CH 17.2

Chapter 17 – Disillusion

Donor(s): Gunnar O

“…… I, have done nothing……”

It was just the same as my previous life. I can’t do anything filial to my mother even until the last moment.

All I’ve done to her was only making a picture of her when I was in kindergarten and giving her messaging coupons when I was in primary school.

But even with just those boring things, my mother was really happy receiving them.

Even when I started becoming a shut in, my mother still keeps those things with her.

I can’t do anything besides believing, believing that my mother will be alright.

That she will once again smile like she usually does. All that I can do is to just believe at that illusion like a fool, because that is all that I can do now.

After seeing such empty dream, I am awoken inside my dark room. But even so, all I can do is just open my eyes and live on emptily as I can’t do anything to the hollow inside my heart.

I can’t even cry. That feeling keeps sticking in my throat torturing me with intense pain without a way to force it out.

---- And eventually, that feeling turned into a violent anger.

For what sake did I receive this power and then get reborn in this world? Is there really nothing that I can do to solve this problem?

After pondering about it for a long time, I suddenly remember something that I heard while walking my life this far and it lit the fire of hope inside my heart.

[---- About that mandragora that thy uprooted, actually, it is also used to create a nostrum. It could cure all kind of sickness and it could even revive a near death person completely. The absolute secret in the pharmacy world…… the wonder drug known as Elixir----]

“Eli…… xir……”

It was the quest that has been requested by Obaba-sama Neris as the prerequisite to learn advanced level spirit magic from her.

I’ve been collecting the ingredient for making Elixir bit by bit after that but Obaba-sama haven’t tell me one last ingredient needed. She said that it was still too early for me to know.

“That’s right…… if it is Elixir then…… definitely……!”

I jump up from my bed abruptly like getting shocked by electricity.

I prepare myself to go out to visit Obaba-sama in her witch’s hut.

And then when I left my room in the second floor to get down to the first floor ---- I accidentally noticed something.

I noticed that there is a flow of cold air circulating inside the house. And that source of cold air is coming from the basement. The door to the basement room is left open ----!

(…… Who is it…… father……!?)

I have to go to Obaba-sama’s place as fast as possible but I can’t just left alone the thing happened in front of me. I then use [sneaking] before entering the basement because the one inside might not be my father after all…… In case the one entering are people that known about the existence of the demon sword and have evil intention with it, I could sneak from behind to ambush them.

After I walk through the underground passage that I passed only once in the past when I was still a baby, I reach the area located under the church.

What I see there is the figure of my father who brandished the demon sword in his hand.

(……!?)