After saying that, she made me sweat a little. I felt that I was really petty. Why would I suspect the reason? If she had harmed me, she would have killed me long ago. Why would she follow me to the Cold Palace?

He lowered his head guiltily and heard the baby's cry again. "How can there be a child's cry? Is it because my ears aren't good? I'm hallucinating."

He shook his head and said, "No, miss. The crippled Li Fei isn't far from here. She gave birth to a daughter and is still in the cold palace. "

"Why?" No matter what, he was still the emperor's flesh and blood. Why didn't he send him out of the palace?

It was not good to raise things in the cold palace, there were many things that were not as good as those that came from the palace. It was not bad to keep things that were not good to keep in the cold palace, there were many things that were not as good to eat or use.

"Miss, before she died, Li Fei was very unruly and overbearing. She had offended many people in the palace and no one wanted to help her bring a child. If they were to take revenge on her, she wouldn't be able to break away from it. "Moreover, he's a child that neither the emperor nor the empress dowager likes."

He didn't like her, even hated her, but what was wrong with the child?

Alas, the Cold Palace was located in the valley, looking up to the mountain peaks and watching the flowers bloom, each of them fighting for love. After standing there for a long time, he finally understood that the flowers bloomed for a few springs, and once every three years, there would always be a beautiful person who entered.

I wondered if I should be glad that I was no longer pregnant, or else there would be endless involvement.

I am a selfish person. I smiled and said, "The reason is because it is getting late. You should go back first." Although there were still some empty houses, they were extremely run-down. There weren't even any quilts. Therefore, they had to return to the palace where the ladies lived.

Having a daughter, Li Fei battled, but she was still only a daughter. If it was a prince, who knows how many worries she would have to worry about.

The sky was dark. I stood up and went in. The food was already cold and was placed on the wooden table. I ate some and put down my chopsticks.

Xu, Lu Yao, I don't need to worry. Although the empress dowager wants to kill me, she is still quite good to Xu. After all, she is the eldest son of the emperor.

It was now completely quiet as he hugged the blanket and slept.

The snow in February was so cold that it passed, and in the cold spring of March the crying of the baby came again, and finally the sun came down, and I saw that the bare leaves were beginning to sprout some green.

I still don't like to go out of the yard, I always like to rub against things to doze off, either a door or a wall.

It wasn't until April that I woke up to the green. "Miss, don't sleep anymore. Look at the birds dancing."

I glanced at it, closed my eyes, and muttered, "I'm so sleepy."

"Miss, you will be sleeping all day, only then will you get more tired the more you sleep." She disagreed.

"I'm just sleepy. I just want to sleep, is that not okay?" He didn't even want to open his eyes.

In the cold palace, no one will pester me anymore, no one will pester me, no one will hurt me, even the empress dowager who wanted to kill me didn't have the intention to kill me anymore.

I snickered inside, rubbing against the corner of the wall. I still wanted to sleep more.

Last night, for some reason, a man looked at the stars and saw that his eyes were filled with tears.

"Miss, don't try to find excuses, we should just go for a walk."

"No, spring is for sleeping." Spring sleep, spring sleep, in the cold palace can also be very happy, because do not worry about eating, drink, do not work, want to sleep, hungry also have food, compared to my previous family life of distress really much better.

The reason was that he couldn't even move me. He could only sigh and didn't say anything else.

But after a while she came back and said, "Miss, you can go to sleep. Good man Qiao is here."

These words almost made me drop my head to the ground. It can't be, there are people coming to see me in the Cold Palace.

I wiped my eyes. It's true.

Lady João stood timidly in the doorway of the wooden courtyard, looking at me. She was dressed in white and looked sweetly clean. She carried a basket in her hand and stood outside with two maids.

I looked at her and she looked at me. I smiled.

She said very softly, "I came to see you."

"Hur hur, thank you. I'm doing very well." He was really considerate.

"May I come in?" she asked outside.

I was stunned and then smiled. "Come in!"

In their eyes, there is no need for respect for the people of the Cold Palace. As I have been used to it, I found it strange that there would suddenly be someone being so polite to me.

The reason why he invited her in was to heat up the tea in his cup.

Qiao Liang was still as beautiful as ever. His sweet face only had a little more beauty and maturity to it.

Without further ado, she took out the pastries in the basket, plate by plate. She even said somewhat bashfully, "I wonder if the Empress still likes the pastries made by Qiao Feng?"

I smiled. "Master Qiao, stop calling me a good man from now on. My title has long since been destroyed. Thank you for coming to see me. I'm really happy. This dessert is really beautiful. It really makes one happy. Is it troublesome when it's time to do it?"

