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When talking about happiness, jingbao'er's heart seems to be pricked by something.

Because she couldn't help thinking of rolchen at that moment.

I remember that my happiness is based on the pain of rolchen.

Thinking of these, jingbao'er's original happiness and happiness disappeared in a flash.

Stay in the heart, only full of guilt and heartache.

In the past two years, she has really relied on rolchen's support and encouragement, company and dedication to stick to the present situation step by step.

Rolchen is equivalent to Jing Baoer's rebirth parents.

It was rolchen who gave her Jingbao's second life.

Without rolchen, Jing bao'er didn't know what he would be like. Maybe he would have died in a foreign land, or he would have been defeated by the severe depression, and then he would have been crazy all his life.

She builds her happiness on the pain of a man who pays for herself wholeheartedly. Jingbao'er really feels that she is sinful.

How happy she is now, how miserable rolchen will be now.

Jing bao'er even knows that maybe rolchen has been hiding in his room to shed tears, or he has been drinking in the private room of the bar.

Thinking of these, jingbao'er's tears could not help flowing down.

A good man like rolchen should not be so miserable.

It's all her

It's all about her.

It was she who pushed rolchen to the abyss.

At that time, if she chose to draw a clear line with him, he would not be so sad as now.

Now, she gave rolchen full of hope, let rolchen embrace full of expectations, and then directly turned around, gave rolchen a bucket of cold water, doused all the hope in his heart.

What people fear most is disappointment after full of hope.

The more I think about these things, jingbao'er's tears are more fierce.

"What's the matter? Well Jingrong kisses jingbao'er's forehead and asks in a low voice, "is it because I think of Luo Erchen that I feel guilty?"

From small to large, Jing Rong is the person who knows her best.

All her thoughts can't hide from Jing Rong's eyes.

Jingbao nodded heavily.

"Yes, fourth uncle I feel that I am especially sorry for rolchen. I gave him hope, but at last I personally gave him a despair. I took him all the way to the cloud full of happiness, and then mercilessly pushed him from the cloud to the boundless hell. Fourth uncle, I really feel that I am a sinner and unforgivable sinner. " Jing bao'er choked.

"Luo Erchen has been really good to me in the past two years, and he has given up a lot of things for me. His whole life is all around me. He has been waiting for me to give her a future, but I have promised him the future he wants. Finally, I told him that I can't give it, and I'm sorry Ha ha... "

"Fourth uncle You know, in the past two years, there have been several times when I couldn't be happy any more. If it hadn't been for the patient guidance and company of rolchen, I would have died long ago... "

"I don't think I told you that, did I? I once had a very serious depression. During that time, I felt as if I was in hell. I felt hopeless, could not see the direction, and had no interest in anything. The most thing I wanted to do every day was to die... "

"At that time, when rolchen knew I was ill, he began to take me everywhere to see a psychologist and treat me wholeheartedly. At the most serious time, rolchen even took care of me for several days in a row. Without rolchen, that depression would have killed me. Now I have absolutely no chance to be here with you Qing, i... "

"Every time I have any need, rolchen will not hesitate to stand up and give all his strength to help me. Every time I encounter any danger, rolchen will stand up and come out, pull me behind him and stop all the harm for me..."

"Fourth uncle, Luo Erchen is really good to me. He is so good, but I can't give him anything except hurt me..."

"Fourth uncle, I feel really sorry for Luo Er Chen. I owe Luo Er Chen this feeling. I'm afraid it's not over in my whole life..."

With these words, jingbao'er had already cried.

In the past two years, everything that happened between myself and rolchen began to appear in Jing Baoer's mind again and again, just like the replay of an old movie.

Every scene has a picture of rauchen's selfless dedication.

The more I think about this, the more painful Jingbao's heart is.

There is a kind of emotion called sadness, which almost completely engulfs jingbao'er.Jingbao'er now feels as if she can't breathe normally.

"I'm sorry for Luo Er Chen. I'm really sorry for Luo Er Chen. Luo Er Chen must be in great pain now, but I know this is the case, and I can't call to comfort him, because I know that the colder I am to Luo Er Chen, the faster Luo Er Chen will come out. If I care about him all the time, I'm afraid he won't be able to come out all his life..."

With that, Jing bao'er took out some paper towels and quickly wiped the tears on her face.

The more Jing bao'er said these words, the more he felt sad, and the more he said them, the more he felt deeply in love with Luo Erchen.

"Fourth uncle, I'm also very afraid. I'm afraid that Luo Erchen will be upset..." Jing bao'er said again.

What Jing bao'er said really moved Jing Rong.

Jing Rong can also feel the concern of rolchen for Jing bao'er in the past two years.

Without rolchen, jingbao'er might not be able to live.

Although Jing Rong is still a little angry with rolchen, he has a lot of gratitude.

In any case, Jing bao'er is really able to live so well because of Luo Erchen.

If there was no Luo Er Chen, he was afraid that he would never see this girl again.

In addition to touching Luo Erchen's efforts, Jing Rong also deeply loves Jing bao'er after hearing what Jing bao'er said.

It turned out that when he didn't see her, she was alone in a foreign country and suffered so much. She even nearly died because of him.

Thinking of these scenes, I felt a lot more guilty.