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Even though they knew of some strong connections, the palace wasn't just a single word. Those two mouths formed completely unrelated thoughts.

But I can't bear to let the child suffer like this. Li Fei didn't have a palace maid to take care of her, and I was fortunate enough to have a reason to live without worry. Perhaps Empress Dowager Leng could ignore me, but once it involved Li Fei's child, I couldn't help but get someone to bring it up again.

So what? She wanted to kill me. She was the Empress Dowager, and that was something I could not disobey. But I also wanted to know, in his heart, if there really was such a entanglement.

Can't a single Emperor even protect a single woman? Then isn't it ridiculous to talk about love and not let you go no matter what?

Yes, I only brought a few days of children, but my father-in-law already sent me out. The one who saw me this time is Lu Yao.

His relationship with Lu Yao was like that of a sister, but over time, it also seemed to slowly fade away.

When my father-in-law told me this, he said, "Miss, it's good that I'm here with my child."

"Then let's wait a while longer. She'll be sleeping soon." Like Xu, she also liked to stick close to me, because I would play with her, sleep with her, feed her, and make her happy.

The queen sent me over, perhaps because of this child, and I must protect her.

Following the eunuch out of the cold palace towards the Phoenix Palace, the scenery outside the palace during the day was really like a painting. Even the baby could not take his eyes off it.

"Esteemed Empress, Yun Zhiqiu is here." The eunuch reported from outside.

Lu Yao's voice rose faintly, "Announce her and bring her in."

What surprised me when I went in was the change in her. It was too big, her belly was round like a ball, and there was a smile on her lips. It was gentle yet holy.

I looked at her and was surprised. She gently greeted me, "Zhi Qiu, come here."

The mama, who was standing, brought me a chair and asked me to sit beside Luyao. She had a gentle and happy expression on her face as she said, "Zhiqiu, you haven't changed."

"Heh." I smiled and finally understood.

This should be a very normal thing. Lu Yao is the Queen, and he's a young girl. Of course, he'll have her child, but in my heart, there's an incomparable bitterness. Everyone can be a mother, but I can't.

Really sad ah, I always tell myself, the state of mind must be a bit more peaceful, but I can not help but feel uncomfortable every time.

"Zhiqiu." She stuck out her tongue embarrassedly: "Recently your body has gotten better, and your fetus has stabilized a bit, so you can see people, but you must suffer in the cold palace, I told people to go and tell them, I can't let you eat less, they did bully you." she asked me with concern.

Although it's still the same as before, and I don't really care about the status issue, but I feel like we've all changed, a little estranged.

"Thank you for worrying about me. It's fine, I'm doing fine."

She bit her lip and sighed lightly, "Zhiqiu, you're so stupid. How can you be so persistent and bold?"

I was stunned and let out a heavy sigh. I don't know why I was so bold and so persistent. Perhaps I was too lonely and wanted to have an outlet in my heart. I also wanted to seek my own happiness.

It was I who was jealous, I who saw that there was someone at the side of the Emperor who walked alongside him, and I was only a substitute, and I was sore, and then I shrank back, and when the man who had hidden in my heart gave me hope, I seized it with all my might.

Yes, I also want to be happy, I also want to grab hold of it, but unfortunately, it is just my own delusions.

But there's no use talking about it now. I don't want to talk about the past anymore.

Smiling at her, he said, "Lu Yao is really good. How many months has the child been?"

She blushed a little and said softly, "It's been five months, but I've been tormented to death, you know? It's not easy to say that you're pregnant with a child, but you can't say it for the first three months. But the child made me sick, so I just threw up, ate nothing, and felt warm and uncomfortable. The doctor gave me four months of rest and only now I feel better. " She looked down at her belly. The tenderness in her eyes was as charming as spring water in April.

Being tormented was also a type of happiness. I had experienced this, too, but it had been so brief and painful that I had barely grasped the memories and the child was gone.

"That's great." "No," I said softly.

I've thought it through and I've helped the emperor. I've been like this for the rest of my life, a woman, before marriage, can have a small amount of herself, but now that I have a child, it's always different. A woman's life is just like this, you told me to let it go before, but now I want to advise you to stop being so infatuated.

"That's great." Why do I only know these two words when I go back and forth? I'm not even allowed to be obsessed right now. I don't want to talk about those things anymore. The thorn made me hide it well. I don't want to pull it out and hurt it a little more.

People really can change, no matter how lively and happy they were before, or how straightforward and casual they were before, the days would change a person. Yesterday, we were still young and immature, but today we sat together with different feelings.

But I was truly happy. Luyao had finally let go of himself now, so that he could accompany the emperor properly. This way, she would be happier. I also felt happy for her. She was my good big sister.

"In the cold palace, he's not as fat as before." She looked at me carefully. "I thought you'd take good care of yourself."

I smiled. "My body is fine and my spirit is quite good."

She instructed the palace maid to bring in some snacks, or else she sent everyone away with a sigh like that. "Oh you, no matter how far away you are, you will only laugh at me. Zhi Qiu, I am going to be a mother now. I am so happy." She laughed secretly.

I knew she was happy. I already felt her joy.

"Zhiqiu, we won't talk about the past anymore, but I have to tell you, the emperor still has feelings for you, don't be angry about it. We are all women, no matter how many times we don't want to, we will live in this palace our entire lives, until we die of old age. Something too far away, you really shouldn't think about it. " She sincerely advised me, "As a sister, I don't want to see you suffer like this."

I lowered my head and didn't say anything. Some emotions, some things, it didn't mean that I could start over just by lowering my head. Although I knew I owed him, that I had hurt him, I was trying to make up for it.

"Zhi Qiu, come to my side. Take care of me." She took my hand. "Don't be afraid, I will protect you. With me here, no one can hurt you. We sisters will take good care of the emperor in the palace."