She smiled shyly, then shook her head.

I took a piece of fruit cake and bit down on it. The sweet and sour taste of the cake immediately filled my sense of taste. I swallowed it in one gulp. "It's really delicious."

"Is that so?" She smiled sweetly, as if she was relieved. "I'm really afraid that elder sister would not like this smell. I haven't done it for quite a while. The weather has turned warmer these few days, so I've only made a few moves."

I chuckled lightly and mischievously said, "I'm really blessed to have received your gift the moment you released it."

She lowered her head in embarrassment. There was still flour in her fingertips. She also noticed that she had quickly retracted her hand so that I wouldn't be able to see it. Then, she softly said, "I came specially to thank elder sister."

"Why are you thanking me? Hur Hur." I didn't take it to heart at all.

She raised her head, and very seriously said: "Feng'er has to admit, when Feng'er gave the perfume to Big Sister, he had other intentions, but because Feng'er's scheming wasn't right, he didn't dare to harm Big Sister. If Big Sister hadn't come out to plead for Feng'er that day, I'm afraid that Feng'er would have already …" She bit her lip and stopped talking.

Her eyes were slightly blinking wet. The wounds from that time were a huge blow to her.

"Let's not talk about it anymore. The past is over. Look, the leaves have fallen. Spring has come and they have sprouted a tender green. They will even burst out into brilliance. It's so beautiful, isn't it?" I narrowed my eyes and enjoyed the pastry.

The reason hummed lightly. "Miss would say that now, why do you think you can't see spring coming?"

Alas, there's someone holding me back.

I said smilingly, "You don't have to be sad about it, Qiao Liang. Don't treat yourself badly in the palace. You have to take care of yourself. See how good you can make delicious snacks." I can't do anything, not even in the cold palace.

"It's good that big sister likes it." Her eyes were red, and tears fell drop by drop onto the table.

She really was a water monster, but that was too simple. It wasn't good at all in the palace.

She only wanted the Emperor's favor, and that was no mistake.

I searched around in my sleeve and finally found the handkerchief and gave it to her. "Don't cry anymore. If you cry, I won't dare to eat it."

She wiped away her tears in panic. "I won't cry, I won't cry. If elder sister likes snacks, Feng'er will often make them."

"Really?" My eyes lit up.

She probably didn't think I'd like it and nodded vigorously.

"Hehe, that's really great. I really like the dessert you made. It's sweet, but not greasy. It has the fragrance of a fruit, and it's sweet and sour. Before, I couldn't even buy one if I wanted to eat it." As expected of the most delicious real pastries in Jiangnan, the Qiao family. I stuck out my tongue and said a little embarrassedly.

Tears welled up in her eyes again as she hurriedly wiped them away. "I will definitely make the best for big sister."

She was rather grateful to me, and I was quite pleased with her arrival. There was good food to eat.

The reason why I said it one after another was because I was still cautious and advised, "Miss is still a little bit young lady. You're in the cold palace now, it's too easy for others to hurt you."

"Ai, she is not easy either. She treats me so well, don't worry. Although I often leave when I see people, Qiao Feng will not harm me."

"Miss, you think everyone is a good person."

I nodded. I did not deny this: "Yes, I don't like to think of people as bad people, because, well, people tend to be kind, and what she went through, she can also say that she had to learn to be a good girl for a while. For some reason, being a bad person is very tiring, and one would not remember how those people treated her well when she was at her best. She will remember who pulled her when she most needed help. " This was called providing coal in the middle of a snowstorm.

So Qiao Feng is very grateful to me, she won't harm me, there are some things that I can truly remember for the rest of my life.

The reason was that he didn't want to say anything else and just let me eat.

When she left the cold palace, I noticed that her shoulders were drooped, as if she were very, very tired.

I had said that Luyao was my good sister, but the reason for that was that the palace would never have any sisters, that it was too tiring to suspect anyone, and that the result was not what I wanted to see, and that I didn't want to change the situation.

So I'd rather learn how to believe the same thing, and always get more relief and happiness.

To kill someone in the palace was too light and easy.

Death is very simple. If you add some deadly poison to the pastries, you won't have the power to reverse the situation.

But I don't know if he will forgive me for hurting him if I die, after all these months have passed.

First, Joel came to see me. She was only grateful to me for saving her life, for no other reason.

What I didn't expect was that even Imperial Concubine Mu came.

This time, he brought back some news about Xia Junchang.