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"Xiaowan, do you really want to go?" Susan's question made Su Xiaowan nod. She was not sure before, but on the way back, she seriously told herself a goal, no matter what, she should be responsible for herself, because some things can't give her so much time, so she has to work hard to become a new self.

"Susan, I told Tom to go too, so we can be together again." Susan was stunned by Su Xiaowan's words. She didn't seem to think that Su Xiaowan could even think of herself when she had such a thing. For a moment, she couldn't help crying in her eyes.

"Xiao Wan, I thought you were going by yourself. I didn't expect you to remember me." Susan's words made Su Xiaowan laugh.

"What do you say? How can I leave you? You fool? I have already told the landlady, so." Su Xiaowan's words made Susan nod quickly.

"How about we celebrate tonight, Xiao Wan? To be honest, when I brought you out, I was still hesitating. After all, I had some worries, but now it seems that there is really no more." Her words made Su Xiaowan nod.

"Some things are just like this. Anyway, we have come out, so we should work hard and be worthy of ourselves. After all, we are abroad, representing not only ourselves but also our country."

"If you don't want to take it with you, you still have patriotism." Listening to Susan's words, Su Xiaowan nodded.

"In any case, we are going to celebrate the new year. Do you want to call home?" Su Xiaowan's words darkened Susan's eyes. Lonely appearance let Su Xiaowan see in the eyes, she knew that some words asked wrong.

But what you say is like water thrown out. There is no way to take it back.

"I have no family." When Susan finished, she tried to smile.

"I'll be your sister in the future. How about having a good meal today?" Su Xiaowan knew that he had mentioned Su Xiaowan's sadness, so he quickly said other things to remedy it.

"Well, the landlady paid us anyway." Susan's words made two girls in a foreign country laugh happily.

Wine is a good thing, can let people temporarily release all feelings.

Although Su Xiaowan couldn't drink much, he still drank a little today.

"Susan, do you know how we felt when we first saw you?" Su Xiaowan talks to her with a cup. Susan eats the drumstick in her hand and shakes her head. Her face was a little red.

"How do you feel?" Su Xiaowan put down the cup in his hand, laughed for a while, nodded, and then began to speak.

"At that time, I felt that you, a girl, were too frivolous to lean on a man's shoulder. Do you know how angry I was at that time?"

"Hum, it's good to say that I have to fight with me. Do you know my nickname in the bar at that time, but I don't want to be destroyed by a little girl of yours." Susan talks to Su Xiaowan in an angry way.

Su Xiaowan went to her and sat down.

"At that time, I didn't know that I could drink like this, but these things are also memories of that time. It's good to think of them now." Su Xiaowan had drunk a little too much. When she got up to get the water, she was already staggering.

"You stand firm, don't fall, Xiao Wan. There are some things I want to ask you. These things are always in my heart. I don't know if I can ask them." At the moment, Su Xiaowan's back is facing Susan. I don't know why Su Xiaowan has a feeling that she always knows what she wants to ask.

"You ask." Su Xiaowan took the water and drank it slowly. Susan couldn't see the expression on her cheek at the moment.

"That man, do you love him?" Susan's words were like a bomb, which made Su Xiaowan's whole body ache. Originally thought that he would forget, but did not want her to mention the moment, all her memory followed the outbreak. She lowered her head and looked at the things at her wrists. She was silent for a while before she opened her mouth.

"What do you think?" Su Xiaowan's rhetorical question made Susan speak with the strength of wine.

"When you were drinking with me at that time, you loved me and loved me very much. Now, I believe you love me too. If you don't love me, how can you come here with me? You can have a better life in China. "

"You're wrong. I don't love you anymore." Su Xiaowan's words made Susan shake her head and walk towards her.

"Do you think I really fall asleep when you cry in the quilt every day? Since Xiaowan can't let go of it, why do you insist on it like this? Do you think it's strength? "

"What can I do? He doesn't love me in his heart. I'm just a shadow. He should be very happy now, because he's looking for her. "

"What did you say?" Susan thought she had heard wrong, so she quickly asked again. She had no reason to believe that mozeran was such a person.

"I've made it very clear that he is only a responsibility to me, so in this case, I'd better not. Thank you, Susan. I'm sure I'll be fine. Today I drink a little too much. I'll go to bed first. You clean up here. I'm sorry." After that, she put down her cup and went in. Looking at the way she went in, Susan sighed. Is it necessary for her to be so strong?But Susan doesn't know that Su Xiaowan's heart has been broken at the moment. Listening to her words, Su Xiaowan knows that some things she hasn't put down, just cheating herself not to think about.

Maybe time can ease everything, but can some things really be put down?

Susan saw that it was getting late, so Susan cleaned up and went to have a rest.

Although Su Xiaowan was lying on the bed, she didn't feel sleepy. Thinking of what she said just now, she didn't feel sleepy, because she knew that there was still a person in her heart, a person who didn't mention it, but was still there.

After Susan had cleaned up, she turned off the light in the room. Knowing that Su Xiaowan was not sleeping, she opened her mouth.

"Do you want to know my story?" Susan's words let Su Xiaowan say, well, because she knew Susan would not believe she was asleep.

"I'd like to listen if I could."

"I never used to drink before. Later I met my boyfriend, who was a bartender. Looking at his works, I enjoyed them very much, and our relationship was very good. I even thought about the names of our children in the future. We set the wedding date and chose the wedding dress, and I waited happily. But on that day, when he went to get the ring, there was an accident, and when I was in a hurry By the time we got to the hospital, he was gone. " When Susan finishes speaking calmly, Su Xiaowan sits up. Unexpectedly, Susan, who is always sunny, has such a story. For a moment, Su Xiaowan doesn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry, Susan. I don't know. It's like this." Su Xiaowan's apology made Susan shake her head.

"I don't mean anything else when I tell you these things today. I just hope you can cherish them when you are alive. Don't be like me. When you lose them, even if you anesthetize yourself with alcohol every day, what's the use?"

Susan's words made Su Xiaowan nod.

"I know, but there are things we don't control, so Susan, thank you." Su Xiaowan knew that her situation was different from that of Susan. Although she knew that she was kind to her, it was useless.

"We don't talk about this. We'll go to bed early and we'll go to work tomorrow. You're a lucky man. I can't think of such good things. It seems that I'll follow you all the time. Maybe I'll meet a handsome guy." Susan didn't want the atmosphere to be so awkward, so she said something relaxed.

"Well, that's no problem. If there are handsome guys in the future, I'll pay attention to them at the first time. When you get married, you must give me a big red envelope." Susan nodded. She knew in her heart that although they were joking, their hearts were full of pain.

Smile is not equal to happiness, sad is not equal to tears, people are so strange.

No matter when you wear two masks, you can't make others understand and you can't see them clearly..

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