"My heart trembles slightly as I raise my eyes to look into Lu Yao's serious eyes. My heart is especially warm." "Thank you."

"What are you thanking me for? No matter what the reason is, I think that you will still be fine by my side."

"But I can't, I don't want to, Lu Yao, I won't take care of people, and I don't want to burden you, but now that you have a baby, you have to be even more careful in the imperial harem. The people who hurt us in the past have yet to find out who they are, but they are still hiding in the palace, I would rather she target me than let anything happen to you." What do I have to say for myself? But Luyao is different. She has a child, so she's going to be the Queen Mother. Don't let anything happen to her.

Lu Yao shook his head, "I'm not afraid. No one in the harem dares to touch me."

"But I'm afraid." I smiled. "I know what you're thinking, thank you very much."

"You are stubborn, but how can I say hello? Don't tell me you'll stay in the Cold Palace all your life? "

"I don't know either. We should just take it step by step." You have to take good care of your body, and then you have to give birth to a fat child. "

"That's right, it would be best if it was a prince." She smiled. "Then I can give the Lu Family an explanation."

Really, it was an explanation to call the child, but she still looked at her belly with eyes that were not full of love.

Speaking of the child, she sternly said, "Zhiqiu, Li Fenger's daughter, I heard that you are carrying her now, did you forget the pain? I see you, you really can't be so stubborn, it's fine that you can't see the child. If you want to take her, you can leave the cold palace, and I'll give her to you, but Li Fenger's child can't be touched, and the emperor doesn't like it, and the empress dowager doesn't like it, and so many people in the palace hate her, and if anything happens to the child, you can't escape it either."

I understand all the relationships she's talking about, and I know it's a problem, but when you think about those smiling dark eyes, that innocent baby face really doesn't have any hate.

"It's okay, I really like that child. I don't care what her mother did, I can really let go of my hatred for her. I even want to forget about the people I hate the most, let alone her. There is nothing wrong with the child. " Looking at the rising sun, I said, "Luyao, if there's nothing else, I'll head back first." I don't know if the child will cry after a while.

"I'm only warning you, Zhi Qiu. Don't let others harm you. The people in the palace aren't the same as you."

I smiled sweetly. "I will be more careful. Luyao, don't worry too much about me. Instead, you should take care of yourself now that you've been here for over five months."

"I will, just wait to be an aunt."

"Is it a gift? Luyao, I'm so poor." I cried plaintively.

She couldn't hold back her laughter. "You can just help me take care of my child in the future. Just call him aunt. You have to teach him how to sing, and you have to teach him how to play the zither."

I frowned and said bitterly, "It can't be, you're still playing the zither?" He planned to raise her as his daughter.

"Of course, child of the imperial family, which zither, chess, calligraphy, and painting are not proficient in everything? Who asked you to be the number one zither lady in the capital?"

She laughed at me again. She was the one who got the name.

"Alright, alright, I'll go back first. I'm waiting to be an aunt, waiting for your little darling to be born. We'll talk later, it's sweet to call you 'mother'. My aunt is so beautiful, I like her."

She spat at me, "Shameless person, your skin is really thick. I will get someone to send you back."

"No need, I know the way."

Of course, I would rather avoid some trouble and avoid some people.

Entering the palace, he walked around the forest and didn't smell any alcohol. He felt more comfortable and ran back to his room like a wisp of smoke. The child really started crying.

It was bad, alas, perhaps she had been upset.

I held her as I walked in circles around her before she started laughing. She didn't ask me what Lu Yao wanted me to do.

In the evening, Eunuch Chen came in with a smile on his face again. He said happily, "Did the emperor send Miss over again?"

"Yes." Eunuch Chen said with a smile, "Miss Yun, please carry the child and follow this old servant."

Strange, didn't he dislike children? That's great, he even told me to hold him.

Then let's go. It still hurts from biting my shoulder. I looked at Eunuch Chen with some grievance. "Are we going to change the medicine again?"

He said nothing and blinked innocently.

Sure enough, you had to change your medicine before you came to invite me. Alright, I'll bring my child over to have a feast. In the cold palace, even the food isn't tasty. Even though someone was taking care of me, I still felt that it wasn't good.

It really was a good meal, a light and light stew that was easy to swallow.

He was not there, but several ladies waited on him.

I doubtfully asked Eunuch Chen, "Is this change of medicine more painful than putting on a jade plate?"

He broke into a laugh. "No, that's not it. His Majesty's injuries have already healed quite a bit."

That's good. Don't make me feel uneasy.

Seeing the food, the little child in his embrace brandished his little hand and was about to eat.

I sat with her in my arms, scooped up the soup, blew on it until it was cold, and fed it to her.

"Good girl, eat more. Don't scratch my clothes, don't scratch."

Eh, that's not right. She clearly grabbed my hand with her two hands and wanted me to quickly bring food into her mouth. There was someone pulling on my clothes from behind. She turned around and saw a pitiful little person looking at me. "Yes."

My eyes lit up. "Jiaji, come, let's carry you. You're already so big, you can walk now. Come and carry me."

He probably recognized me, a pair of black eyes were not afraid of me, I really like to see him ah, but who knew that before my small hands grabbed him, the one in my arms was already crying loudly.

A pair of eyes stared at me until I was crying. I was speechless. Why are children like this?

She tugged at my clothes and tugged at my hand. "Bag."

"Ah!" This one cried even louder.

She knew that children would fight for love, but she was really afraid that I would abandon her and pick up another child.

"If you had to choose one, which one would you want?" There was a faint hint of ridicule in his voice.

I sighed with a headache as I watched him casually lean against the door to admire the scene. I guess he did it on purpose.

Lin Shangyi gave it to me, and my feelings for him are deeper, but this one is a poor child.